September 2, 1977

I got through the day. I managed not to die. I should be proud…I'm not.

Potter managed to make me look like a fool at lunch AND dinner today. I shall record what happened:

LUNCH:

I was walking into the hall, sat down, and began to eat with Emma, Ava, and Jen. Then Potter and his mates came over to us and sat down. Jen and James—Potter exchanged the usual sibling talk then Ja—POTTER! turned to me.

"Hey Lily," he began.

"If it so much as ends with 'will you go out with me?' Then no," I said.

"It doesn't. Hagrid told me to tell you that Maria told him that Penny told her that Taylor told her that Amos told him to tell you that Amos would like to kill you," he said. I stared at him.

Remus hit Ja—POTTER on the arm. "No, he didn't. It was: Hagrid told Prongs to tell you that Maria told him that Penny told her that Taylor told her that Amos told him that Silena told him that Summer told her that Bobbie told her that Alice told her that James liked you." I stared at him. "That didn't make sense did it?"

"OF COURSE NOT!" I yelled. "Why would all those people need to tell each other that James liked me? I already knew that he was OBSESSED with me!"

"No, it was Hagrid told Prongs to tell you that Maria—" Peter began sweekingly (Is that a word?).

Emma cut him off, "Just say what all those people told each other!"

"Well, it was that…" All of his friends began to glare at him, "well, that James, Remus, and Sirius liked yo—"

"YOGURT!" roared Ja-Potter.

"YOKES!" cried Remus.

"YOYOS!" sang/yelled Sirius, covering up what Peter was trying to say. The hall was silent at all the yelling.

I burst out laughing. "Sirius and Remus like me!" They both shook their heads no.

"They don't like you! I don't like you!" J—POTTER yelled. "I love you Lily!" The hall fell silent, even more so than before, it was as if everyone wasn't breathing. Everyone stared at the two of us, James's—Potter's chest heaving, looking at me, and me staring up at him, wide eyed, not believing.

I stared at him.

"Well aren't you going to say anything?" he asked.

I looked away. "No," I muttered and left the hall, too embarrassed to see straight.

DINNER:

At dinner he and his mates sat next to me and my friends, all of them smiling mischievously.

"What do you want?" asked Jen, glaring at her brother.

"Dinner, this is where we eat, you know," he replied. She continued to glare at him.

When dinner was almost done, he stood up. "Lily, do you wish to go on a walk with me?"

"Why should I?" I asked.

"Because I have a surprise." He wiggled his eyebrows at me. By now half of the hall was watching us, the silence was spreading.

"Never!" I hissed and ran out of the hall for a second time that day. I heard him follow me out of the hall. I turned around.

"LEAVE ME ALONE, POTTER!" I screamed.

"Lily, just hear me out," he pleaded.

"NO! YOU HAVE BEEN ON MY TAIL FOR THE LAST SIX YEARS AND I WANT THIS TO STOP NOW! HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID NO TO YOU?!"

"8,610 times," he muttered. That caught me.

"What?"How would he know!?

"You have declined my requests 8,610 times," he said. People were beginning to come out into the entrance hallway to watch what we were doing.

"How on earth do you know that?!"

"It matters to me. You matter to me." He took a step towards me.

"No…no…this can't be…THIS CANNOT BE TRUE!" I yelled then turned on my heel and raced up to my room where I am writing this all down now. He followed me. He is at my door. Why does he have to be so handsome?

"Lily?"

"Go away, James!"

"Lily, may I come in?"

"NO!"

He came in anyway.

"You said my name," he said.

"No, I didn't."

"Yes, you did. You said, 'Go away, James.'"

"Shut up."

He laughed and sat next to Lily on her bed. "You just don't want to admit that you are in love with me!"

"I am NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU!"

"Yes YOU ARE!"

"AM NOT!"

"ARE TOO!"

"AM NOT!"

"Fine, you win. You obviously don't love me."

"AM NOT!—What?"

"You win."

"Oh…good."

"But, if you aren't afraid of having feelings for me, then kiss me." Her jaw dropped.

"How stupid do you think I am?!"

"You are afraid of loving me?"

"NO!"

"Then kiss me!"

Their faces were inches apart. Lily's mind was blank as was James'.

'I will so kill myself for this,' thought Lily.

She slapped him and shoved him away from her room. When the door shut, she cast a silencing spell on the room, and cried.