Noise of the everlasting summer nights

Repeat 161

Endless recursion of time

by Synaps

It seemed like my explanation for the sudden appearance of Asakura Ryoko's voice was sufficient. It was a one-time event.

I was unsure of whether or not I was happy about that.

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No, of course I wasn't happy about it. A Human Interface is different from a human. Emotions is not part of the programming.

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Suzumiya Haruhi is yelling at Kyon, again.

It's her fault I'm stuck in an infinite loop.

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If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have been created to begin with.

I wouldn't have ever met Kyon.

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I think there is something wrong with my programming.

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I've been looking into the books and movies that deals with endless recursions of time.

As far as I understand, nearly all the protagonists seem to follow the same pattern for coping with it.

One that I can't, due to orders.

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I've become more daring in my quest for books I haven't read. I've gone as far as the library, once more using the card Kyon got for me.

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We went bug-hunting. The SOS Brigade's search for cicadas. I pretended not to recognise the bug, so that Kyon could help me out again.

It wasn't like I took any pleasure out of it, I was merely following the pattern set up during previous loops. If I change my actions the course of action decided by the brigade members might shift. The basics of science is to minimise outside interference.

I count as an outside interference.

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Something interesting happened.

Asahina Mikuru phoned Koizumi Itsuki, who contacted me and Kyon. It seems like the time-traveller is unable to contact her superiors, due to the nature of the loop.

She cried.

I am unable to understand why this didn't come up sooner, considering how she found out. Is she as incompetent as she seems and merely forgot about it? Or did she simply choose the option of not telling us?

Perhaps her orders are more similar to my own than I had previously thought.

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Of course, Koizumi Itsuki understood right away that I was aware of the loop. He is clever, which worries me since I'm unsure of his motives.

However, it seemed to bother Kyon.

I didn't like that and yet, I did.

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There is something wrong with me, but I don't know what.

There is nothing in my programming preparing me for this.

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I'm looking into books on human psychology, afraid to access the knowledge network of the Data Overmind. I don't want them to think I'm in need of such knowledge.

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I don't want to be erased.

Author's notes: As you noticed, I won't be able to live up to the update-promise. School is evil. You know it is. Still, I'm sorry. I've decided to post any time I've got something finished.

I probably should start with writing ten chapters before posting the first of a new story on , I would be able to be 9 chapters ahead all the time. Ah, wishful thinking.

Yes, this is becoming more and more KyonxYuki, but it remains as one-sided as in the originals. Still - fear not, Ryoko will help out~