Intro: Hello everybody! It's been a long time since I don't come up with something. I'm sorry. Life's a rush right now. My university exams are coming and I'm studying like crazy. But still I found a little time to write my first Shounen-ai/Yaoi/Boys Love fanfic! I was so in the mood, hehe. I hope you like it. And If you don't like it, don't read it.It's very simple.
Synopsis: After the walls were brought down and Nezumi had disappeared, what was it left for Shion to do? Will he be able to find his friend and only love again?
Disclaimer: I do not own this beautiful story (No.6)
It was all done. The walls that once divided No.6 and West Block were now brought down, along with the city which was once filled with disaster and people's despair. What we had left, you ask? The task to build a new place to live. A place where everyone can smile and be happy again. Who could do this? Me, my mother, Inukashi, Rikiga and of course, Hamlet, Cravat and Tsukiyo. (the rats that Nezumi left me) Nezumi…I wonder what happened to him, where he is now. Soon after he kissed me on the top of that mountain, right after everything was destroyed, he left. Without saying where to and leaving me with an aching heart and the worst angst feeling I could ever sense in my life. Something like this wasn't fair, after all we had been through and after I could finally set my mind into him and call this 'love', or should I say one-sided love? It suits me best…
Personal feelings aside and with some time passed by, the new city was done. My mother's bakery was back into tracks, with a huge popularity, I could say. We have never had so many clients like this! She was happy and so was I. We agreed to buy a new house, big enough to invite Inukashi and Rikiga to come along with us. It was hard to convince them (especially Inukashi), but we made a nice deal. During some weekends they insisted on taking the train to see how West Block is dealing with the situation. Though the walls were down, the new mayor decided that it would be best if both of them became independent cities. After all, they had some different values. However, things were doing great and back to normal, I think. I have to admit that sometimes, when I have some extra time; usually during my days off, I always go to that little house. Yes, the one where Nezumi and I used to stay and plan everything we did or wanted to. I kept the place clean, safe and sound. Rearranging the books, papers, documents, hoping that one day Nezumi would come back. I couldn't let go of him that easy, could I? He meant everything to me. At least I have the rats to make me company and remind me that I'm not that alone. I can still smell him; see his face in my dreams every single night. He bugs me constantly in my dreams, almost like a nightmare. Sometimes I think it's too much for me. How long can I keep my hopes up? How long will I have to live with this pain, this agony inside my heart? Won't you please come back and make it all better for once Nezumi? Can't you see I need you here more than anybody else? Aren't you missing me too? Damn questions which answers can't be reached for now.
Another month passed and nothing changed. My routine it's always like this. I wasn't tired of it yet. So let the morning come and another day begin.
My mother came inside my room and opened up the curtains along with the windows to let the sun come and almost blind me with its bright light.
"Wake up Shion; we have a lot of deliveries today. I'm going to need your help" She's always with such a good mood. It's kind of annoying.
I mumbled something she didn't hear and practically dragged me out of my bed in direction of the bathroom. Demanding me to go downstairs in fifteen minutes or else I would lose my ride to the bakery. I obeyed sadly. Brushed my teeth and quickly changed my clothes. Meeting her to face another work day (which promised to be very busy). Getting to the destined place I put my apron on and started to make a fresh loath of bread to attend the clients who were already waiting outside for their daily breakfast.
"Hello Shion! How have you been sweetheart? Do you have some sweets to come along with the bread? My grandchildren and going mad without some sugar in their veins"
"They're coming Mrs. Aikawa!" She was always very punctual and happy. I liked that about her.
"Thank you darling. Have a nice day" She waved goodbye for today and making me keep the change like always. She keeps telling my mom that I should have nicer clothes. What a funny lady she is.
It was almost 5pm when my mom asked me to make a delivery. She told me the address very fast and like this I left. At that time I had a motorcycle to help the efficiency of the work. Though my mother dislikes it a little, she's too afraid that I will get into a drastic accident and suffer with the bad consequences. But that's what we got in the meantime, so she would have to learn to deal with it eventually. Only after I accomplished the work I realized that the place was just a block away from Nezumi's house. I took a quick glance to the clock and noticed my work time was almost over. Taking that in consideration, I went there to pay a little visit to all the crap I still care about.
When I got there, it was already dark, the sun was slowly hiding itself into the mountains and the moon was making its way high into the sky above, a beautiful landscape to watch. But I didn't have enough time to that. The thing was that, when I looked into the entrance of the house, the lights were all on. Strange…I could swear I switched them all off before I left last week. Maybe I forgot them since I'm an airhead. But the other thing that bugged me was that the knob was supposed to be locked and it wasn't. My first thought: HE was finally back.
And so I got inside. Just to find out that my deductions were completely right. He was standing there, right in front of me. Nezumi! I had to brush my own eyes many times to make sure it wasn't a dream. I couldn't believe it. I was lost in my own thoughts. Repeating the same things all over again that I couldn't even listen the words that were coming from those beautiful thin lips. He stopped putting his belongs into a small bag and was approaching me slowly, with a face full of concern and his hands going to my shoulders. Only to shake me up like he always did.
"Hey! Shion! Are you okay? You look like you have just seen a ghost. Am I that scary?" These were the first words that I had officially heard him say to me.
"Wha...What!? Nezumi, you are back!"
"Yes, that's what I have been saying to you since you stepped inside" He let go of my shoulders and backed away a little. But his eyes were still focused on me.
"Oh…I'm sorry. I guess I was just a little shocked since it's been so long...Where were you all this time?" I spoke a little embarrassed. I missed his warmth.
"That's none of your concern Shion. I'm just passing by. I didn't expect you to come here either. But I guess I have to thank you for keeping this place like this, right?" He smiled briefly. I missed this too.
"You're not staying? Not even a day? Come on Nezumi. Everybody's worried about you."
"I can't. Sorry. I have things to do and a new place to turn to now. I'm trying to make a change in my life and I hope you all can understand that and just forget about me once for all. I have only brought you trouble since I came into your life Shion. I'm leaving for the best, believe me." He said coldly, not even looking into my eyes anymore.
I couldn't make myself to believe in this words that came into my ear right now. It was tearing me apart. He will be gone forever? No, this can't be happening. After all I put myself through…It hurts Nezumi. And I can swear to you, that this pain won't be going anywhere far if you are not here with me to make it all better like it once was.
"You are kidding right Nezumi? Stop joking like that! I'm serious!" I spoke with an aggravating tone.
"I'm also very serious here. No jokes. Only the most pure truth." He finished packing his things and was going to the door.
"Please Nezumi, I'm begging you. Stay here with us." I grabbed his arm in a tentative of stopping him from leaving. With my head kept down, just in case the tears threatened to form into the corners of my eyes.
"…Look at me Shion. I have one last thing to say before I go."
I refused to look at him considering my state in that moment. Making him grab my chin forcibly, but at the same time with a little pinch of kindness .Which I have longed for since our last depart.
Looking deep inside my eyes he didn't move his lips to say anything. Moving them a little forward to meet mine in a tender kiss. However, I could feel the sadness that lied beneath it, hiding and slowly coming alive. Like he was trying to say something, but just couldn't make it turn into real words. It was with this brief kiss that he turned around and left me there. Standing, stunned and with the usual tingling sensation where our lips met. It was for real this time, wasn't it? He was gone and wasn't planning to come back, ever.
I think I stayed paralyzed there for an hour or so. A million of thoughts running through my mind, but any of them make sense. I wasn't paying attention to them. My mind was full, but at the same time blank. Like I had lost the capacity of thinking about something concrete. Or just incapable of synchronizing my own ideas. I was lost, completely lost. My trance was broke by the vibration of my cellphone in my pocket. I rushed to pick it up, like I had just missed something important. I was going crazy. It was my mom. She asked where I was, since it was already 11pm and I wasn't home yet. Damn, I can't believe I spent all this time here, alone, deep down in my thoughts. It was too late to come home now. It was very dangerous to go around West Block at this time of the day. It was almost like begging to be robbed or something like this. So we decided it was best if I stayed here and returned home in the morning. I was glad that tomorrow was my day off.
Who said I was able to get any sleep? The difference this time was that I was actually thinking about something. My gaudy ideas about where Nezumi was now and what he was doing. He was looking the same as before. The exact same smell, kind of clothes, loosened blue hair, those piercing and hypnotizing eyes and wonderful smile. This episode only made me miss him more and more. Damn you Nezumi. You are to blame for everything I'm feeling right now and at the same time you are the only one who can heal me. You are the poison and the cure. My very own disease and vaccine. What a regretful destiny I have huh? Meeting you like this and being left behind again. Oh, I was determined this time. I was going after him. I was going to find Nezumi and demand an explanation for all this. Yes, that was exactly what I was going to do. But before my plan turned into reality, I had to take a little time to sleep. My body and my mind were completely drained. I needed and deserved a rest. My eyes were slowly closing themselves alone and without any extra efforts I was sound asleep.
The next morning came and it seemed like I had the busiest night of my life. Just like a hangover (but I never even had one…still seemed like one) I had a terrible headache and I was feeling a little dizzy. Resuming, I was a disaster. Slowly I got up from the bed, picked up my belongings and returned home. It was early. I eventually got used to wake up at this time, thanks to my mom. When I got home all I could think about was my bed and I impelling thrown myself into it, like a 5 year old child would. And all I could do for the rest of the day was sleep.
Days, weeks, months had passed since that day and I couldn't find any clue to lead me to Nezumi. He was still on my mind every single day. Like it was that easy to just forget about him. Sometimes I just wanted to him with all my strength.
However, after this time I have been noticing something strange. Every time I wake up and get to the bakery as well when I leave, I feel like there's someone watching my every step. I could be hallucinating again, but I can even see a shadow moving sometimes. It's making me get chills coming down through my spine. I bet it's just my mind playing silly games with me again, but I have to take a chance and find out what this is for once.
Today I planned something to catch the person who was chasing me around. It would work like this: When I was supposed to leave the bakery, I will pretend I forgot something inside and go out by the emergency exit and catch the spy. I know that he always stay behind the trees close to the shop. I will catch him in the act. Terrific plan. Can't believe I took so much time to think about this. How can I be so slow? Whatever, the time to put my plans into actions was coming. I have to do this!
Everything was going on according to my ideas, I just needed to go outside and catch the suspect. I carefully opened the exit door, to make sure that I was practically unnoticed. I squatted and kept walking until I noticed my target. He looked like a little girl covered by a dark cape. I grabbed her shoulders and she jumped in surprise.
"Kya!" She screamed and looked at me with wide eyes.
"Were you looking for me? Don't worry, I just want to talk a little" I calmed her down a little. She looked so innocent.
"How…how did you find me?" I could tell she was very leery with the situation.
"It was pretty easy since I have been noticing you for a while." I laughed a little to break the tense moment.
She didn't say anything else so I had to make a move if I wanted to find the answers I was searching for.
"Can you tell me your name?" I tried to be friendly, but it was hard.
She looked at me for a good amount of time until she finally decided to speak again.
"Ayase" She said bluntly.
"Well, hello then Ayase-chan. I'm Shion, but I think you know that already right?" I was nervous, she could tell.
She breathed in deeply and slowly. Like she was thinking really hard about a determined subject.
"Look. I'll go straight to the point okay? Yes, I'm here because Nezumi told me to keep an eye on you so that you wouldn't do anything stupid. And I know where he is, but I don't feel like telling you." Oh, she was a fiery one.
"Wow, wow. Wait a second. We could make a deal here, don't you think so? You know I work in a bakery full of sweets right?"
"What kind of sweets do you have in there?" It was done. No child could resist to the power of candies.
"Oh, it depends on which of them you like the most. Would you like to take a look?" I invite her in. But I had to make this quick, I had to focus on what really mattered right now.
She went inside with me and made me bake a cake for her. This took me almost a whole hour. And I was going insane if she didn't tell me soon where Nezumi was hiding. I needed to know that. She ate half of it without even pausing one second to breathe and didn't even offer me a single piece. What a mean little girl. But she seemed happy, so I guess that's fine for now. Putting her tiny hands in her belly she sighed satisfied.
"Okay, I think I can lead you to where Nezumi is now. But don't tell him I did it okay? He's going to kill me if he finds out"
"Don't worry. I won't say a word." She was getting cutter every minute.
She climbed behind my motorcycle and started to show me the way. We got into a dark alley and she made me stop. Telling me the final coordination to the house she wished me good luck and ran away. I wondered if I was going to see her again. I got a thing for the little girl, in a good way. Taking a few steps I reached my destination. The house didn't seem big, enough for two people to live peacefully. The surroundings weren't so bad either; he even had a little yard with some flowers in it, beautiful ones. Only then I noticed they were my favorite ones. Oh Nezumi, why do you do this to me? Taking a step forward I knocked on the door and heard his voice coming from inside.
"Is that you Ayase? Come in girl." He seemed very kind, it was even odd.
"Uh…it's not Ayase." I came in anyway and he looked at me shocked.
"Shion!? What are you doing here? How did you find me?" He got up from where he was sitting in a jump and came in my direction. He didn't seem angry, but didn't seem happy either.
"Excuse me, I have my sources of information" I tried to fool him.
"It was Ayase, wasn't it?" But I failed. He put his hands on his head and sighed heavily.
"No! No! How could you accuse her like this?" Only after I spoke I noticed my own mistake.
"Yes, I knew it. You are not that dumb after all." He smiled shortly.
We stayed in an uncomfortable silence during a certain amount of time. I don't know how much exactly. My eyes were too busy wandering around his new home and looking at him itself. When did he get so handsome like this? It must de my mind going crazy again…
"So…why did you come here for?" Nezumi asked normally.
"Nezumi…I..." I couldn't say it. My lips were moving, but no sound came from them. It was useless.
He was approaching me with precaution. Afraid of taking the wrong step or saying the wrong things.
"Look, Shion. You shouldn't have come here. Go home, it's the best you can do."
I was nervous with each step he took closer to me. My feelings were about to explode. I couldn't take it any longer.
"No! I won't go home without you anymore Nezumi!" I literally screamed and he widened his eyes.
"Do you have any idea how much I have been suffering without you? Do you know the pain I have to deal with day to day because of you? Do you know how long I have been searching for you? Too long to go out of here without you Nezumi, too long…" I was crying and I couldn't take it anymore.
My head was down, just like last time. I didn't even see his reaction. What I know is that suddenly I felt his warmth. I felt his arms around my neck, bringing my head next to his chest to smother my crying sounds and sobs. Though my mind was going crazy and my focus was almost zero, I could hear him whisper into my ear
"Do you have any idea how hard it's been to live without you? Do you know how much I have to struggle so I don't remember of you every single second of my every day? I have a heart too Shion and it belongs to you only."
I could swear this was a dream and I was in Heaven now. I wished to listen to these words every night, since we first met. I feel in love at first sight for him. My heart was beating so fast that it made hard for me to focus on anything else. Even my tears had stopped coming down with his little words. All I wanted was this. Us, together, forever.
"Why…why did you run away Nezumi? Why didn't you stay with us?" I was curious.
"I…I was afraid of bringing you trouble. I thought it was for the best. I'm so sorry Shion. I have been so stupid" He was hugging me tighter.
"Nezumi…don't ever do that again. I love you too much to let you go now" He would have to deal with the consequences of his acts now.
He lightened his embrace and backed away to look into my eyes. He wiped away the remaining tears on the corner of them carefully, with a serious look. Like our moment a few seconds ago had never happened. It worried me. But all of it went away when he kissed me. It was different from all our goodnight kisses or even the goodbye ones. This one was…full of something I couldn't say it in words. Tenderness, kindness…love? It brought a huge warm through my whole body and a wave of happiness came through me. Like I was finally home, with the only person that mattered to me in the world. I could say my wish was fulfilled and that I could finally rest in peace. He slowly removed his lips from mine; I could still sense his breath. He opened his eyes and told me:
"Shion, would you like to move in with me?" He caressed my cheek affectionately.
"But…what about my mom and the bakery? I can't just leave everything like this Nezumi" I know I told him I loved him, but I have to think about the others too.
He was silenced, so I gave him a suggestion:
"I have a better idea, why don't you come and live with me?"
"I have to take care of Ayase" He answered fast.
"She can come with us too! I bet she could do some work at the bakery. We really need some extra help you know?" Please say yes Nezumi…
"Are you sure? There's no coming back from now on Shion. Think wisely"
"I don't plan to come back Nezumi. I won't ever let you go out of my sight again" I hugged him one more time and gave him a playful kiss on the lips.
"Stop being so clingy" He pushed me away making a weird face.
"Hey! It was who came and hugged me first! That's not fair! Come back here Nezumi!"
And all I had left do to was chase him around his house, kiss him and hug him how many times I wanted to. And the most important of all, laugh. Do you ask why? Because I have everything I have always wanted right beside me right now. It feels like a dream come true. If it is, I hope we are like one of those famous fairy tales that finish with the same cliché sentence: And so they lived happily ever after. At least for now, right? Who knows where Nezumi is planning to run after a week or even a year. I hope he doesn't get tired of me. I waited too much to give up on him now. I just love him more than I ever thought I was able to.
Comments: The End! Thank you so much for reading and I'm sorry for any OOC or harsh mistakes. Please leave me some reviews, they would truly make my day 3