Okay well hi again...sorry i started upddating every 2 days it's just I still have a Civics project and the next few days are especially busy. I have youth group tomorrow night (I'll try and update during the day) friday I;m seeing the hunger games with my boyfriend (SO excited!) and there's a youth group sleepover that night and I might be painting my room this weekend...so I'll try and update soon :)
September became October and nobody noticed how I escaped to the bathroom after meals, James made all my problems disappear he made me feel….well like a princess.
I sighed sitting on my bed and looked down at my hands. James was at Quiddich holding try-outs and everyone else was doing homework. I preferred to be alone these days only because nobody understood why I stopped eating, nobody understood my constant battle with the mirror but me. James often commented on how I was getting skinnier but I just told him I was running more. But since then he'd started coming with me every night which I actually preferred.
I sighed as I lay on my bed and started reading one of my favorite muggle books.
"Lily?" I looked up to see James in the doorway and smiled as he walked in and sat beside me on my bed running a hand up and down my spine. "How are you?"
"Good, how did tryouts go?" I asked and he smiled
"Well we found a new Chaser and a new beater so we're set for the first game." I smiled and he lay down on his stomach beside me. "I missed you though." He said putting his arm around me and kissing my cheek.
I smiled and switched so I was lying on my side and buried my head in his chest. "Come on let's go to the common room." He said and got up picking my up in his arms as he walked down the stairs carefully.
"You've lost more weight." He said and I shrugged.
"I must just be losing my baby fat." I said casually and he nodded shrugging. We got to the common room and he sat me down in a corner on his lap. Sirius and Remus were already there and started talking to him about how great a few of the players had been.
"Lily?" I looked up and Sirius laughed slightly. "I asked if you wanted to go to dinner." I looked at James and nodded.
I got up and helped him up before taking his hand and walking to the dining hall. We sat and I gave in I ate everything that looked good. I ate curry, biscuits, cheese covered potatoes with bacon, Caesar Salad, seasoned vegetables and a bit of steak. James looked at my surprised as I dug in.
"Hungry?" James asked and I nodded. "Well it seems like it you're eating almost as much as Sirius. Sirius blushed and I couldn't help but laugh.
"You okay Remus?" I asked as I saw he looked pale and sick.
"Ya just not feeling well." I nodded and shot him what I hoped to be a sympathetic look.
We finished dinner and I told James I'd meet him outside I just had to run upstairs and change first.
I stopped by the bathroom feeling guilty and continued on my normal routine. I shoved a finger down my throat and gasped as everything came up tears running down my face.
"Lily!" I jumped as a familiar voice called my name and looked up ready for a tirade.
Okay sorry for the slight cliffy. So what do you guys think James will do? I know since I have the chapter pre-written many thanks to my boyfriend for giving me his opinion when I was stuck (Love you Auzzie bear :P ) So anyways the song for this chapter was tricky but in the end I decided on Sleeping At Last-Quicksand. So anyways have a good night (or for some of you morning/afternoon) and I love reviews :)
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