Hey guys ! Thank you so much for the reviews for last chapter. And yay , I just got my Ashley Tisdale CD, so I'm hyper right now, I dunno how many times my mom has yelled at me to turn the volume down, but nuh-uh, not gonna happen! ;p
Disclaimer; I don't own HSM.
Her Heartbeat
Chapter 12.
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Laugh when nothing's funny, Dance when there's no music,
Sing like you've never sung before, Love till it hurts,
Cry when you're sad, Smile when you're happy,
And always live each day like its your LAST
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Troy silently opened the door to Sharpay's room and slipped inside, careful not to make any loud noises. She was probably sleeping again. She'd been doing that all weekend. She would wake up a couple of times, but then she'd fall asleep again 10 minutes later, and sleep for a couple of hours.
She was sleeping now too. Of course. So he sat down in one of the comfy chairs next to the bed and took her hand. It was cold, and skinny. She hadn't eaten a lot lately, and Troy knew it. Becca had told him that when Sharpay was either nervous, or could feel something coming up, she didn't eat a lot. A clear sign for the rest of the family to know that something was wrong.
Troy felt bad.
It was his fault she was lying there. Why, oh why did he suggest they left the house? Why? Why, why, why? He felt so stupid! Of course you cant just leave the house when your girlfriend is a heart patient! How dumb can one be?
He squeezed her hand again, and sat by the side of her bed, is head resting on the mattress, just taking in her beauty. Even though she was just lying there, hadn't showered since Friday morning, her hair dirty and messed up, and her face pale, she looked more beautiful than all other girls in the world – combined!
He couldn't believe she was actually there again – much worse than the last time. Doctor Gellar said she wouldn't make it this time. He refused to let her die. He refused to give up hope. Of course she would survive. She was Sharpay Evans, she was the strongest person he knew.
He placed his lips at her forehead and gave her a soft kiss, "I love you, Paypay, so much."
There was a soft knock on the door, and he turned his head to find Becca in the doorway, all alone.
"Hi…" he whispered, looking back at Sharpay again, "I'll leave now if you want time with her."
"No, no…" Becca smiled, "Just stay. I actually want to talk to you a little bit, Troy." She moved across the room and sat down in one of the other chairs. She crossed her legs awkwardly and looked at him, "So… You were with her when she felt bad, or… Ryan haven't really told me anything yet. He doesn't say much."
Troy sighed, "Yeah I was. We were at my house Friday night, we were going to go back to your house to be with the others, but I guess we fell asleep. And I woke up in the middle of the night with Sharpay breathing rapidly next to me, I saw no other way than to call an ambulance."
"Okay…" Becca said, looking lovingly at her little sister, "I guess I should have seen it coming. Sometimes she thinks with her heart and not her brain. That's when she makes mistakes like these. She pulled this trick once before you know."
"Really?"
"Yeah, she was 9, and… And this girl from her drama class was turning 10., so she held a sleepover for her friends, and Paypay was invited too…" Becca trailed off, "I told her she couldn't go, y'know, but apparently her mind was set on being there, so she snuck out of her room and ran two blocks to the party. We didn't realize she was gone, because we thought she was sleeping, next thing we knew was the girl's parents calling us from their house, they'd just send her off in an ambulance, because she couldn't breathe. She was here for two months."
"Wow…" Troy couldn't help but smile a little, "I guess that's Sharpay, huh? She refuses to be treated different from everyone else. She wants to live a normal life."
"Yeah," Becca paused, "And who can blame her?"
"What do you mean?" Troy asked.
"You know… She always says she wants to live her life the fullest. She says she'll rather die young and have fun, than turn those 10 years older and be careful everyday. I guess that's probably what went through her mind when you guys left our house."
Troy squeezed Sharpay's hand and fought the tears, but they still started streaming down his cheeks, "What is going to happen to her now?"
Becca sighed, "I don't know, Troy." She said, "All I know is that… doctor Gellar says her chances are low. He says that she could make it two months or not until tomorrow. He also calmed me by saying that they could do the heart surgery, risk her life, but also high her chances for survival. He said he wants to talk to her about it, but I'm sure she wont let them do it."
"Of course I wont you fool, my time is up!" Sharpay mumbled, opening her eyes.
"Paypay!" Troy said quickly kissing her cheek, "You're awake? How are you feeling?"
"Uhm…" Sharpay swallowed hard, "Pathetic. Anyhow… What day is it?"
"Sunday." Becca said, "The others have school tomorrow."
"Oh…" Sharpay's face sunk, "Are you gonna…?"
"Yeah. Yeah I am." Becca said, "I'm gonna head up there with Ryan and talk to the principal, and yeah… prepare him if anything happens."
Sharpay nodded, "Fine." She mumbled, "Do you mind giving me and Troy a moment?"
Becca shot them both a huge smile, "Sure, lil sis. Anything for you." she went for the door, "And bye Troy."
Troy smiled at her and turned to Sharpay, "Oh God, Pay, I'm so, so sorry… I- I dunno what I was thinking… We should have never left the house, I feel so stupid!"
"Troy, shut up!" Sharpay said, her voice hoarse, "Maybe we shouldn't have left the house as you say, but… That night meant a lot to me, and I'd rather die now while I've experienced it, than die in 2 years and have not, okay? You understand that, right?"
"But I don't want to lose you…" Troy whispered, kissing her forehead.
"Don't worry," Sharpay smiled at him, "You wont lose me, not really…" she pressed a hand against his chest, as a tear slid down her cheek, "I'll always be in there."
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"Are you feeling better, Ry?" Gabriella asked, sitting down next to him. She slid a comforting arm around his shoulders, but she somehow knew that there was nothing she could do to make him feel better. His sister was on her deathbed, who could blame him?
"A little," Ryan whispered, looking at her, "Now that you're here."
"I think you should talk to Troy again." Gabriella suggested, "The both of you feel bad, and maybe you will feel better after. He wouldn't mind telling you what they were doing that night. I already asked him, he gave me the big picture, not the details. Just so you know…. she was really happy, Ryan. She wanted to leave the house."
"I know," Ryan smiled, "That is Sharpay for you, but still… I cant help but blame Troy, and I know it's stupid! It's not his fault!"
Gabriella gave him a sweet kiss on the lips, "I'm gonna go see if Taylor is done talking to Shar, so I can for a little bit. You need to find Troy, okay?"
Ryan nodded, "I love you, Gabby."
"I love you too."
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"Are you afraid?" Taylor whispered, her lips close to Sharpay's ear. Her head was resting on the pillow right next to Sharpay's. She had managed to squeeze herself into the bed, after special request from Sharpay. She said she wanted to be close to everybody before she went away.
"No…" Sharpay whispered, her voice cracking, "Not of dying, really. I'm just…wondering what it's gonna be like, y'know? No-one know what's happening when you leave the world. Is there a heaven somewhere, or do you just turn cold and that's it?"
"I don't know," Taylor said, "I believe in God, I think you're going to heaven. You're just gonna sit up there, and… look out for all the rest of us. You're gonna make sure that we'll all have great lives, you're gonna take care of us. I know it."
Sharpay giggled, "I'd love to take care of you guys. You mean so much to me. I know I've just recently become friendly with you, but… You mean a lot to me, Taylor. Just the fact that you're here with me now. I'm sorry we didn't get to make more memories together."
"It's not too late to change that." Taylor said, taking out her cell phone. She held it up above them, with the back towards them, "Say cheese…" she giggled, and pressed the picture button. After the camera had clicked, she took the phone down to take a look at the picture. "See," she smiled, "We're making memories."
"I'm gonna miss you, Taylor." Sharpay said, squeezing her hand tight, "So, so much…"
"Me too." Taylor said, "You know, missing you!"
Sharpay giggled a little, but the sound soon turned into coughs as she started not being able to breath again. Taylor quickly jumped off the bed and sat in the chair, hoping Sharpay would be fine.
After about 5 minutes of intense coughing from Sharpay's side, she finally lay back and rested her head. Her heart had started beating like crazy again because of all the strength she had to use.
Taylor leaned down and gave her a little hug, before standing up. She smiled and said, "I think Gabby wants to see you now."
She left the room and two seconds later, Gabriella took the seat she'd just been sitting in, "Hi Shar." She smiled, "Tired? Do you want me to come back later?"
Sharpay shook her head, "No… I may not be here later. Stay."
Gabriella stood up and took a seat by Sharpay's legs on the bed, looking like a total goof by the smile on her face.
"Why are you so happy?" Sharpay asked, her voice hoarse.
"Ryan just told me he loved me." Gabriella smiled.
"Oh, I'm so happy for you two, Gabs!" Sharpay shrieked, almost sitting up in the bed to hug her, but Gabriella pushed her back down. "Oh yeah, right…" Sharpay mumbled.
"How are you feeling?" Gabriella asked.
"Honestly?" Sharpay whispered, "Like crap. But that's it. Nothing to change about that. Did Zeke and Kelsi go home?"
"Yeah, they left yesterday morning already." Gabriella said, "They both had plans, and yeah… they didn't feel like they belonged here."
Sharpay nodded a little, "Okay… But I'd like to chat with them, maybe… I dunno, I still have to talk to Chad and Ryan. I've already spoken to Troy, but I guess I could expect him back here soon!"
Gabriella laughed a little, "Yeah, we're all coming by as soon as school ends tomorrow. We wont let you be here by yourself, you know?"
"Well, that's good to know that someone cares." Sharpay replied, smiling at Gabriella, "Listen Gabby… When I'm gone, that necklace I gave you?" she pointed at it and smiled, "Give my half to Taylor, it'll connect all 3 of us."
"Got it, mom." Gabriella teased, squeezing her necklace tight, "It really meant a lot to me that you chose me to have it." She whispered, "A lot, a lot."
"Yeah," Sharpay smiled, "But I thought you deserved it, doofus."
Gabriella giggled.
Sharpay sighed, "But Gabby, not to sound rude, or anything… I really want to sleep now, so can you tell the others not to bother me?"
"Sure."
"And hey!" Sharpay added, "Just if I don't wake up again, I love you all."
"We love you too."
Okay, so yeah… Mostly talking and such in this chapter, but I guess it was needed. I hope you liked this, and I'll be back with more soon. This story is approaching the end too, but I guess you can feel that, eh? Please leave a review though, I love you all.
The lovely Friends;
Rachel: Hey Pheebs, I'm-I'm taking Charlie shopping, why don't you come and I'll help you find something.
Phoebe: Ok, that'll be great!
Joey: Oh, ain't that nice? The three of you trying on slutty lingerie together.
Rachel: That's not what we're gonna do!
Joey: Why would you ruin it, who was that hurtin'?
Lol, talk to you guys later, tootles.