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Trina's P.O.V

I know that everyone thinks the only person I care about is myself but that's not true. Yea I can have a one track mind and be so greatly focused on one thing that sometimes I forget that there are others. But I really don't do it on purpose, I do care about peoples feeling my sisters especially. Jades funeral was yesterday and Tori really isn't doing well. Not that she was doing good before but now its worse than I could have ever imagine. I love my little sister and it really does hurt me to see her so broken. Yesterday had been the absolute climax of her depression and I honestly don't think that it could get any worse. Though that's good because now she will only get better, now she can heal...right?

Flashback: Day Before After Funeral

Driving home all Tori did was cry so hard. In between sobs she would mumble things to herself. I couldn't really make it out, but once I did hear her say "come home". I don't really know what that means but I am guessing she wants Jade to come back. She keeps clutching the necklace she always wears so tight and I cant keep the tears in. She's hurting so bad and there is nothing I can do to help make the pain go away. I look into the front seat and catch my mothers gaze, her eyes also filled with tears. Ever since Tori's breakdown at the grave site she hasn't spoken, she cant stand to see one of her children hurting so bad. As we pull into the drive coming to a stop we file out of the car. Tori is still catatonic so our father walks to her side of the car reaching in. He picks her up into his arms and carries her all the way up to her room, lying her on the bed. I follow close behind taking her clothes off and tucking her in under the covers.

She still cried, I didn't even think she registered the fact that she was no longer in the car until she rolled over burring her face into the pillow. I quickly gave her a kiss on the forehead leaving her, closing the door behind me. I left to my room sitting in the desk chair and resting my head in my hands letting out an exhausted sigh. Just as I started to relax I heard Tori scream. I ran to her room and opened her door just as a picture frame shattered against the wall, broken pieces falling to the floor. She dropped to the ground bringing her hands to her hair pulling so hard, letting out a blood curdling scream. "I HATE YOU!" She screams at the top of her lungs. "I fucking hate you, so much! This is all your fault... you did this!" She yelled, bringing her hands to her face. "You promised me Jade, you promised and you lied!" She was directing her anger at the picture of Jade lying on the ground covered in shards of broken glass. I rush to her side turning her to face me. "Tori, look at me, its going to be okay do you hear me?"

With those words Tori snapped to attention turning on Trina, eyes full of rage. "Shut up! You don't know anything! You have no idea." She was breathing heavily, tears streaming down her cheeks. "I told her that it was alright Trina" She whispered. "I told her that it was okay! That I would be okay! But I am not okay Trina, I am not." She was borderline hysterics and looked so tired yet all I could do was listen. She needed this, she needed to let out her frustrations so that they wouldn't be all bottled up. "Do you know what she did... when I told her that? She closed her eyes, took her last breath and died in my arms. I had to watch the love of my life, the strongest woman I have ever met be reduced to that! Lying in the middle of the road dying! You have no idea how that feels, so don't you dare have the audacity to tell me that its going to be okay!" Trina was taken aback, she didn't know how to handle the situation yet she tried to the best of her ability. "Don't say that you hate her Tori, never say that." Trina replied softly. Tori freezes in pure terror. She looks up at me eyes wild and back down to the broken frame. "Oh my god." She crawls through the glass cutting her legs open, trailing blood behind her while making her way to the picture.

She caresses Jades face with a bloody finger letting out a heartbreaking cry along with a pained moan, only I am sure it was from the agony of her broken heart and not the broken skin. "I am sorry, I am so so sorry Jadey, I didn't mean it. Please, please come back to me... I promise I didn't mean it, I love you, please!" I cant take this anymore, I walk behind her being mindful of the scattered glass and pull her up into my arms. I try to take the picture and whats left of the frame from her, surprised when she fights me. "Trina, No!, I have to fix it... she's going to hate me." She exclaims letting out a small whimper. "I will fix it for you, okay Tori. I promise to make it better." She reluctantly lets go and collapses back into her bed letting blood and silent tears stain her sheets. I made my way back to my room and emptied one of my frames, it was a simple wooded frame stained black. I thought it would suit the picture perfectly. I than took a small cloth, carefully not to ruin the picture and wiped the bloody finger prints anyway avoiding scratches. I than placed it in the frame, sealing the back securely. I sit at my desk to admire the finished product. It's a simple picture really, Jade is looking up into the sky, eyes halve closed so that you can still see some of the crystal blue color sparkle.

There are yellow and white beams of light that shown through the lens only adding to Jades natural beauty. She was wearing no make up yet her skin is flawless and her lips are plump and bright pink, cheeks rosy red. The sun is shining on her face illumination her snow white skin and contrasting perfectly with her long raven hair cascading down her back in long natural curls. What I find most odd is the small, peaceful smile on her lips, I have never seen Jade so calm, so... happy? I never really understood Tori's relationship with her, but judging by this picture I think that I am finally starting to understand. The picture was obviously taken without Jades knowledge, when she thought that no one was looking. The Jade I see in this picture is so serene and peaceful. There is so much emotion in her face, in her eyes. I can understand someone falling hard for this Jade. They do say that its the private moments that make a relationship. How you act together when no one else is around, that's what's most important. Now I am starting to feel guilty for misjudging her all those years.