Hi sorry for being late...it's just been a hectic few days so anyways here's chapter 5...enjoy :)

"Evans! Breakfast!" I sighed getting up and went to the door opening it a crack.

"Thanks James." I said and he smiled nodding before taking off down the stairs his cloak trailing behind him. I went back into my room tossing my blood stained pyjamas into a corner. I pulled on my robes and looked at the watch on my wrist stalling in my room before going down for the last two minutes of breakfast.

"Hey you missed it. You going to last till lunch?" Nicole asked as soon as I sat down beside her and I nodded knowing I could last much longer than that.

"I'll be fine if I get hungry I can get Potter to escort me to the kitchen, right Potter?" He looked up from his homework and I just shook my head. "just say yes."

"Unless you're asking me out on a date the answer is I want to know what the question is first." He said with a smirk.

"Actually it's if I get hungry later you'll escort me to the kitchen."

"Like a date?" He asked hopefully and I glared at him. It made me hopeful but I knew as long as I was in this state nobody would ever love me. Yet I wanted him to keep showing interest I couldn't help it but I wanted him to be mine.

"In your dreams, Potter."

We were dismissed and Nicole, Beatrice and I started walking to herbology. "You so like Potter." Beatrice said and I looked at her alarmed.

"No I don't." I said defensively and Beatrice crossed her arms.

"I cry bullshit."

"Nope I don't. We're friends that's all."

"Oh come off it, just admit it I saw the way you looked at him."

"So what if I do?" I said and Nicole and Beatrice smiled at each other.

"You have to ask him out. He's like you forever. You two are so cute." I shook my head furiously and Nicole looked at me.

"Why not?" She asked.

"Because…because…I just can't. He could never really love me….I'm too….well I focus a lot more on my studies than he does." I said not wanting to tell them the real reason.

"Whatever Lily just saying you'd make him really happy." I shrugged knowing she was wrong he would be happy for a while then he'd figure out my problems and run I couldn't be a burden to him.

The rest of the week continued the same way with Nicole and Beatrice telling me to ask potter out but I refused. Nobody noticed my eating habits but it seemed James had his eyes constantly on me.

On Sunday dinner we were eating dinner and James looked at me strangely "You drinking coffee, Evans?" I nodded and he raised his eyebrows. "Why?"

"Helps me stay alert lots of homework tonight." I said and he nodded and pushed his plate forward.

"You don't even have homework." Nicole said accusingly.

"ya we got that paper due in Charms." Beatrice swore under her breath and sighed.

"Anyways I'm going to go for a quick walk, I'll see you guys upstairs afterwards." I said and went outside. Today was the end of my three day fast. I'd managed to avoid breakfast, lunch and dinner by saying I had major cramps or that I'd been up earlier and had breakfast then.

I went outside and started running around the school campus. It cleared my head and I felt exhilarated and free. "Hey there Snivelus." I hid behind the tree hearing Potter and Sirius.

"What do you want?"

"Some fun, see we're bored."

"And Lily is nowhere near to protect you." I looked down in disappointment James hadn't changed after all.

"Levicorpus!"James screamed and I looked around the corner to see James in the air. I ran the short distance but found I felt dizzier than I first have. The earth spun and the ground disappeared from beneath my feet.

"Lily! Lily!" James screamed as the dots spread, darkness surrounding me.

ya another cliffy...will James find out? :P tee hee

-Little Miss Fake it