-I do not own glee at all, though I wish that I did, well I have internet again so I am going to try and update more, and here is chapter four. Thanks for the reviews everyone.-

AN-Thanks everyone that is reading/reviewing this story. I hope that this chapter is better than the last two. Also who watched GLEE last night? I am so upset right now and happy and other things. Well here is this chapter. Please review and let me know what you think of it.

Chapter Five

What was he doing, why did he turn around? Blaine just did not know anything anymore. Knowing that it had been three months since he talked to anyone let anyone see who he was. He would only go out at night to get some food. But he turned around so Kurt could see the real him now. Why no one would want to talk to him, see him, or even want to be him.

"I am ugly Kurt; no one wants to talk to be any more. No one wants to look at this face, and no one will know. Only you."

He told Kurt, he did not like that someone now knew what he looked like, it made him feel like an ugly fool. Kurt could go back to school and tell everyone what he looks like, and then people would start to come over and want to look at the freak that used to be Blaine Anderson.

Kurt could not say anything. He looked at Blaine's face and saw that scars. Though that was not what he was looking at. He could see though Blaine's eyes that he was sad, alone, and scared. That he felt like no one would care about him ever again.

"See Kurt, you cannot even say anything to me, I am ugly. Just say it."

Blaine knew he was ugly; he just wanted Kurt to tell him that he was so he would believe it more. No one would want to look at him, his face full of scares.

"Blaine…."

Kurt did not know what to say, he looked into the blue eyes of Blaine's and could see the water building up inside, knowing that he wanted to cry. Kurt walked over to him a grabbed his hand.

"I am not going to tell you that you are ugly, because you are not. Your insides might be because of the way you acted in school, but I can see your pain. I know what this pain feels like."

"How would you know, look at your face, so clean, so perfect"

Which it was, Kurt face was the most perfect face that Blaine has ever seen in his life. He would always try not to stare at him when he was at school.

"I know more than you think Blaine, do you know how it feels to be the only open guy gay at school. I might not have scars on my face that make me think I am ugly, or sad. But I am bullied a whole lot, you might not see it because you were being MR. Perfect at school, and if it was not for some of the glee members I might not even want to show up to school."

Blaine did not know that this was going on in Kurt's life; he thought that Kurt was happy. He always seemed to be happy.

"It always seemed like you were happy, happier than me."

It did seem like Kurt was happy, Blaine was never happy, he only acted the way he did because of his mother. But now she was even gone because Blaine did not look like Blaine anymore.

"Happier than you Blaine?"

Kurt looked into Blaine's eyes, the water works were getting ready to fall, Kurt could tell.

"I act the way I did in school because of my mother, she made me believe that everyone should be pretty and if they were not than they have no real life. I always acted for my mother, and I guess when I got into high school I just kept being who my mother wanted me to be."

Blaine never opened up to anyone like this before, his friends well the ones he thought were his friends did not know the real Blaine. No one knew the real Blaine.

"I just wanted to get though this year and then moved and be who I want to be, but now look at me, there is no way anyone would want to be seen around this ugly person."

Kurt did not know what to do; he never talked to Blaine before even though they lived next to one another forever. They were just never friends, he always thought Blaine was cute, but he had a girlfriend and was straight.

"If you're so called friends do not want to hang out with you because of the way you look then they are not really your friends Blaine. You should not have to be someone different just to make people happy."

Listening to Kurt say that he shouldn't have to different just for people to like him made him wish that he had him as a friend all these years, he might have been different.

"I had to be Kurt; my mother would not accept me any other way. Have you ever wondered why when we were younger I was not allowed to play or talk with you?"

"I had wondered that when we were kids."

Blaine did not know if he wanted to hear this story, but he wanted to tell it, he wanted to tell Kurt who he really was.

"It was because my mother talked to your father that he thought you might be gay, because of something you asked for when you were younger, and my mother did not like that. She freaked out and told me I was never allowed to talk to you or play with you, and with her being my mother I listened to her. I thought she knew what was right for me."

Blaine's mother did not want him talking to Kurt because he was gay, Kurt let go of Blaine's hand, and he could not believe that at all. Parents were supposed to protect their kids, but just because Kurt was who he was should not have been a reason to not let them be friends.

"I listened to her, I listen to everything she ever told me, and so I turned out to be this person that stands before you. Well the one before the scars. Then I remember when she told me that you came out, and she told me that a guy should never love another guy. And I remember thinking that she was right. So I just hated the fact that you were gay. And you are so proud to be gay. Proud to be who you want to be, and that you love yourself. I never loved myself. I loved what my mother wanted me to be. But if my mother knew the truth she would kill me."

Kurt's eyes shot up, the truth.

"What truth, you have or had the perfect life, the hot girlfriend. You were the most popular guy in school."

"I was who my mother wanted me to be, but there is a point in your life when you think to yourself that this is not who I want to be. This is not be, I always thought that but never acted on it Kurt. I stayed being who my mother wanted me to be, the popular straight guy with the girlfriend, but the truth is Kurt"

Blaine stopped, he never said the words out loud to anyone, not even himself, he was about to tell Kurt something that he did not know if anyone wanted to hear.

"Have you ever felt like someone is staring at you, always looking at you?"

"Sometimes Blaine."

Blaine took a deep breath. He needed to tell Kurt he needed to, he could not lie to him, he was so perfect, they were talking, having a moment. Or something, there was something there. Blaine just did not know what it was.

"I have been staring at you for the longest time, since I knew the truth about myself and who I really am."

Blaine did not want to say it out loud he was scared.

"I am gay Kurt."