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Confiar. Trust.
14
High pitched cries of seagulls resonated into my head, making my pain throb with the headache that I felt at any moment could split my head open. I stirred, a grunt escaping me as I turned to my side but I froze upon feeling a soft touch on my arm.
My eyes snapped open to find Ellis looking at me with those lavender blue eyes that had captivated me ever since I met her. Countless thoughts cross my mind as I wonder how and why she is in my room. She smiles softly at me, her eyes seeming to search my own for any reaction.
"Ell-" I stop myself before managing to say her name, and say the name she now knows, "Rosa?"
Confusion and shock dawn on me when I see her shake her head with her smile still in place, "It's Ellis, Nadie. Ellis."
I feel as though I could burst into tears. I fight the urge to jump at her and twirl her around, to kiss her until we can no longer breathe, to tell her that I missed her and that I love her with all my heart and that I always will.
But I don't.
Instead I push off my cover and manage to sit up, experiencing sharp pain in my head as well as cloudiness. I can feel her eyes on me as I stop at the edge of the bed to take a few breaths, willing myself to be strong.
"Are you really Ellis? Do you really remember?" I ask, my eyes looking up to meet her from my place on the bed. She nods and takes a step towards me, "I do, I remember everything Nadie. It really is me." I see her reach out to touch me but I bolt up from the bed, ignoring the wave of pain that washes over me as I move to the other end of the room.
"How?" I keep my questions short, feeling as though if I speak more, I will break down completely.
I can see hurt in her eyes at my rejection and I feel my resolve weaken.
"I was taken to a witch who brought my memories back." She looks up to me with a sad smile, "I remember everything now Nadie. I'm sorry for everything, I promise I will make up for it all." A hand reaches out to touch me, her fingers manage to graze my skin before I take a step back.
"If you remember then, can you tell me why you left?" I spit out, anger taking over me. Anger I had stored up, kept to myself even when I found her as Rosa. I had managed to keep myself in check during all of that time, but her leaving again was too much for me to take. Watching her leave the medical bay in that video tape shattered the last of my heart. I try to understand that she did not remember, her memories were gone, but now that she remembers everything, I cannot hold on any longer. I felt as though I could not confront Rosa over something that she herself had no knowledge of.
But now this is Ellis.
And I need to know why she ran away.
Ellis reels back, making the pain in my words seem like a being that has burned her, a fire that threatens to consume her.
"Nadie," I can tell she is on the verge of tears by the way her voice cracks slightly, "Please understand that I only did what I thought was best for you." Her eyes become glazed, "I loved you so much yet I had brought so much harm to you. Being in my company had become far too dangerous for you. I didn't want your life to be put in any more danger than it already had. I feared the worst would happen if I remained by your side."
A tear rolls down her cheek, "I only wanted the best for you, I wouldn't be able to live without you if anything happened to you."
Hearing those words make me lose any sort of control I had maintained. I take a swift step towards her and land a slap across her cheek. My own hand stings as I take my hand back and see the bright red mark I have left.
"How can you be so selfish?" I scream, tears falling down my own cheeks, "You say you thought about my well-being, but how can you say that when in reality you only thought about yourself?" My breathing is heavy as I feel my heart beating loudly, "Did you ever stop to think how I would be able to live without you? Thinking anything could have happened to you? You abandoned me!" My hands are balled up in fists by my side as I will myself to stop crying, but I can't, "Not only did you abandon me, but you also abandoned Karyme. You abandoned our child!"
Ellis is now crying freely as her hands covers her stinging cheek, "I never meant to leave you and Karyme, I swear. I was foolish and now I realize that, but please forgive me, Nadie. I only did what I thought was best at the time. I swear that if I could go back in time and change it, I would." I try to wipe away my tears as she continues, "I would give anything to go back four years and be able to be with you when our child was born and her first steps, her first words, everything. I would give anything to have that."
I search her eyes and feel overwhelming sadness as I see sincerity and regret in her, "Please Nadie, I may not be able to get any of it back, but please forgive me and allow me to be here for both you and Karyme from now on." Her crying has calmed down and she moves towards me, taking my hand in hers, this time I don't take it back, "I will ask for your forgiveness every day for the rest of my life if that is what you need to forgive me. Please just tell me you love me as much as I love you."
My breathing has calmed down now and I can hear the cries of the seagulls outside. I take her other hand and bring out joined hands up to our chests.
"I have never stopped loving you for a second."