Hello! first of all, there is absolutely no excuse as to why this has taken me so dang long to update. i didn't even realize it has been so long. so my deepest apologizes. i tried to make this chapter as long as i could since i havent updated in a such a long time and i hope it lives up to your guys expectation.
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on to chapter 9!
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After leaving the dry cleaners, Mercedes decided instead of going home and seeing her family, she would go and spend some time with Tina. Since Sam had taken up most of her time, Mercedes had slightly neglected her friends. The only time her and Tina hung out was when they both flew to LA for the prime time Emmy awards. She called her son to inform him that she wasn't going to be home for a while. Pulling into Tina's large home, she parked her car and got out and made her way inside with the key Tina had given her and Kurt. Calling out to her best friend, she made her way into the kitchen where she found a naked Artie sitting at the kitchen counter, eating cereal. Immediately turning around, Mercedes covered her eyes while trying not to laugh. It wouldn't be the first time she had seen Artie naked. Since he was a world renowned director, he travelled a lot so when he was home, he and Tina spent a lot of time in bed and different occasions; Mercedes had stumbled upon them having sex in various places in their home.
"Hey…Artie…How are you…?
"Mercedes you can turn around, it isn't like its anything new" He laughed softly, "And I'm doing alright girl, glad to be home with my lady. Tina is upstairs taking a nap." Mercedes knew that meant Artie had worn her out because Tina never took naps in the afternoon.
"Alright, I'll see you later. And for god sake put some damn clothes on before the boys get home." Mercedes pleaded with Artie but all she heard was his laugh.
"They know how they got here so there isn't a need to hide anything. My house my rules and if I wanna walk around naked I will. Shit I paid a lot for this spot. When they get a house, they can do what they want." Artie said while continuing to eat his cereal in the buff. Mercedes walked out of the kitchen and made her way up the stairs. She turned the corner and walked down a long hallway until she got to the double doors of their bedroom. She knocked on the door and entered the bedroom where she found Tina lying on the king sized bed in the large bedroom with a content smile on her face. Mercedes stood in the door way and just stared at her friend who radiated happiness and she longed for the day that she could have that. Tina turned her head and beckoned her friend to join her. Mercedes took off her shoes and jacket and climbed into bed with Tina where she wrapped her arms around her.
"Mercedes darling, what brings you here? I mean not that you aren't welcome but don't you have family at home?" Tina asked and Mercedes nodded so she asked again "So what brings you here?"
"I just miss you is all. I haven't been able to spend much time with you so I decided to stop by and see you. By the way, please tell Artie to put some damn clothes on! At least a pair of sweats or something"
Tina chuckled and said "Girl, you know Artie is an old fool. Did he give you the 'it's my house so I can walk around how I want' speech?" Mercedes laughed at her friend and said, "You know it."
"So what did you do today besides try to not kill your sister?"
"I didn't do much just went and picked up my dry cleaning. Speaking of which, girl the guy that works there is absolutely fine. You have to see him; he's sexy on a stick, rudeness all around. His name is Christian." Mercedes paused and said, "He asked me out, and I said yes." Mercedes felt Tina stiffen and then let out a long breath.
"Mercedes," She began. "Are you sure this is a good idea? I mean wasn't it just yesterday you were crying about Sam and now you're going on a date with some random guy who could be a serial killer? I think this is a bad idea."
"What do you mean bad idea? Tina, I am single and lonely. Sam and I just…can't be together. This guy seems really nice and he's obviously got a job and he's around my age so I wouldn't have to worry about the stigma."
"Is this what this is about? The age thing? If you only agreed to go out with this man because he's older than Sam then I don't know what to tell you."
Mercedes got up from the large bed and placed her hands on her hips. She stared hard at her friend who gave her the same look.
"Tina, I came here because I thought that you and I could talk but it seems like you've taken your bitch pills this afternoon so I'm going to go."
"No wait! Mercedes, I don't mean to upset you but this doesn't make sense. You are trying to work things out with Sam and yet you agreed to a date with this stranger. Call me crazy but I just don't see the logic in this. Just what are you trying to prove? Going out with this man isn't going to change how you feel about Sam. Does he even know about this? I bet he doesn't because I'm pretty sure you would be singing a different tune." Tina got up from the bed and advanced toward her friend and grasped both of her hands.
"Mercedes, I will always be on your side, no matter what. But this…this isn't right…don't string this man along. Don't make him a rebound because you got caught in a situation you can't get out of. You love Sam and this isn't fair to him. You are giving him false hope. He's probably at home thinking about you and wishing that you would make up your mind. Don't do this Mercy; don't go out with this man. Whoever he is, he seems like a nice man but he isn't Sam and no guy ever will be."
Tears began to gather in Mercedes eyes but she quickly wiped them away before Tina could see them but she was too late. Tina wrapped her arms around her friend and engulfed her in a big hug. She rocked her back and forth while Mercedes cried into Tina's shirt.
Tina took a deep breath and said "Mercedes? Do you love him?" but Mercedes didn't answer, she just wrapped her arm tighter around Tina, so Tina asked again.
"Mercedes Jones. Do you love Sam Evans?
Mercedes pulled away and said in a whisper "Yes…yes Tina I love him. But I can't be with him. It isn't right. It will never be right. I just can't do it to him, to Donavan; it isn't fair. I love him so much and I can't be with him. I don't know what to do" Mercedes wailed as she clung to her best friend.
"Thank you, come again" Sam said from behind the counter as he handed back the customer their change and their purchase. The little boy jumped with joy as his mother handed him the bag with the comic books and they left the store. Sam smiled at the little boy who reminded him a lot of himself when he was a child. He had always been into comic books and science fiction and all things dealing with space and the planets. He always said "Something about all that space makes my problem seem kind of small." and at that very moment that saying couldn't ring more true. Things with Mercedes were at a standstill as he waited for her to make up her mind. He was desperate for her to make her decision. He wanted to finally call her his girlfriend, he wanted to take her out places and not worry about if someone sees them. He wanted to be able to kiss her and hold her and hug her in public but he knew he was reaching. He prayed that Mercedes wouldn't completely end things with him because he didn't know how he would survive, 4 weeks was enough for them to be apart and he wasn't having it anymore. He needed to be with her. He was so consumed with his thoughts he didn't even see Mike walk up to the counter.
"Hey man!" Mike said as he clapped Sam in the back. "What's with you today? You seem spaced out" Mike stared hard at his best friend and then a light bulb went off, "Ahhh, you're thinking about her?" Sam didn't want to give himself away so he looked away.
"Come on man, it's me. Honestly this situation is fucked up but it really bothers me to see you this way. Snap out of it man! I'm going to call Donny and him you and I are going out for some drinks. You need to take your mind off her. It's killing you and its killing me so relax man, Mikey got this."
"Honestly Mike, I don't want to go out. I'm really just not in the mood anymore."
"Come on man! We haven't hung out since you and Mercedes got together. You need this man. So I'm gonna call Donavan and we chilling tonight, no exceptions."
Artie had spent most of the day in the basement of his home, the man cave as he and his son's liked to call it. He left Tina and Mercedes alone so they could do their girl time because he knew they needed it. He had known Mercedes practically his entire life, it wasn't a secret that he harbored a small crush for her at one point but Mercedes quick doused the fire when she started dating Shane, leaving Artie heartbroken. Mercedes hated to see her friend so upset, so she decided to introduce Artie to her good friend Tina one Saturday afternoon at the mall and before she knew it she was the maid of honor at their wedding. Artie decided to go check on his girls and when he walked into his bedroom, he found Mercedes snuggled up to his wife sleeping while Tina typed away on her cellphone.
"Hey baby." Artie whispered as he made his way to Tina's side and gave her a kiss on her forehead. He looked loving into her eyes as she rubbed his cheek. 'How did I get so damn lucky?' Artie thought to himself.
"Has she been asleep this whole time?" Tina nodded and said, "I'm really worried about her Artie. She hasn't been herself since this whole Sam thing. I want her to stop being a baby and just tell him how she feels but she says she can't."
"Tina, the situation isn't as easy as you make it seem. Think about it honey, she's fallen in love with her son's best friend. Do you have any idea how much pressure she's under? I want her to be happy just as much as you but this situation is something not to be taken lightly. Don't give up on her because sooner or later Donavan will find out and it won't be pretty and she's going to need you."
"I understand that but damn it. You know she told me she's going out on a date? Where is the logic in that? She's in love with someone but going out on a date with a stranger? Obviously she isn't thinking in her right mind."
"Tina, it's not so uncommon for a person to want to date someone to get their mind off someone else. She's a mess right now and the last thing she needs is her best friend chastising her. Be there for her."
"I am there for her! But her going out with this Christian guy makes no sense! She's just doing it to erase whatever she has with Sam!" Tina realized she had been talking way too loud when she felt Mercedes stir next to her so she lowered her voice.
"Artie, you know I love Mercedes and you know I'll be there no matter what but she needs to get a grip and get her man."
"Tina, let it be. When Mercedes is ready she will make her choice but for right now, just be her friend."
After a long and tiring day at work, Sam walked into his apartment and went straight into his bedroom, collapsing on top of it without even taking off his jacket. He didn't want to go out that night, all he wanted to do was sleep away his pain but his best friends weren't having it. Mike did in fact call Donavan with plans and Donavan all but ran to Mike's house to kiss him. Donavan hated feeling helpless and he hated that he couldn't take Sam's pain away so he figured a night out would be good. Sam knew it was useless to fight them, so he agreed to meet them around 10 that evening at some place called Radar Joes. Closing his eyes in exhaustion, Sam decided he would take a nap until then but as luck would have it, his phone rang. Reaching into his coat pocket, he pulled out his cellphone and answered the call without looking at his caller ID.
"Hello?"
"Hello Samuel."
Groaning his said, "Hi mom…what can I do for you?" It wasn't that Sam wasn't close to his mother; in fact, he was very close with both his parents and his siblings Stacy and Stevie. Sam's family meant the world to him and he would do anything to make them happy, but at that moment the last person he needed to hear from was his mother. Dorothy Evans was a true southern belle, sweet as candy on the outside but on the inside she was tough as nails. Raised in a family full of boys, she didn't take crap from anyone and although she considered herself a lady, she wouldn't hesitate to curse someone out.
"Is that anyway to talk your mother Sam? I haven't spoken to you in god knows how long. I don't know what's going on in your life anymore. What happened son? Did you run off and get married and didn't bother to tell us? That it isn't it? You're hoarding some secret mail order bride. Samuel David Evans I taught you better than-"
"No mom! I'm not married; I'm just going through a lot right now. School and work are taking a lot of me." He paused and said, "Mail order bride mom? I mean really? Who do you think I am?"
"Don't judge me Sammy! I don't know what's hip with you kids now a days" She said with a chuckle.
"Well mom, I'm pretty sure no one is running off and marrying foreign women from catalogs. Now, I know you called for a reason. What is it?"
"I need a reason to call my son? I can't just see how he is? How he's doing? You said you were stressed because of school and work, why don't you visit for once? You think that because you're a big college man now you can't have time for your family? Once again Samuel David Evans I raised you better than that. We miss you dearly darlin'. Especially Stevie and Stacy, they ask about you all the time. When you coming down here and actually gracing your darlin' family with your presence."
Sam smiled thinking about his little siblings. Stevie and Stacy were fraternal twins that were 11 years his junior. At times they were a handful but Sam wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. His smiled faltered as his mother continued to tell him about all of their crazy adventures in Kentucky. A month before he graduated high school, Sam's father had gotten a job transfer and he wanted to move the entire family back down south but Sam had managed to bargain that if he kept his grades up he could stay in Lima, his parent agreed and left Sam on his own, but with the way things were going, he wasn't so sure anymore.
"Sam? Darlin'? Are you there?"
"Yeah sorry, what were you saying?"
"Son… is everything ok? Is it your dyslexia? I know some subjects can be tough on you but why don't you try a tutor? We got a tutor for your brother and its worked wonders for him. He's getting A's and B's and everything."
"That's great mom! I'm glad everything is good, I miss you guys."
Dorothy scuffed and said, "Missed us so much but you couldn't see us for the holiday? Seriously Samuel, thanksgiving is about family and you should have been here. Everyone came to over, even Aunt May and that slob of a husband and those god awful kids. Do you know they not only had seconds but thirds fourths and fifths? Where do they put it all? And those kids? Lord! I cannot!"
"Mom I already told you that I had work and I had dinner with Donavan and his family so at least I wasn't alone."
"Donny is another one who's forgotten all about me! Tell him the next time we are in Lima, he gets nothing of my sweet potato pie!"
"Ma… don't do that… you know how he feels about that. He could never tell him mother but he obviously loves yours more than hers."
Dorothy's voice immediately perked at the name of her good friend, "How is Mercedes? I haven't spoken to her in a while. I do believe the last time I heard from her she was on vacation with someone. I bet it was a boyfriend. She sounded tired. I bet he was putting it on her. God knows Mercedes needs those pipes clean."
"Mom! I don't want to hear this! Whoever Ms. Jones is/was seeing is none of my business." Sam said while trying not to remember how they spent an entire that entire week in bed, trying every position possible.
"Speaking of pipes cleaning, Sammy when are you going to bring me home a nice girl? Haven't you been seeing someone?" Dorothy asked her eldest son.
Sam hesitated and then said, "No mom… I'm not seeing anyone." it wasn't exactly a lie. He wasn't seeing Mercedes, at least not anymore.
"Baby, I want you to be happy and you don't sound happy… are you sure you're alright? You aren't keeping anything from me are you?"
"No Ma, I'm just tired from work. Listen Ma, Donny, Mike and I are going out tonight so I have to get ready. Thank you for calling me mom, I love you. And tell dad that I love him too"
"I love you too baby, please remember that whatever is bothering you it will get better. Don't ever hesitate to call me or your father or Paw Paw or Mima."
"I won't Ma. Talk to you soon."
"Bye Sammy."
"Bye Ma."
Mercedes stood in front of her large walk in closet trying to find something to wear on her date with Christian. Despite Tina's objections, Mercedes was going to go out with him anyway. Why shouldn't she? Christian was obviously a good man that is extremely attractive and is clearly into her. Why should she hold herself back because of Sam? She ended the relationship and she believed that Christian deserved a chance. She was a grown ass woman and she was going to make her own decisions and if others didn't like it, well then they could kick rocks. She didn't need Kurt or Tina or anyone telling her what she was doing was wrong. Finally settling on an all-black tutu dress with crisscross straps and 6 inch black stiletto shoes with a silver heel, Mercedes grabbed the dress and the heels and set it on her bed. Looking at the clock on her bedside dresser, she noted that she had exactly two hours to get dressed. She took note of the fact that her hands were shaking. 'Why am I so nervous? It isn't like I haven't ever been a date before." She asked herself. 'It's because you know Christian isn't Sam' her conscious screamed at her, but she refused to listen. "It's a mistake Mercedes! Call Sam!"
"Shut up!" Mercedes screamed out loud, not seeing her son standing at the door way.
"Mom… are you alright?" Mercedes whipped around and looked at her son frightened. She bit her bottom lip as she tried to think of some clever way of lying but nothing came to mind.
"Mom… I asked, are you alright?"
"Yeah… what would make you think I'm not alright?"
"Well…" He paused. "I walk by your room and I catch you talking to yourself. I'd say that's cause for concern diva. What's wrong mom?"
Mercedes looked at her son and her heart leaped on her throat. He looked so concerned for her and here she was keeping this horrible secret from him. What kind of a mother was she? Donavan had the right to know what was going on behind his back.
"It's nothing honey. I was just…you know… thinking out loud?"
"Mom please, I know you. Something is going on and you aren't telling me. Is it this guy that you were seeing? Did he really mean that much to you?"
Taking in shaky breath, Mercedes "Honey…we've already talked about this… he and I had our moment in the sun but now it's over and I'm going on this date with Christian and I'm just going to move on."
"Mom… are you going out with this guy to get over this mystery man? Because from what you told me, he seems really nice… that isn't the reason right because I think I know you a little better than that."
"Donavan… I am going to tell you the same thing I told Tina. I don't need a lecture; I am a grown ass woman who can make her own decisions. I am going out with Christian because I want to, not because I'm trying to get over anyone. I really wish you two would stay out of my business. I know what the hell I am doing."
"Mom… it isn't about you being a grown ass woman, I know that. But you're lying to yourself if you think that this Christian guy is going to replace whatever you felt for this guy."
Feeling the anger raise in her body, Mercedes took a deep breath and said, "You know what Donavan? I don't need you to question me or my decisions. I'm trying to get ready and you are doing nothing but sucking up my positive energy. So please do me a favor and get out of my room and go and get ready for your own night."
Mercedes walked into her bathroom and slammed the door, leaving her son in her bedroom. Sliding down to the floor, Mercedes felt the tears pricking her eyes, surprising her. Why was she so upset? Where had the tears come from? This is what she wanted, this is what she needed. Her relationship with Sam was wrong on every level. 'Then why are you sitting on the bathroom floor crying? Obviously you love the man but you're being stupid and not going after him' her mind screamed at her.
Mercedes wrestled with herself as her mind continued to yell at her to call Sam and tell him that she loved him, her heart telling her the same thing. Whoever said you can't choose who you love wasn't lying. She couldn't continue to do this to herself; she couldn't continue to live this way. She needed to move on and she needed to do it now before it killed her. Finally picking herself up off the floor, Mercedes made her way into the shower. Hopefully it would turn into a secret time machine and it would take her far away, to the land of then unknown. Just then, Mercedes heard a knock on her bathroom door.
"I'm in the shower!" She answered.
"Mercy! It's me Maura! We need to talk! It's important!" Maura yelled from the other side of the door.
"Can't this wait? I have a date tonight."
"This can't wait diva! I need to talk to you."
"Fine Maura, I'll be right out!" Mercedes stepped out of the shower, wrapping herself up in a towel. Mercedes opened the door and saw her sister sitting at her vanity table, going through her jewelry.
Looking up at Mercedes, Maura gave her a small smile. "Remember when we were kids and we used to play around with mama's jewelry and pretend to be actresses? She got so mad when you broke the broach daddy bought her for her birthday."
Mercedes laughed and said, "Girl that wasn't me, that was Shavon."
Maura's smile faltered as she heard her eldest sister's name. she wasn't exactly sure how she was going to tell Mercedes that her sister was planning something against her, but when would be the right time.
"Mercy… remember when I told you that you needed to be careful when it came to your relationship with Sam?"
"Yes."
"I meant it, I don't know how to tell you this or how you're going to react but…I think the person you need to look out for is Shavon. I know she's planning something and I think you need to be real careful in who you speak to, where you go and who you're going with."
"Maura… Shavon wouldn't do that. She and I may not get along but she wouldn't do something like that. She's our sister, what would she benefit from this? Please. Shavon is harmless, so you have nothing to worry about."
"Mercedes I'm serious! This isn't a joke! She actually said-"
But Mercedes cut her off. "Maura, I have a date tonight and I need to get ready. I don't have time to listen to this. We can talk about this in the morning.
"Diva please, this is not a joke. Shavon is planning something. She told me she-"
"Maura please! I do not have the time for this bullshit. Shavon wouldn't do this. Shavon isn't capable of doing something like this. I know she can be evil sometimes, but this? Trying to ruin my life? No. She isn't crazy enough. Besides, who's going to believe her?"
"Mercedes… you don't understand."
Mercedes walked around to her sister and placed her hands on her shoulder. "Maura I love you, but Shavon isn't going to do anything. So there is nothing for you to worry about. Now please go so I can get ready for my date."
Maura got up for the vanity table and walked out the room without saying a word. Mercedes walked back to her bathroom, laughing softly to herself.
"Shavon tryna ruin my life? Please! That girl ain't crazy."
There are certain steps and rules that a person must follow when on a date. Be polite to the staff, no talking with your mouth full; be attentive to your date and such. Mercedes was following all of that except being attentive. For some reason she just couldn't concentrate on the gorgeous man sitting across from her. What the hell was wrong with her? Christian, who by the way was looking absolutely delectable in his black three piece suit and Stacy Addams shoes, was talking about something Mercedes clearly didn't give a shit about. It was like the Charlie Brown teacher. For the most part, Mercedes tried to enjoy herself but she felt herself getting bored. She wasn't sure how her feelings had changed but they had. That entire morning she had been jumping off the walls with excitement about her date and now, sitting across from him, she couldn't care less.
"Mercedes? Mercedes are you ok?" Mercedes snapped out of her daze to look at him, his face marred with concern. Shit. She was caught slipping.
"I'm sorry, what did you say?"
"I ask how you do like the place. I know a woman of your status is used to better places but I'm a man of meager means." He flashed his deep, dimpled smile.
"Oh stop, the place is lovely." In fact it was. Christian had called her with plans to go out for coffee but Mercedes suggested dinner instead, she gave him the freewill to pick whichever place he wanted. He chose Chez Le Re, a brand new French restaurant. The place was very elegant and it definitely screamed money, but to Mercedes it just told her he was trying too hard. 'Sam would never try too hard.'
"It's perfect, very elegant."
"I'm really glad you like it." Christian reached over and grabbed Mercedes hand, "I'm really glad you agreed to the date, especially so fast. I know we just met and all but I'm glad you took a chance with a man like me."
Narrowing her eyes, Mercedes tilted her head and asked, "What do you mean a man like you?"
"Well," He paused. "You're Mercedes Jones. You're a legend. I feel like such a dork for saying this but I've been a fan of yours for a real long time and it's an honor to be sitting here with you. I honestly didn't expect for you to agree to the date so fast. I'm going to admit that when you left, I twerked my ass off in the office back." Mercedes laughed as Christian grasped her hand tighter and Mercedes waited, and waited, and waited but she didn't feel it. That spark, the fireworks, the explosions she felt whenever Sam touched her. It wasn't there. She felt absolutely nothing. She couldn't believe it, she felt nothing!
The little devil on her shoulder was telling her to ditch Christian and go get with Sam but the Angel on the other shoulder told her to at least be nice and finish the date.
To give herself some credit she did engage in conversation. She talked about her son and some of her career and her home life while he mentioned that he had never been married and that once again he was delighted she would go out on a date with him. Mercedes began to feel like she was on a date with a contestant winner with how much he praised her and her endeavors. Try as she might she couldn't get over the fact that she didn't feel a spark, not even a little bit. This wasn't right; what the hell was she doing there? This was obviously been a mistake. Tina and Donavan were right, she only agreed to the date to take her mind of Sam, but its kind of hard to do that when he's not only in her mind but in her heart. Before she knew it, they had eaten and had dessert and Mercedes couldn't wait to hightail it. After the check was paid, Christian escorted her outside to where her car was.
"This was great Mercedes; I'm had a great time tonight." Christian pressed her against the door of her car and leaned down to kiss her but Mercedes turned her head, the kiss landing awkwardly on the side of her mouth. Stepping back, Christian cleared his throat and looked down at his shoes, embarrassed.
"Christian, I'm-"
"No, it's alright. It was me, I moved to soon. I should have waited but I got carried away. I'm sorry."
"No, it's just that… it's been a while since I've done the whole dating thing and you've just got to give me some time."
"Fair enough, well… I'll let you go… call me anytime sweetheart."
"I had a really nice time too Christian, thank you for tonight." Leaning up, she planted a small kiss on his right cheek. Mercedes got in her car and sped away to the only place she knew she needed to be.
Sam had just stepped out of the shower when he heard his doorbell ring. Looking at his digital clock, he noted that if that were his friends they were about two hours early. Slipping on his boxers, he made his way to the front door only expecting his friend but was surprised to see Mercedes.
Hesitantly, he asked, "Mercy… what are you doing here?"
"Can I come in please?" she asked while biting her bottom lip. Sam's eyes wandered over her outfit and he couldn't but notice how elegant and dressed up she looked.
"Of course." Sam stepped aside while she took small steps into the apartment.
Mercedes took a seat on the couch, motioning for Sam to sit next to her but he shook his head, saying that he rather stand than sit down.
"Alright." she began. "I'm pretty sure you're wondering what I'm doing here, especially after that went down between us. Tonight has been a real opener for me. I met this guy named Christian at the dry cleaners and he asked me out on a date and he took me to this really nice restaurant –"
"Wait, you went out on date? How could you go out on date when we're trying to work things out? That doesn't make any sense." Sam's jaw clinched at the thought of Mercedes on a date when he couldn't even bring himself to think about another woman. Here he was, at home, driving himself crazy with worry about what was going to happen with his relationship and she's out on dates. Sam walked out of the living and into his bedroom.
"Wait Sam! Let me finish! Please! Hear me out." Mercedes ran after him as Sam paced around his bedroom.
"What else is there to say Mercedes? I'm a fucking idiot for thinking that you could possibly ever love me. You're going out on dates and I'm sitting here like a fucking dickhead waiting. I am the biggest fool."
"But that's just it! The whole time I was sitting there I realized that he wasn't you. That the person I want to be with wasn't him, it's you. Don't you understand Sam? You're it for me. You are my special someone. I've never thought that I could feel this way for someone. Not since Shane. I want you Sam, all of you and if it means losing my son and my career over it then so be it. I don't care anymore. I love you Samuel David Evans. I love you with all my heart and I can't live without you, I won't live without you. All this time I've been fooling myself into thinking I couldn't be with you but the truth is that I just can't be without you. I'm willing to give this a try if you still are. I know I fucked this up but please Sam. I love you so much it hurts sometimes. I need you, do you understand? I need you. I don't care anymore. If you want to go public we can go public. If you want to live in secret, we can live in secret. If you want move out of the fucking country and live in France we can. We can do whatever you want Sam because I'm not living my life without you. Not anymore. Four weeks is long enough, I won't do it anymore. I was stupid to think I could do this alone. I was stupid to think Christian was someone I wanted to be with. I admit it now, I was wrong. It's you Sam, it's always been you."
Sam walked up slowly to her. Whispering he said, "Do you mean it? All of it? Do you really love me?"
Wrapping her arms around his neck, she answered. "Yes… there is no one in this world for me. I love you Samuel Evans. And I don't care who knows it. If I could scream it to the world I would. I love you so much." Their lips met in a sweet kiss, solidifying their undying love for each other. They didn't need anything else, they had each other.
Breaking the kiss, Sam looked into her eyes. "Do you know how long I've waited for you to say that? Do you have any idea how much I love you? You've made me the happiest man in the world. We can do this. We'll get through this. I know we will."
Sam attacked her mouth, leaving her with little room to react. She felt all of him as he poured everything he had into that kiss. It felt real. It felt right. It felt like love, so she kissed him back with just as much intensity.
Suddenly Sam pulled away, making Mercedes protest.
"Babe… you drove your car here right? Donavan and Mike are on their way. How am I going to hide you and how is your son not going to recognize his mother's own car?"
"I couldn't find parking so I parked my car on the next block over. Don't worry." Mercedes leaned in to kiss him again but he pushed her away again. "But they are coming here. How am I going to hide you?"
Exhaling, Mercedes gave her boyfriend a small smile. "Do you want me to leave?"
"Well… no… but… um… well maybe you can drive around awhile and then wait for me to give you the bat signal and then wait for me here."
"Or… you can call them and tell them you want to go out tomorrow night. Donavan doesn't leave for another two days. You can always just go out tomorrow, that way you can lay in bed with me."
Wrapping his arms around her waist, he pulled her into him. Kissing her neck, Sam's hands made his way down to her round backside, squeezing it tight.
"That sounds like a great plan but you know Donavan and you know how persistent he can be." As if it was sent as a message from god, Sam's doorbell rang which was quickly followed by a loud banging.
"Shit! That's them; um… can you hide somewhere?"
Mercedes gave Sam a side eye. "Sam… Where do you expect me to hide?"
"Uh… In the hall closet!"
Before Mercedes could utter another word, Sam was pushing her into the hall closet, telling her not to make a sound. Sam ran to the front door, took a deep breath and opened ushering his friends without a word.
"Damn Sammy boy! What took you so long? You got a girl here or something?" Donavon joked.
"Well as you can tell, I was about to get dressed but you guys are early. Why don't you guys come back later on? Or I can just meet you guys there." Sam asked hopefully. Sweat began to gather on Sam's brow as he looked around to make sure nothing gave away to the fact that Mercedes was in the apartment.
"No Sam, you've wasted enough time blowing us off, you're coming out with us whether you like it or not. Besides, I leave tomorrow and I don't come back until Christmas. When am I gonna hang with my boys?"
Mike noticed the look of desperation on Sam face, he wondered what the hell was going on when it clicked in his mind that he was hiding something.
"Dude… are you ok? You look paler than usual." Mike said, making Donavon turn around on the couch and look at his friend. He did note that Sam didn't look like his usual self.
"Yeah Sam, are you feeling alright? do you need me to get you something?" Donavon asked concerned.
"No guys, I'm good. Just feeling a little light headed is all."
"Maybe you should stay home Sam. I don't want you to go out if you're sick. Or would you rather us stay here and have a guy's night in? Order some food, get some beers, maybe get some girls to come by and chill with us?"
"No. Don't stay here because of me. By all means go out and have fun. I'll catch up with you guys tomorrow. I know you leave in the afternoon, so maybe we can do breakfast before you leave.
"Are you sure Sam?"
"Yeah, please go have a good time."
Donavan stared at his friend for a second more. "Alright man, Mike and I are gonna go, but if you need anything just call me." Donavan and Mike walked to the door and left. Sam didn't realize he was holding his breath until he felt his body relax. Walking over to the closet door, he opened and pulled Mercedes out into his arms.
"Now… where were we?"
As she lay flat on her back, writhing and shaking from the pleasure his tongue was giving her, she couldn't help but let her mind wander to how she ended up in this predicament in the first place. How the hell did this happen? How could she let this man-boy- just come in and disrupt her life the way that he did? To her credit she did try and end it but he was really persistent, he refused to give up without a fight, even when she would threaten him. That only made him more determined to prove to her that he was worthy of her time. "You like that baby?" he asked in a husky tone as he ran his fingers down the slit of her pussy. "You like the way I play with your clit?"
"Yes." she moaned.
"Tell me how it feels baby." he demanded.
"It feels so fucking good" she replied with a strain in her voice. God this man had a golden tongue; he made her speak languages that she didn't even know she knew. He rubbed her clit in circles while fingering her wet pussy, then she felt him latch on to her clit, after he started humming on it, she knew she was a goner. Gripping the sheets, she started to get that familiar feeling in her belly and before she knew it, she was spraying his mouth with her juices.
After lapping up every bit of her juices, he crawled up to her and kissed her deeply, letting her taste herself. As she was kissing him, she reached down and started to stroke his throbbing cock, coaxing him to enter her. "Please fuck me." she begged. And without a word, he entered her in one swift movement. Lying underneath him while he fucked her relentlessly, she knew she was in too deep. She knew that whatever they had would soon implode but she didn't care. She wanted him and he wanted her. They both knew that eventually they would have to face the consequences but it didn't matter at that moment. She started to get that familiar feeling again when she felt him tense up and she knew that he was close. "Come for me baby, come for me now." he whispered in her ear as he pumped into her incessantly. "Come with me." she answered back. This had become her life. Forbidden bliss on damp mattresses. They could never been seen together; they could never fully give to each other because their illicit affair would create a shit storm in their little town. So they settled for tucked away hotels, hidden bed and breakfasts, and many nights of Skype and phone sex. "I'm coming baby, I'm coming." he almost yelled out. As they came together he collapsed his sweaty body on top of her and tried to catch his breath. "I love you Mercedes." he panted, "I love you too Sam." she replied, kissing him madly.
Yup. She was in too deep.
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