Note: I just typed this up in case anyone wanted to know what Kazu had written to Spitfire.
Dear Spitfire,
You can be a real jerk you know that? What kind of guy writes a death letter to his boyfriend while he's asleep in the other room? Though I guess that's just like you, always thinking a step ahead. You did come up with that video after all.
I don't know if I have the strength you saw in me anymore. Every time I reach for your regalia I stop. I can't bring myself to use them mostly because I know after a while they will become mine and the part of you carved in them might disappear. I don't know what to do really. Though at times I still think I can hear you, telling me to suck up and that you gave those to me for a reason so I should use them.
Maybe I'm fucking nuts.
Still, damn it man, if you cared that damn much why did you go and die?
Sorry, I know lashing out at you won't change anything. I guess I am still just a kid after all. I don't even know how to deal with pain properly.
I'm going to miss you man, miss you fucking bad. It's odd but its almost like I was whole when I was around you. Geeze now I just sound sappy.
I know you cared Spitfire, and I know you know I did.
Forever yours,
Kazuma
P.s. I love you too.