Kiara lay on her back staring up at the ceiling she was deep in thought as the rain beat against her window pains a knock came at the door and Kiara sat up calling out as she did so "come in." her mother lady Rin of the white rose slid the door back and entered with her she brought a little sweet cake one of Kiara's favorite treats. Kiara toke the plate form her mother and sitting down on her futon thanked her mother "this is great mom at least some one remembers my birth day in this family." She said sarcastically. Rin looked down at her lap "I am sorry Kiara I did try to make him listen I really did." "Mom don't. Just don't I have learned to expect this of him. He is always like this. He never pay attention to me unless I am in trouble or he reprimands me for something." she looked down at her hands not really seeing her gold painted claws or the red stripes that rapped around her wrists peaking out from under the sleeve of her pure white robe she straitened as her mother spoke " maybe you just don't under stand him if you could only learn to not be quite so unbending." Kiara shot a look at her mother her golden eyes smolder like twin pools of magna "no, no I won't change for him. I wont be what he wants me to be. I wont make his mistakes." She gritted out while crossing to the window looking out at the cold wet night "but I will prove to him that I am Kiara Drutnigu and I deserve to be his heir. I refuse to be the weak link. I am not the weak link!" she slammed her tiny fist in to the wall leaving a crater she was strong even at such a young age her silver hair whipping about her she glared at her mother "he loves you Kiara he really does if you would just give him a chance." Kiara let out a harsh laugh "don't lie to me. You can lie to your self all you want but not me. He would bless the assassin how got rid of me." She turned back to the window trying to ignore the tears running down her mother face Rin had no idea that this was how her ten year old looking daughter felt "keep those lies inside your own head. Ada doesn't care he doesn't see me as his heir and he never will until I prove my self." Rin began to sob "he doesn't see me as anything I may as well not exist in this house hold." She ranted her mother looked at her through her tears saying, "Do you think that I don't love you that I don't care?" "No, no I know and I love you." Kiara said kneeling in front of her mother as the first lightning bolt streaked the sky out side and thunder rumbled so loudly that it shook the house. "Mom it not that I don't love you or think that you don't love me, but I don't belong hear I am surrounded by expectations and not just yours or dads the servants the guards all expect me to be who they think I should be I have no room to breath to figure out who I am with out all these expectations pressing on me." She got up and passed the room shoving anything in her path out of the way "I never asked to be born this way. Dad acts like it's my fault I am hear like I created my self. If he is looking for some one to blame it should be him not me. I have never done any thing to deserve the way he treats me." She passed back to the window Rin's chocolate eyes following her ever movement Kiara rested her forehead against the glass letting her breath make steam on the pane "I don't belong in this family. I have never belonged. Why was it that I was born half elf while my siblings are full youki? Why has both fate and family condemned me this way? Some day I wont just be dreaming. No more punishment katas. No more reading about adventures in books. I will get out of hear out of this hell hole and find my own path." Rin could not believe what she was hearing her ten year old daughter was talking like an adult and what she was saying was not good the tears began to fall harder from her eyes as the rain out side began to pick up almost like the weather was reflecting her mood as it well might have been seeing as Rin had nature magic. She turned her attention back to her child's monologue "some day I will get out of hear I will go to all the great cities and I will learn how to be a great leader and when I come back I will make my empire the greatest ever seen and I will be more powerful then even my father and I will show the world who is the one with dirty blood." Her mother turned horror filled eyes upon Kiara hearing her own mates words come from the pup and fled the room. Just then another knock came at the door but before Kiara could answer the door was slammed open Zearel stood in the door way Tawln right behind her "ow it looks like the half ling made mommy cry we should teach her a lesson don't you think Tawln?" she sneered Zearel though younger than Kiara was much taller "I don't think that would be nice." Tawln said in a small voice "you are such a goody two shoes." Zearel whined and shoved Kiara hard. Kiara felt like she was falling in slow motion and then her head came in contact with the edge of the table in her room splitting open her brow. It dripped down her fore head in to her eyes making them sting just as she was trying to get up Sesshomaru walked in taking one look at Kiara he dismissed her and turned to the twins your mother and me are waiting for you at the table for dinner get down there and stop wasting time. Turning he gracefully excited his hair flowing behind him. With one last sneer Zearel turned and left, Tawln following be hind like a secant shadow. Kiara let her body drop to the ground and fell asleep tear tracing tracks down her face.