Only in my Dreams

Will I Let her Go

SokkaxYue

A short story to keep you guys satisfied until I can get the next chapter of OimD up. It's kind of a deleted scene type of thingy. I may do more but they won't be sad like this. It's not as sad as I wanted it to be but if you picture it in your head, it's really sad. (to me at least) Again, I'm REALLY sorry that I haven't had time to update the next chapter

-:cowers from people with torches and pitchforks:-

But I really am sorry. I've just been trying to brush up on my drawing skills and improve my grades at school. Softball has started as well so I only have time to work on this on the weekends. Even then I end up having Softball games and if there's not a game, I have friends over or I'm just too tired to do anything! Yeah those are still bad excuses and not enough since I've not updated since…..forever.

Please bear with me a little longer until I can finish revising past chapters n' stuff.

So, without further ado, here it is!!

A scream ripped from his chest and the boy shot into a sitting position. Panting heavily he stared wildly at his surroundings. Cold sweat was starting to bead on his forehead and he wiped it away with his sleeve. He placed a hand on his chest to try and slow his frantic breathing but with no avail.

"It was just a dream…" The young teen mumbled to himself as he pulled a knee up to his chest.

"Sokka?" Came a tiny voice. "Are you alright?" A young blue-eyed girl asked.

He nodded. "Yeah, it….was…just a bad dream."

Katara looked at him sympathetically, "Do you want to ta-"

"No." He interrupted.

Katara was taken aback, "A-are you-"

"Yes! I'm fine!" Sokka snapped then jumped up. "Just….go back to sleep!" He fumed and stomped off.

The young waterbender stared after him, dumbstruck at what her brother had just done. Deciding not to dwell on it, she lay back down. "Alright."

The trees swayed with a breeze, the young warrior walked away from the camp, hands shoved into his pockets. His dream was less of a dream and more of a memory, or, a collection of memories to be exact. The clouds parted and the light of a full moon covered him, but with it, came a pang of sadness in the young boy's heart.

With a heavy sigh, he threw himself down on the ground. It was about her, about Yue. Although he'd just had a dream, a memory, it had seemed so real, so close. The smell of her hair and the texture of her clothes…all so real.

Memories flashed through his mind like a movie. The first time he'd seen her, when she asked him to meet her on the bridge that night, the time she kissed him- the moment she'd been called to be the moon spirit… Sokka looked at his hands in disgust.

"She's dead." Said he, slapping the hands to his head. "She's friggin' gone and I shouldn't have these dreams." Tears slipped down his face. "She's gone!" He screamed at the sky.

A cloud covered the moon and cast him into silvery darkness. The grass swayed all around him, like ripples in a pond, as a breeze blew through.

"I should have protected her. I loved her. It's…" He didn't finish his sentence; a whisper had come from nearby. Standing, he squinted into the darkness and wiped his face. "Who's there?" His ears strained for even the slightest hint of a sound.

For a few minutes, he stood quietly as the breeze picked up again. He knew that something was whispering, it was trying to communicate with someone and he wanted to know who it was and why they were whispering. The faint whisper came with every breeze, which came more frequency and greater strength with each passing minute.

Sokka walked forward through the meadow peering into the shadows for any hint of movement. But there was none. Nothing moved except the grass that swayed with the wind. Nothing made a sound except the faint breath that grew in volume with each breeze. When the next breeze came he closed his eyes and opened all his senses, trying to derive words from the faded whisper.

Sokka…

His eyes snapped open and he wheeled wildly around to his left, striking out with a fist. When his fist connected with nothing, he strove madly to find whoever had said his name.

"Who's there?" he shouted, spinning around, every fiber of his being was ready to fight or flee. Which ever it came to, he wasn't going to hesitate on making a decision.

That time it was so close, so clear, I could swear someone was whispering it into my ear. He thought, heart pounding wildly. (A/N: It rhymed! Ack, I hate that.)

All around him was forest but it was barely discernable from the landscape -especially at night. He stared around at his surroundings. There were no moving shadows, no creeping critters.

Nothing.

Nothing but swaying grass that reached to mid-calf, not high enough to hide a person, or a predator. Sokka sat down and felt immense relief rush through him; he hadn't realized how shaky his legs had been until he sat. They felt like jelly and his heart was beating so fast he was sure it would fly out of his chest. He leaned back n the grass and stared up at the stars and when his eyes met the bright moon, he felt tars push at his eyes.

"Yue…" he mumbled and covered his face with an arm.

Sokka…

He shot up into a sitting position. "Who's there?"

The clouds uncovered the full moon and lit up the entire meadow in silvery light. Sokka couldn't believe his eyes, walking towards him was a human figure with long white hair and powdery blue eyes.

"Yue?" He stared. "I-it can't be…no…oh my god, Yue?" He took a few tentative steps forward then stopped.

The silvery white woman smiled at him and nodded.

Sokka's jaw dropped, "B-but…you-you're dead. You can't be here." His voice was shaky and his eyes were still wide in excitement.

No friggin' way, no way. She can't be alive, I held her….I held her when she was taken to be the moon spirit. There is no way this is her.

She was about ten feet from him now and stopped. She shook her head and placed her sad eyes on him. "No Sokka, I'm not dead. True, my earthly body is gone but I live on as the Moon Spirit."

It sounds exactly like her. That voice….

"How are you here? I mean, if you really are Yue." He folded his arms across his chest to try and look disbelieving but something inside him urged him that it was really her.

Her eyes fell, "I thought this would happen." With a heavy sigh, she reached into her pocket, "I think this is all the proof you'll need." When she drew her hand out, in it was the 'bear' Sokka had carved.

Sokka stared, "That's…I carved that…" Tears rolled down his face and he moved towards her, "It really is…I never imagined…"

She turned the crudely carved bear in her hands and smiled at him. Her eyes lit up and tears fell from her own eyes. The clouds overhead started to move towards the moon again as it started to rain.

Sokka fell to his knees and sobbed, "Yue…This must be a dream…there's no way you'd really be here."

"You still doubt me?" Yue let out a heavy sigh and moved towards him. She bent down and caressed his face. "Am I real enough now?"

Sokka grabbed her hand and held it in his own. "But how? How can you really be here?" He asked, kissing her hand and holding it to his face.

"I'm connected to you Sokka, in your heart. As long as you remember me and love me, I'll never leave you." Her tears dripped onto his upturned face.

"Oh Yue." Sokka grabbed her and pulled her close to him. "I'm never letting you go, never again."

It can't really be…oh God it's her! It's really her! All this time I've been waiting, hoping that maybe, just maybe I'd see her again. And, her she is, wrapped in my arms. This is too good to be true.

She buried her face in his chest. "I never want to go."

"Then don't." He placed his chin on the top of her head and ran his fingers through her silky hair, just to reassure himself that she was still there. "Never leave me, stay this way forever."

All this time…I though she'd been gone, but she never really was.

She let out a long series of quiet sobs, her small frame shaky violently. As she cried, the rain came pouring down harder, and harder. "I can't stay with you." Her brilliant blue eyes met his, "I'm sorry."

But now that I can really see her, I never want her to go. This is all so real, her skin, her hair, her clothes, her voice…everything.

He held her closer, "No! Don't leave me!" The rain ran down his face and he calmed slightly, "I can't live without you anymore."

"But, I won't be gone Sokka. I'll be here." She placed a hand on his chest, directly over his heart.

"That's not enough Yue!" Standing up he finished, "I can't go any longer without you. I want you here, beside me, wherever I go." Their eyes locked, "Forever."

The young princess stood in front of him. "Sokka…" Her eyes pleaded with him and in his heart, a pang of guilt rippled through him. The rain poured even harder and the wind wailed through the trees as they stood there. "You know I can't. If I did, the world would fall into chaos, then where would we be?"

"Then why did you come to me if you can't stay? Why would come here to give me my hope back, only to leave me even more broken than before?" He wiped rain from his eyes, "Do you really love me?"

Thunder ripped across the sky, when Yue let out a small wail. "I love you, Sokka. I swear I do! But you are putting me in an impossible position! I would give anything to be with you, you should know that!" She hiccupped slightly and Sokka wrapped her up in his arms.

"Sh…I'm sorry I yelled, I got frustrated. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He kissed her face with each apology. "Calm down, I know…I understand."

The wind started to die down and the rain became a small sprinkle. The pair stood there drinking up each other's company. Water had soaked them both completely and now they were getting very cold.

Yue broke the embrace, "Sokka. I have to leave now."

"What? Why?"

She pointed at the orange horizon in the distance.

"No…Yue…"

"Close your eyes."

"No, you'll-"

"No I won't, close your eyes."

Sokka looked at her sadly then did so, He felt her lips press against his and her hand on the back of his neck. His arms wrapped around her waist and he pulled her closer, flattening her body against his. An odd sensation rippled through his body and he could barely feel Yue's body against his. When he tried to pull her closer, nothing happened. Opening his eyes, he saw her being called back the moon. She was literally fading away in his arms.

"No, not yet." He mumbled, eyes wide with fear. "Don't leave yet, I'm not ready."

Yue looked just as surprised, "Sokka, I don't want to. Believe me, I'd do anything to be with you."

"Then do it! Just don't go."

"You know I can't." She looked at him with such sorrow it almost made tears run down his face. He let out a sigh of grief and surrender as he ran his hands through her hair then buried his face in it.

"Fine." He mumbled, releasing her and placing his hands over his eyes. "Go then."

Yue gave him a melancholy glance then lightly walked towards the moon, her figure growing less and less opaque the closer she got to it. Sokka lifted his head and watched her leave with the pain of losing a loved one gripping his heart. She turned and looked at him with tearfilled eyes as she became completely transparent. Sokka jumped up and ran at her fading figure.

"NO!" He screamed, shameless tears pouring down his face. "NO! Yue!" His voice cracked and his throat constricted. "…Don't….don't…." With a leap, he tried to wrap his arms around her silloutte, but his hands met nothing but empty air and he crashed to the ground on his knees. "…don't leave me…I…" He stared up at the sky, "I love you so much."

The rain started to fall again, a warm rain, a soothing rain. It beat lightly on the ground and swept down the warrior's face. A soft breeze blew by and listening intently, he made out the words, I love you. A smile spread across his upturned face and he stood and lifted his arms into the air, letting the rain completely cover him.

Sokka…

"What Yue? I'm right here."

Sokka…

"I'm right here!" He waved his arms at the moon for emphasis. While he did, his hand struck something solid.

'Ouch! Sokka!' this time it was followed by freezing wateron his face.

"WHAT?!!? HOLY CRAP THAT'S COLD!!!" He shot up and looked around. Surrounding him was Katara and Aang. No Yue.

I knew it was too good to be true.

"Sokka! We need to leave! A storm is coming and we need to find shelter." Aang explained.

But Sokka was still thinking about his dream. "N'kay" He muttered, standing up hoping Aang would leave. As he left, he began rolling up his sleeping bag and getting all his things gathered up. Thoughts about his dream made tears come to his eyes and he quickly wiped them away, hoping nobody had noticed.

"Sokka?" Came Katara's voice. "Are you alright? You kept screaming about Yue and ho wmuch you loved her." She left her voice trail off. They stood in silence then Sokka turned to his sister. "I know you don't want to hear this from me but…" She took in a deep breath. "She's gone Sokka and you can't bring her back. But even if her earthly body isn't here any longer, her spirit is still with you, carried in your heart." Hse paused and waited for a comment from him. But Sokka just stared at her. "That's the tie that will keep her with you."

Her brother hadn't even blinked. He just stared at her.

Katara looked at him with concern, "I know, I know you probably don't want to talk ab-" She was cut off by a hug from her older brother. He pulled her close to him and let a few tears run down his face.

"Thank you." He said. "Thank you so much, Katara."

Maybe, that'll happen only in my dreams but at least, I know now she'll always be around. Yue is still with me, she's alive in me. And there's no way I'd let that die.

Okay, so let me know what you thought of this chapter! It was a lot of fun writing it, I forgot how much I loved to write! ;

I did this really quickly, so there may be a few mistakes and there may be some things that need to be changed. If you notice anything, don't hesitate to let me know!

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