I really don't know what I was thinking when I wrote some of these... Some of the words make me want to crack up...
CROWFEATHER
After the sweetness, after the faith,
It was so easy to fall
To let go of it all
To abandon the code.
Even though I knew
It was wrong.
Blinded by her song,
Alone and afraid.
You wouldn't believe just
How easy it was to be lulled.
Sparkling blue eyes, sweet, graceful.
I saved her one time too many.
If I had just moved quicker, if only
I had just been as quick with my claw, as fast
As my eyes in that horrifying last
glimpse of my love. I could have saved her.
You can say all you like that I
couldn't have done anything,
But I need to cling
onto hurt and loss.
Or I am nothing but
a lifeless, purposeless shell.
There's a story I'll tell,
one of true love, and true despair.
I wanted to run away from the feeling,
I knew it too well, the unending itch,
And the sweet flavor, the rich
feeling that you can do anything.
I looked into those amber eyes,
Into her gentle heart,
Felt mine tear apart,
knew I had to choose.
She came with me, but love
isn't always right, and you
can never trust it to
lead you on the right path.
I chose loyalty over love.
I will never love again, but at least
my constant torment has finally ceased.
I ignore the truth, and look away from my kits.
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NIGHTCLOUD
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I know he doesn't love me, I know it.
I knew it that night, but couldn't accept
that my fate was that bad, but slept
through it all. I cried my self to sleep.
Even though I know he's too proud,
Even though he's too bossy,
Even if his coat isn't glossy,
He's still my kit, and I still love him.
In this cruel, demanding world,
I stick to what I know,
And hang my head low,
Yet I still claw at hope.
Sometimes I think I'm cursed.
I'm the cloud that covers the moon.
But maybe someday, maybe soon,
He'll look at me and realize the truth.
Maybe someday he'll love me.
My life is like dangling from a thread,
hoping that he'll bring me back from the dead.
Maybe someday he will.
If I have love, I am the luckiest.
That, I will have to do without.
But if I have not hope,
I have nothing.