Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight

I found myself staring at her as the days passed. I hadn't approached her since the book-falling-incident, which that was exactly thirteen days ago. I wanted too much from her. If I had been honest with myself I would admit that I wanted her blood more than her company. It was getting rather difficult to avoid her, especially since Forks was so small.

So there I sat, watching while she ate. I didn't speak to Alice, Japer or Emmet. Jasper and Alice always seemed to be in there own world anyways. Emmet spoke to me and I pretended to listen. He figured out that was in no way listening to him

"Why don't you just talk to her," Emmet finally said, obviously feed up with my brooding.

"I prefer to see her alive," I commented dryly.

"It's just a nice friendly conversation," Emmet muttered, "You can't kill her just by thinking about it."

"If I get close to her, I lose control." This was not a conversation that we should be having in a lunchroom with so many people, they could be listening. Emmett might not care but I did.

"You don't give yourself nearly enough credit," Emmet remarked

"I tried already." He cocked his eyebrow and waited for me to continue, "I bumped into her in afterschool and she ran away."

"But you didn't lose control?" he asked rhetorically.

"What about next time? What then? She could…" I could bring myself to say the next part. Emmet shook his head.

"It's no use in talking to you." Emmet stood up and left.

"He has a point Edward," Alice said after he left. I didn't even know they were paying attention to our conversation.

"Plus this obsession is becoming really unhealthy," Jasper added.

"It's not an obsession, Jasper," Alice said lightly, "Edward's in love with Bella and he doesn't want to hurt her."

This felt a lot like therapy. I didn't want their advice, I didn't need their advice. Lucky for me the bell had rung; I stayed away from them, whatever was left of the day.

I had planned on approaching her, even if it was only for a few seconds. The funny thing was she approached me first.

"Hi," she was direct.

"Hello," I greeted back.

"I'm Bella." I nearly forgot we never had a proper introduction. I was near her and all I wanted to do was drink her. Control, I had none. I have never wanted a human so much as I did right now.

"Edward," it was simple and also direct.

"Listen I wanted to say I was sorry about bumping into you the other day," she rambled. She was trying to find and excuse to talk to me. This could either be bad news or good news.

"That was two weeks ago," I pointed out. She turned bright read.

"I know, but it just seemed kind of rude," she continued.

"Its fine," I assured her. She looked like she wanted to say more and I wish she didn't. I was just about to lose it.

"Listen if you ever want to hang out or something," she looked at the floor. She looked so awkward and embarrassed.

"Sure." She looked up, to see if I was joking and smiled. I should have said no, but I was too close now.

"Do you have a pen or paper?" She asked me, "So you can call me, so we can hang out."

"I have a pretty good memory." She gave me her number.

"Well I guess," she didn't finish because her friend came over.

"Bella we have to go," her friend insisted. Bella looked horrified and obviously didn't want to go. Angela Webb hated me on spot; she was smart enough not to come near me.

"Angie," Bella scolded but Angela paid her no attention.

"I'll see you later Edward," she left and Angela dragged her away. Maybe I did have more self control. For once Emmett was right. Much of my afternoon and night was spent on Bella.

When morning came all I wanted to do was see Bella. I rushed to get to school and was pretty excited about going today. Emmett made no comment about my sudden change of heart.

I saw her in the parking lot talking to...Jacob? Jacob was a lowlife like Emily was. What did her want with Bella? Thankfully Bella looked like she was planning on running away from him. As soon as she spotted me, she excused herself and walk towards me. My lifeless heart did a backward flip. I caught a glance at Jacob but he was long gone.

"Good morning Edward," she said warmly.

"Morning Bella," I greeted back. Control, I reminded myself. I had to make a fist to remind myself not to attack her in broad day night.

"Sorry about yesterday, Angie's just really odd." She wanted to say more but held her tongue.

"You really have to stop apologizing for every little thing, when it's really not your fault," I brushed it off. We stayed in silence. I could take her in to a quiet area and-"I have to go. I'll talk to you later, Bella," I said quietly and I rushed out of there.

All of sudden I become very hungry. My whole body trembled, I need to feed. How stupid of me to forgot to eat. I spotted my target-an underclassmen named Tanya. There was no time to be careful. I licked my lips and got close to her. She was going into the girl's bathroom and I followed her in. I thanked my lucky stars that no one was in there.

When she got out of the stall, she looked at me curiously. As I got closer, she backed up into the wall and then tried to run. I caught her, and began to drink. Her blood was better than nothing, When I was done I glanced up and noticed Bella was looking straight at me, with a horrified expression.