CHAPTER 7

Kate didn't know what to do; for 3 months she thought she had gone out of the big conspiracy that was her mother's case, not because she gave up on her mother, but because if she had continued she would get destroyed. Castle slowly drove Beckett to put her in his couch and went back at Esposito.

"Sorry man, it's her mother I couldn't just hid it from her" – Esposito said.

"I know, I know. I wouldn't have hidden too. Not anymore. I hid a really big part of this from her, thinking she would understand that was all about her safety, eventually she did" – Castle replied, he tried to hide from Esposito, but a tear rolled down his face.

"We need to help her"

"We will" – Esposito said and gave Castle a hug. He turned and went back to the Precinct; he figured he should come back another time to explain it better.

Castle sat on the couch with Beckett, he was a lost seeing her like that. He held her tight and told her they would do this together. She was devastated, he held his gaze on her and she turned to look at him.

"I need to go to the Precinct Castle. I need to chase the lead before it gets weak".

"I won't let you do this Kate. This man is dangerous it almost killed you. Twice"

"Castle I need this. It's my mother!"

"I thought you had put all of this behind you Kate!"

"I did, but I never imagined this would show up like that! I thought that if I stopped digging things would stop showing up and as you can see with your own eyes things are still popping up!" – She was a little angry at this point, and Castle was too.

"I won't let you destroy yourself Kate! I won't"

"I don't know how you're going to do this Castle" – Kate said and left the apartment.

"Kate!" – Castle screamed, but she didn't listen, she took his car and went to the Precinct.

Ryan and Esposito tried to stop her, but she grabbed her things and left. Lanie was coming through the front door, and felt how tense the room was.

"Girl you come back here now, you can't do this, you'll get yourself killed and now you have more to lose than you can imagine and I know you don't want that"

"I'm sorry Lanie" – Kate said and left.

She was desperate and thought about everything. She sat inside the car and there she stood, for hours. She panicked and messed everything up but didn't know exactly why. Lanie's words echoed through her mind "…now you have more to lose than you can imagine and I know you don't want that". She knew what Lanie meant. She was talking about Castle, but the most important thing that came into her mind was her advice to Alexis. She told Alexis that they couldn't promise they would never hurt each other, but they would do everything they could not to. She took her phone and called Castle.

"Castle…" – her voice was failing – "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry", still failing.

"Beckett what happened? Kate, are you there?"

"I'm here Castle. Why did I do this? Why?"

"You're in shock Kate. It's ok, where are you now?"

"I was on my way to my apartment but I stopped 2 blocks away from your house, something pulled me to you."

"I'm going after you."

"You don't need Castle it's raining."

"I'm going Kate!"

Castle ran like he didn't have enough time. He ran as if Kate was in great danger, but his wound stopped him sometimes. It was almost dark and it was raining very strong. He got to the car and opened the passenger's door and sat beside her. He looked at her and she returned her gaze to him. He could see in her eyes she was sorry. "What was she thinking", he thought, "maybe even Kate didn't know". She leaned and gave him a deep his; his skin was wet. She ran her fingers through his hair and felt that it was wet too, but she didn't care. He held her very tight and kept on kissing her.

"I told you we would do this together. We will investigate. But we will do this together"

"I know Castle. I promise I won't let it take over me like that again"

He answered kissing her. They stood there for some minutes, and then they decided to go to her apartment, it's been a while since Kate wasn't there, all she did these past days was go there and grab some clothes and go back to Rick's loft.

"We have to find our rhythm you know?" – She said.

"Yeah…" – he replied, but now he was intrigued. "For what?" – And gave her a little smile.

"You'll see"

They got inside her apartment, nothing had changed. She told him to prepare something for them to drink while she grabbed some clothes. He went to the kitchen and found tequila and figured they could drink it. He searched for lemon and salt and rapidly found them. He waited for her, sat on the couch, with the drink on the central table. To add some romantic feeling to the room, he closed the windows and lighted up some candles, the weather was cold anyway.

"How long will you take Kate?"

He didn't need an answer; she was already at the end of the hallway, ready for their happy hour.

"Hum. Tequila. I wonder what you had in your mind when you chose this" – She said.

"Well, when you drink Tequila you feel this warmth inside of you. Maybe then it was because of your hotness…"

They both laughed. Now he could make these kinds of jokes and comments, they were together, weren't they?

"Where are we Castle?"

"At your apartment. And we are about to have the most romantic and wild night of our lives"

She laughed. "No, I mean… where are we?"

"Can I answer you in one hour?"

"Ok"

He offered her a shot of tequila. They played a little game that Rick invented there. After drinking one shot if they made weird faces, they should take off a piece of their clothes. It was almost like they didn't know what this was leading them. Somehow they got to the bed, they weren't sure how, but all they needed to be sure was that they were together.

"Can I answer your question now?" – He asked.

"Yeah. Go ahead"

"We are here Kate" – He put his hand on her chest. "And here". Then he placed his hand on her head. "Here" he put his hand on her eyes. "Here" and he caressed her body.

"We are inside ourselves. We are one". – And he kissed her. "But, now it's your turn. What did you mean with finding our rhythm?"

"I'm moving in Castle"

TBC