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It had been almost a week since Eddi had finally admitted that she replicated Lucs feelings, that she too, was in love with him. The kind of love you imagine only in fairytales, just the thought of him loving her back just as much as she loved him brought her such unimaginable happiness. Happiness that she had stopped looking for many years ago, after coming to the conclusion that she'd never get to experience it, that she 'didn't deserve' it.

Luc's life had taken such an expected turn, he remembered how uncomfortable he felt about discussing his feelings and thoughts, and how he'd prefer to spend his nights alone in his 'mobile home' rather than spend it communicating with anyone. Things had slightly changed now, only slightly though, his overwhelming love for this woman scared the hell out of him, the thought of another human being wanting him as apposed to just needing him for a medical purpose was all new to him, and was one of the most frightening things he's ever experienced. What if he let her down? What if she needed him and he wasn't there? What if he needed her and she wasn't there? What if she stopped loving him? He tried his upmost best to push all the negative thoughts away, but the thought of leaving himself so open, so vulnerable, was a thought too dangerous to even comprehend.

It was a freezing September morning as Eddi made her way into holby, she had spent one of her few nights away from luc and she missed him like crazy, she looked down at her watch and saw her shift started in another half an hour, so did Lucs. Quickly, she walked to over to the caravan before letting herself in, and as predicted, Luc sat at his table going over patient notes.

He looked up and saw her, he could see the longing in her eyes, he too had missed her like crazy, he stood up and took a step forward,

"Morning" He said softly giving her his famous half grin

"Morning to you too" She took afew steps forward and evoloped her arms around his neck, pulling him towards her, so his face was inches away from hers

He softly pressed his lips against hers, savouring the moment, yes, he had missed her, which was a feeling he had started to come accustomed to recently, everytime she had a late shift, or they were working different days, he always found himself at a loss with what to do.

She starting to quickly unbutton his shirt, her desires had defiantly taken over, she wanted him, here and now, and she was going to have him, well .. at least until he pulled away, which inevitably didn't take long.

"I thought sex made you sick" Luc whispered, remembering a conversation they had over three months ago, when his quick witt had irritated her and had caused her to make out sex and children made her sick

"Hmm .. im cured, its a miricle, besides, i think i can make an exception" She whispered seductivily and pushed her lips towards his again with force.

Once again, he pulled away.

"There's the slight problem of work Nurse Mckee"

"Argh" She groaned

She reluctantly pulled away and rested her head against his forehead ..

"I missed you Luc" She said softly

"I know, me too" Why couldn't he say the words? Why couldn't he tell her he missed her?

One last kiss and they made their way into AAU, obviously not together, they were trying their best to keep their 'relationship' a secret, was it a relationship? He didn't even know, relationship is such a big word, and a massive commitment, he wasn't the commiting type, like everyone knew.

It had got to lunch time without a hitch, no difficult patients, no arguments ... (Yet), Luc had been keeping his distance from Eddi, she knew they'd said they'd keep their relationship a secret, but completely ignoring her was a step too far, he was the once who had confessed his feelings too, he was also the one who said he wanted a family with her, so why was he acting so cold? so distant? So ... awkward?

She saw him disapear into the locker room, its strange how everyone goes in there when they need a minute to themselves, usually after a difficult case. She quickly followed him, as she entered, he was stood, staring out of the window, he looked troubled ... lost.

"Luc ..." She said quietly.

"Mmmm" His response was barely loud enough to be heard.

"What's wrong" She was worried, worried she'd done something, worried he had changed his mind.

"What?" Now she had his attention, questioning, she always did that so well, always got an answer out of everyone so quickly.

"I said what's wrong" She was getting aggitated now, he never listened.

"Wrong? Why would there be something wrong?"

"You've been avoiding me all day, i've hardly got two words out of you" She sounded vulnerable ... scared.

"Well thats not true, i seem to remember our 'nearly' encounter when you broke into my home this morning" He could tell she wasn't in the mood for his sarcasam but he couldn't stop himself, it was like a reflex, everytime things got difficult, or too personal, his sarcastic and awkward side took over.

"Im not joking Luc"

"Neither am i .. "

She looked down at her hands, she could feel herself getting worked up, he thought this was a joke, he really didn't care did he? He didn't love her, not in the slightest.

"I'm sorry .." He knew he had done wrong, he had ignored her on purpose, kind of, he didn't like the thought of something knowing him better than he knew himself, knowing everything about him, it made him feel so vulnerable.

"You didn't mean it did you?"

"Mean what?"

"When you said y .. you loved me, you've backed out, you're scared, i get it, but you can't mess me about Luc, you can't, i won't let you" The tears threatened to fall down now.

He looked at her, she was right, partly, he was scared, and all he wanted to do was get up and leave, but he loved her, too much to even think about leaving her.

He put his hands around her face and made sure she was looking at him.

"Hey .. hey .. you're wrong, you are wrong, i do love you, i do"

"You don't you rea ..." He kissed her, this was the only way he could prove it to her, the only way he could show her he loved her, because he sure as hell he couldn't put it into words.

He pulled away and wiped her tears away with his thumbs.

"I promise you, I love you, I love you so much"

Hours had gone past now, Luc had been paying alot more attention to eddi, well, at least until about an hour ago when he said he had to go finish some patient notes in his caravan, Eddi's shift ended in 10 minutes, she was counting down the minutes so they could finish what they had started this morning.

Luc sat in his 'home' staring outside the window, he could no longer see holby, he was surrounded by fields and trees, no sign of life, no people, no cars, no nothing. Some people may call him a coward, but he called it 'looking after his sanity' he needed to make sure he didn't get hurt, but he had never expected to feel this guilty, one thing for sure was that he was most defiantly head over heels in love with Eddi, and now, he had to live with that every single day, he tried to convince himself it was for the best, for her, but deep down, he knew it wasn't.

Eddi quickly walked into the locker room to get changed, her phone beeped and she saw 'Luc' flash on her screen, which put an unimaginable massive grin of her face, that was until she read what it said, she went over and over it, why did it seem like he had done something wrong? What did he do? Was he okay? She pressed call, nobody answered, she called at least another 5 times until the phone was switched off.

She ran outside in the rain, looking for what would make or break her entire future.

He had gone.

He'd left.

She looked at the message

"I'm sorry" and sunk to the floor, the water was splashing against her face, washing away everything, she'd lost him, he'd left.

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I'm really sorry if there was any mistakes, i tried my best, i do plan on updating this and i promise i won't leave it as long next time ! If any of you have twitter, mine if Gemma_Tones and i follow back !

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