Author's Notes:
Okay, this has got to be one of my favorite Evanescence songs…ever. (See this is by Evanescence, not me.) This is the last story that includes bronzeshipping for now, however this couple will be back later on…
Whisper
A ripping feeling goes through my body, as I feel myself falling into the darkness. How dare he, how dare he betray me? I am him.
I close my eyes, and beg the Shadows not to consume me wholly. Why must it end like this, why has my anger, and my light failed me? Where is the light that can save me from the darkness? Does he not care?
Lonely, alone, desolate...these are the thoughts that run through my mind. This isn't fair, why do these feelings always run through me. I feel like a child again, I feel like myself when I was just beginning to split souls with my useless, careless hikari.
Everyone says that I am insane, demented, but have they ever thought that I was just trying to help my hikari. He's me, therefore, he means the world to me...well...I might care for him a bit more, but so what.
What really bothers me is his lack of love towards me. Everything I've done, all the wrongs, was to make him happy. I wanted to show him my thanks for bringing me into this life, to this world. I thought I was protecting him.
I see the swirling black clouds, and I know that I am at my final destination, the Shadow Realm. I don't smile, but I don't frown...I guess for once I need to think. I need to forgive and forget.
The Shadows lurk within themselves, and I can feel them slowly moving towards me. I know that this is where I belong, I am one of them, I am home...but then why do I feel so lost. I am darkness, therefore, I should feel safe within the darkness, but I don't.
I am ripped out of my thoughts by something grabbing me, trying to rip at me, and destroy my very being. Is this what I'm destined for?
Another tear and this one damage my memory. People always have someone trying to save them from the Shadows, but now, they leave me here to rot.
The struggle between the Shadows and I continue. I know, however, that I won't be able to last in this fight much longer. They are overpowering.
All the memories of the good times, I feel them slipping away. The Shadows are easily feeding off me, but why, is it because I'm letting all my feelings out, is it because I am showing weakness? I need to seal myself away from these stupid feelings that keep getting in the way.
The pain is getting worse, and I know that the Shadows are enjoying this. They feed off my pain, and they laugh as I struggle in vain.
I feel as if my very everything is being destroyed. I am in an immense amount of pain, and I rather suffer through death then be stuck in this hell, hell, hell is probably better than this place.
I close my eyes willing the pain to end, but I know that my will will not be granted.
I look around and see many other lost souls. They must've suffered before me. I guess I can see the error of my ways now; they have all suffered so much...it's despicable.
Why wasn't there someone there to help them? Why isn't there someone here to help me? Where is the saving light, the God that rescues us?
Maybe, just maybe, they kept fighting. I need to let go, join the darkness, there is no one there to save me.
I do the one thing I fear most, I close my eyes, take me away Shadows. I am yours, I am one of you.
There is no reason to fight, they will win, they will always win. This is what the Shadows have been doing from the beginning of time.
I see a light, my light. It's here, it engulfs me in warmth. I close my eyes and let it overcome me, take me away.
I feel myself reappear into the material world, the weight of a human body finally catching up to me.
Small fingers run across my face, and I mentally thank my savior. I am surprised when I hear a hyper voice reply /you're welcome/ and I feel my cheeks heat up.
/I got a second chance, so you deserve one too. I know what the Shadows are like, and no one deserves that torture./ My hikari mutters. /I understand, I'm sorry./ I reply, via mind link.
My hikari pulls me closer, and I slowly open his eyes to see worried violet eyes staring back down at me. "Marik, are you okay," I hear his voice say softly. I nod, and I know that I am saved from that eternal darkness.
Author's Notes:
Well, I probably wont be updating this story next week, I will be on vacation. However, I hope you enjoy it, because next time will be…Tendershipping!