Note before: I'm Dutch myself, I wrote this in Dutch and I translated this myself. I'm really sorry for all the mistakes I made, I hope you guys still understand the storyline!

Have fun reading.

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RISING STAR:

Chapter 2. Change.

When I woke up the next morning, Jacob was already gone. It probably was his turn for a round and he thought I would have a good sleep. I decided to wait for him in the Cullens house.

Absently I runned to the house of the Cullens. When I came into the kitchen, everyone was sitting at the dinner table. I immediatly knew it ment trouble, otherwise they wouldn't sit together like that.

'Sit down, we have to tell you something.' My mother said calm.

I did what she said.

My father talked, he didn't speak around it, he said what was on his mind.

'Honey, we can't stay in Forks much longer. We need to leave soon…'

I was confused. I liked it here, all my friends were here, I felt at home, this was my place, Jacob was here.

'Why?'

'We pretend to be six years older than we really are. People are noticing, they're getting suspicious.'

'But I don't want to leave, I'm happy here.'

My mother took over. 'We know that, honey. We are also happy here. But we really can't stay.'

'Why not? Since when are we leaving because people are suspicious? We didn't do anything wrong.'

Carlisle took over. 'Darling, we need to think about the people around us. If they find out about our secret, we're much further from home.'

'Like they would find out about it that easy. What we are isn't obvious!'

'People know more than you know. Especially the Quileutes.'

'And? Billy would never send us away. And he's the head of the tribe.'

'There are other Quileutes who don't know us.'

'What kind of bad pretext is that? They won't do anything without Billy's permission. You guys know that! What is it that you don't tell? You can tell me, I'm not a child anymore.'

Everyone was doubting, then they looked at my father. He started talking.

'OK. Six years ago a lot of people were killed by an vampire army. We thought every corpse and witnesses were gone. But they found a body and they're examinating it now. If they find out the blood is drained out, they can find out about us.'

I sighed. I couldn't get out of that. People couldn't find out about our secret. That was the only vampire-rule. And I was really scared for the Volturi.

'There must be another solution.'

I wanted there to be another solution and I would devise it.

'We wanted that two, but we couldn't think of anything. We're really sorry.'

'But, what about Jacob?' I asked.

My mother looked at me, her look disappionted.

'We can visit him every month.'

I didn't know what to say. I couldn't live without Jacob. I wanted to scream. But before I could do something, I became very calm. Jasper was messing with my feelings. But, because I was calm, I could think. I tried to put everything in line. I didn't only want to see Jacob once a month, I wanted to be with him, always. If I had to leave, I wanted him to come with me.

'He should go too.' I suddenly was happy because of my briljant idea. 'I'm just going to ask him if he can come with us.'

I saw that my mother wanted to say something, but I was already running outside.

I searched the whole woods, but I couldn't find him. I hoped he'd be back soon, I wanted to talk to him right now.

I runned back to the house, and then I heared a bike coming. I started running faster, Jacob arirved before me.

'Do you want to come to the beach?' Jacob Asked.

'Yes, please.' I was already excited. There was no better place to talk than the beach.I had been there a lot, but it stayed breathtaking. The water was dark green, even in the sunlight. And there were beautiful cliffs with high tops. My mother told me she once jumped off of that en Jacob saved her because she almost died. It was a pity she didn't remember much because it was a human memory. That memory gets vague when you become a vampire, my mother told me that. My mother was a really good story teller, but she always told stories about the past five years. I wanted to know more, what happend before that?

I runned to my brand new bike and drove with him to La Push, to First Beach. We had put our bikes on the side and walked over the beach, made our way to the tree we always sat on. Jacob had told me once he always sat and talked there with my mom. And now, it was the tree of Jacob and me.

'I have to ask you something.' I said.

'Go ahead.' He said while he found a branch to sit on. I didn't sit.

'Well, I had a conversation with my family this morning and they want to move. They say it's to dangerous to stay in Forks, that people are getting suspicious.' I tried to use the same words of this morning.

'What?' Jacob looked at me, he was shocked. 'So, you guys are leaving? You can't! I can't live without you!' He started shaking.

'Yes, Jake calm down. We're leaving, but you can come with us, right?' He looked at me, still shaking.

'Ness.' He hissed between his teeth. 'I can't. I need to prorect my tribe.'

I looked at him until he stopped shaking.

'The pack is big enough. And, if we're not here, there are no vampires around. Sam can be alpha alone and…'

'I can't just leave my tribe! Even though the pack is big, if something happens, I have to be there. I can't betray my tribe, I can't leave my pack. I can't live without my brothers.' Jacob jumped up and walked around.

'But you can without me...' I felt the tears come up and I didn't want to cry.

'Huh?' Jacob didn't understand me. He stopped walking and looked at me.

'You can live without me.' I awnsered. I was crying now, I couldn't stop the tears.

He stood before me and grabbed me.

'That's not what I mean! Nothing in this world is more important to me than you. I mean, I want you to stay.' He wept the tears off my face.

I sighed and couldn't talk for a while. He looked at my while I was looking for my voice.

'I can't let my family go alone, they can't leave me. I can't live without my parents. I have to go…'

He still looked at me, but I saw in his eyes his decision was made.

'I have to stay…'

The silence that followed was long. We both didn't know what to say anymore. This problem had no solution. He couldn't come, I couldn't stay. We couldn't be together. Not anymore.

Slowly I realised that we would be apart soon, and I couldn't handle that.

'Don't cry, please.' Jacob tried to wiped away my tears, but there were to much. I couldn't stop them.

'I can't live without you.' I sobbed. 'I don't want to lose you.'

'We'll find a solution. Really. I'll think of someting. I promise.' He whiped away the last tears. Then he grabbed a tuft of hair and put it behind my ear, while he stroke my cheek with his fingertips. His warm hand felt good on my soft skin. I was totally preoccupied and didn't even notice him coming closer. Only when he pushed his mouth on mine, and he tried to open my mouth, I realised what was happening. I pushed his chest as hard as I could. He felt backwarts and almost landed between the branches of the fallen tree.

'What are you doing?' I yelled at him. I wiped my mouth with my hand. He wanted to kiss me. The boy who I had always seen as my brother, tried to kiss me. I looked at Jacob with nothing but horror. He needed some time to restore, but I wanted to leave. So I turned around.

'Wait.' He said. I stopped, with my back to him. I couldn't look him in the eye right now.

'I thought you were ready for this right now.'

I was speechless. How could he say that? Confused I turned around.

'I can be more than your brother, your protector. I can be the love of your life.'

I stared at him. 'Why would you?'

'Sit down.' He said, while he sat down on a branch. He took a deep breath.

'I'm in love with you, Ness. I want to make you happy. I want to grow old with you, I want to have kids with you. I want….'

He became silent. I started to realize what was happening. He didn't see me as a sister anymore, he was in love with me… He was in love with me… I couldn't believe it. I took a few deep breaths. I had to say someting, he was waiting for an awnser. But I couldn't think of anything. I didn't want it, I wanted everything to stay the same.

'Jake, I… I don't know what to say.'

I took a few deep breaths again, tried to make my brain work again.

'I can't do this. I can't be something else for you than family. I see you as my brother, Jake. I may look like seventeen, I behave like seventeen. But that's not how I feel, Jake. I feel like five, I'm five.

He sighed and looked at me.

'I was so happy you grew older fast. I was waiting for love. If I would have imprinted on a normal baby, I would have to wait sixteen years. I was so happy with you. You were pretty when you were a toddler, but look at you now. You are the prettiest girl I've ever seen. If I look at you now, I feel sparks everywhere. I feel this for you, right now and I don't want to wait anymore. I've waited so long for your mom and…'

I stared at him. 'What did you say?'

He realised he said a stupid thing and was shocked.

'Nothing. Forget I said that.'

I thought about it. He waited for my mother. What did he mean? What did that had to do with her love life? Suddenly al the pieces fell into place.

'You were in love with my mother?' I stared at him with big eyes.

'Ness, listen to me, let me explain.'

'You were in love with my mother!' I was sure. I was 100 percent sure. He was in love with my mother…

'Ness, just listen to me, I can explain.'

I looked at him.

'Listen. You are right. I was in love with Bella. Don't judge please. I want to tell you the whole story.'

He called my mothter Bella, I had to get used to that. He didn't know anything else. I tried to listen to him.

'Edward left Bella once, because he thought that was better for her. He moved with the whole family, one day he was just gone. Bella was broken by it.'

I didn't believe what he said. My parent were the most sticky people I've ever met. I had never seen people who loved each other more than them.

'I took care of Bella at that time, we were best friends. But I got deeper feelings for her. More than friends. And after I became a werewolf, the problems got bigger.

'But Edward came back and Bella choose him. I wanted to fight for the relationship between Bella and me, I was hopelessly in love with her. I almost died because she didn't know she was in love with me, she hurt me a lot. But when she finally found her true feelings, the wedding was already coming, and…'

'And you thought, I will go for her daugther.'

My mouth fell open of outrage.

'I'm sorry?' Jacob looked at me, shocked.

'My mother was taken, so you just picked me. You just used me to be near her!'

I was furious and stood up to leace.

'That's not what I mean. I imprinted on you, I can't help caring about you.'

'You can't help it? It was all just an exident. You didn't want this. You didn't want me…'

I wanted to walk away, but Jacob stopped me.

'Ness, wait, please, I don't mean…'

'Let me go!'

Furious I struggeled loose and let my legs go as fast as they could. I grabbed my bike and raced home. Because of the rage, my eyes were filled with tears and my sight on the road got fuzzy. Instead of slowing down, I made my bike go faster. I wanted to be home. The way home seemed to take twice as long, even though my bike was going faster than normal. Finally our garage got in sight. I put my bike in the garage and went on by foot. I runned to our cottage as fast as I could. Crying I went to my room, picked up my suitcase and started packing. My parents obviously heard and my mother stood in my room soon enough.

'What are you doing?' She asked indignantly.

'I'm packing, I want to leave. Can we move tomorrow?' Angry, I threw my clothes in my suitcase. My mother grabbed my arm.

'What happend?'

I couldn't move, my mother was much stronger than me. I looked away to hide my face.

'Nothing, OK? Ik just want to leave.'

She grabbed my chin and turned it to her, so that I had to look at her.

'All those tears are not nothing.'

'I don't want to talk about it. Can we just go?'

Slowly, my mother realised me and I grabbed the last clothes from my closet. But when I came back to my suitcase, my mother was already unpacking.

'Mom, what are you doing?'

'We're not leaving.' She said confident. She took another pile of clothes uit my suitcase.

'Yes we are. I have to go. Leave the stuff!' I yelled at her like I never did before. It didn't even feel good. But I couldn't control my rage. Everything had to come out.

'You can unpack the rest yourself.' She walked out of my room.

I didn't know what to do anymore. I hurted everyone now. Suddenly, all the anger was gone, everything was turned into hurt. And hatred. How could I turn everything against me? The two people I loved the most, were scared away in one hour. I dropped to the ground and burst into tears. All the emotions came out. I didn't know how long I layed there, time didn't matter. But after a while, the tears were gone and I was exhausted from all the emotions. There, on my bedroomfloor. I fell asleep.