I heard a tiny moan escape from his throat and in less than a second he went on top of me. He started kissing me like never before. This was not the usual self guarded Edward I know. This was the animal part of Edward that I have been yearning for a long time. He was kissing me with this new fervor that was making me tremble beneath him. I knew Edward has been holding back for a long time because he has been afraid of hurting me, but now it's like he finally gave in to what we both needed. He was kissing my lips and going down to my neck and feeling my breasts over my shirt. While we were kissing I managed to take off my shirt and let Edward see me. I was not nervous because I know he is the one I am going to spend the rest of my life with. When my shirt was off Edward looked at me in the eyes. He looked as if he was worried. I asked him "what's wrong?" He looked at me and said "Bella, I'm worried about your soul. I have no soul, but you do, and I want to make sure that you have a chance at going to heaven if we ever die." I looked at him seriously and said "Edward, you have the most beautiful soul, and I know what we are doing is right. We are meant for each other. Why do you have to keep on denying pleasure? You deserve it! You deserve to be a normal man that has needs you don't have to be so masochistic all the time. You are allowed to take delight in your girlfriend's body. Stop trying to make things so much more complicated than they need to be." He said "it's always going to be complicated because I am a vampire and you're a fragile human. I looked at him and replied "don't think of it that way. Think of it as you're a man and I am a woman and we both have needs.

I stared into his eyes and I took off my bra. He didn't look down I grabbed his hand and guided it down to where my breast was. He closed his eyes and started feeling it. I could tell Edward was enjoying himself by the look of euphoria on his face. He then opened his eyes and said "Bella you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met in my life." With this he started kissing me again, with the same kind of fervency as before. He started with my eyelids and made his way down to my lips and down my neck to my breasts. He started kissing them and putting them in his mouth. It was such a weird but pleasurable sensation. Since Edward is cold it made my nipples cold but it felt good at the same time. He would go down to where my belly button was at and would go up again. I started to take off Edwards's shirt so that I could marvel at his body while he marveled at mine. I managed to get it off and Edward didn't seem to mind. So we became entangled in each other's body. I thought I knew Edward's body because I have been with him so long, but being with him like this was a new experience. This was like I was feeling Edward for the first time. Of course Edward knew every part of my body. I don't know how he came to know it's not as if we have ever been this way before. It was like he could read my mind like where I liked to be kissed. When I want him to linger at a certain spot. Maybe it was his vampire senses. I don't know but this part I could get used to. If I need to get married to get this all the time then it is damn worth it. I was enraptured at how much love I felt for Edward. I felt as if my heart was a vast ocean and the only person that could quench my soul's desire was Edward. Right now Edward was giving into my desires and I think that he was finally giving in to his.