Note before: I'm Dutch myself, I wrote this in Dutch and I translated this myself. I'm really sorry for all the mistakes I made, I hope you guys still understand the storyline!

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RISING STAR:

Chapter 4. The End.

I was waiting in my room. It was a week after the accident with Jacob. Carlisle was surprised by how long Jake survived. He didn't wake up yet, but he was alive. And that was a miracle. My mother was in the room next to me in discussion with my father. She thought I had the right to be with Jacob, but my father said he needed rest. I didn't know what I wanted. On the one hand, I wanted to have Jacob in my arms. I wanted to be with him. On the other side I didn't, because I knew nothing would've changed. I knew he would still be in the bed, his eyes closed. His body would still be cold, his heartbeat irregular. I didn't want to be with Jacob like that. Because, after I saw him more like that, he didn't look asleep anymore. He looked dead. And I didn't want to see that, I didn't want dead Jacob. I want alive Jacob, my Jacob. The old Jacob, as he always was.

On my desk lay all the birthday presents, unused. I walked to it and grabbed my diary, paged through it. Every page was still empty, intended for me to write my feelings down. But I couldn't give words to my feelings, let alone write them down.

My mother came in. 'We can go see him, are you coming?'

Jacob looked exactly like expected. Nothing changed. Carlisle left me alone with him. I didn't know what to do, he still looked so fragile. I just stood there, next to the bed and looked at him, listened to his heart beat. It went more irregular than last time.

Then, everything became clear. This was the end. In a few hours, his heart would stop beating and he would never wake up. It was too late. I lost him. He would never wake up and it was my fault. My knies went weak, I sank to the floor and cried.

'What's up?' I heard a soft, husky voice say. My eyes got big. I must have imagened that. With a jerk I turned my head to the bed.

'Why are you crying?' Jacob. There he lay, his eyes open. I didn't believe what I saw. I must have been dreaming. This couldn't be true.

Full of surprise I looked at him.

'What's happening?' Jacob insisted. His voice wasn't more than a whisper, but I could hear him well.

'Oh. My. God.' I burst out. I was still staring at him. He grinned.

I panicked. What should I do? Did I have to help him? Could it be true? Could he really be awake? But then he should be in a lot of pain.

'Carlisle!' I screamed, while I knew he would hear me if I whispered.

Before I could blink, Carlisle stood next to the bed.

'Welcome back!' He said, before he explained to Jacob what happend in detail. I stared at Carlisle with big eyes. I still couldn't do anything, say anything. I just sat there, on the ground. I looked at what was happening but I couldn't record it.

Carlisle came, after his examenation, sitting in front of me. He knew I didn't understand what was happening.

'He's awake. And he's fine. I'll leave you two alone.'

I waited untill Carlisle was out of the room. Then I stood up and walked to the bed. I desired this moment and now it was happening. All the tension from the past week fell off of me. His beautiful brown eyes, got me back to reality. I layed my hand on his cheek.

'Renesmee, I…'

'Jacob, I love you. No, I'm in love with you. And I'm so sorry! I'm sorry I didn't tell you before and that I acted so childish. And I'm espacially sorry you're laying here. But, I'm in love with you, I love you!'

Jacob looked at me. Slowly, there came a big smile on his face. He brought his shaking big hand to my face and wiped my wet eyes dry.

'I love you too.' He whispered hoarse.

I grabbed his hand, that was still on my face. Slowly I brought my face closer to his. Very carefully I pushed my lips on his.

I expected it to feel weird. Kissing the boy I'd seen as my brother for years. But it felt normal. As if it was supposed to be this way, which was true. Actually, it felt really good and I didn't want to stop.

But unfortunatly we had to, because Jacob was out of breath. Fast I pulled my lips from his and he coughed a few times.

'I'm Sorry.' I mumbled. I felt my cheeks turn pink.

'I'm not, that was great.' Jacob whispered with a big grin on his face.

We heard a quiet knock on the door. My mother came in.

'Jacob?' Her voice sounded tense.

'Present.' Jacob lifted his hand.

He really was back, his humor confirmed that.

'Oh, Jake!' My mother runned to him and hugged him.

My father also came in and hugged him. It was weird to see how they treated Jacob. I always forgot they were friends with him too.

The hours after that were so busy in the little house of the Blacks. Everyone wanted to see Jacob. I didn't get he chance to be alone with him again. When it all became too much for me, I walked outside to Jacobs garage. I took a seat on his bike and looked around. This was all so familiar. In the past, had been here for hours with Jacob, we worked together on small repairs for his friends. He thought me everything I knew.

Suddenly, all the tension came out. I had been so scared. And I was so relieved he was finally awake. After all this time I spend in fear.

The whole garage became fuzzy and turned. Quickly, I put my head between my knees and tried to breath calm.

'Honey, are you OK?' I heard a familiar voice say. My father came looking for me.

'Almost.' I awnsered.

My father chuckled and sat next to me.

'All of it just comes out.' I assured him. I didn't like him seeing me like this.

'Just let it go. It'll be good for you. You didn't cry a tear this week.' He comforted me.

'I did.' I helped him remember. But he didn't listen. He grabbed me and pushed me toward him. I tried to stop my tears, but I couldn't. My father was so sweet to me and that all made it worse. I gave up soon and let my tears flow. It felt good to lay in my fathers arms, it felt safe.

I thought it would be weird to be as old as my father. I pushed it away and pretent I was five years old. But era's were different with me. And because everything was different in my life, I found out I was fooling myself. I wanted to hold on to my youth, that had already passed. I was seventeen, just as my father. And that wasn't weird, it was really normal. It felt good. How old I would be, he would always be my dad. I knew that I would grow older, be a grown up and he would stay seventeen forever. I didn't care. He was just my father, the best father someone could ever have.

I didn't have to cry anymore, everything was alright. But still I put my head back on his chest. It just felt really good to have a moment with my daddy.

'Congratulation with your first kiss.'

Shocked I looked up. Shoot, he heard everything. I looked at him, mad, but because of his grin on his face I had to laugh. Well, what did it matter? He would've found out anyway. Especially since he can read my mind.

'Ready to go back? Leah is here and she's asking for you.'

I stood up. My father wanted to walk away, but I stopped him and flew him around the neck.

'Thanks dad, for everything.' He smiled proud and hugged back. Then, we walked back to the house, hand in hand.

Before I was in the house, Leah hugged me.

'Oh Ness, I'm so happy! Thank you thank you thank you!'

I laughed. 'You're welcome. Even though I'm not sure I did something.'

There we stood, Leah and me, laughing together. I never thought I would do that with her. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Seth staring at us. I looked at him and runned to him. He hugged me insantly.

Seth really was a good friend of mine. We didn't have to say anything, because we knew what we were thinking. He was the one that had the least trouble with the fact that my family were vampires. I always thought it was special how he looked at us, so honorfull. I knew how the Quileutes looked at us. But now Jake was imprinted on me, nothing could be changed and I could get along well with the pack, but we still were the cold ones. But it looked like Seth didn't care. He was a good friend of mine and my family and that was really special. Seth was really special.

Leah stood next to us.

'Everthing is alright again, isn't it?' She whispered and smiled. Yes, everything really was alright again. I still couldn't believe it. I really thought it was over for the past few days. I already prepared for the loss of my everything and thought about all the ways to live through it. I also thought of ways to end my life if I couldn't handle all of it. But I didn't need it, because everything was alright again. Unbelievable, everything was alright again. This was the end of al the waiting, the end of the insecurity, the end of al the fuss. It was finally over.

It was so typical that the first drops of rain came out of the air at that moment. I still lived in Forks, so it wasn't a weird thing that it was raining. But I found it typical. As if that also confirmed it was over, that all the angels in heaven cried because the great Jacob did not joint hem yet. In a few seconds the first drips were grown to a downpour.

I laughed and runned away from the door, into the rain. I stuck my tongue out to heaven, to the angels. Jake was still with me, he was mine. Lauging I runned trough the rain. I made myself dirty, because the mudd splashed up. That made the fun even bigger. I grabbed a clot of mud and threw it in the direction of the wall. It landed exactly in Leahs hair. Normally she would have made a deadly comment and runned away, but the new Leah smiled and runned to me. And that's how the mudfight started. I couldn't see who joined us, the only thing I saw was mud flying. I didn't have this much fun in along time.

'Renesmee, Jacob is asking for you.' I heard someone yell from the house. I turned around and Carlisle stood by the door. Quickly I runned towards him. Jake asked for me, he wanted to see me. And I wanted to see him.

I shook al the mud I could off of me before I got inside. It didn't really work, I was still totally dirty. Carlisle smiled and winked at me. It didn't matter.

Quickly I walked towards the bedroom and eagerly I pushed the door open.

Jacob still looked weak. He had his eyes open, but he was still very skinny and he had massive ramparts.

'What did you do?' He asked curious.

I walked towards him, gave him a kiss and sat on the edge of the bed.

'Well, there's a big mudfight outside to celebrate you're awake. And it's possible that I might have started it.'

He chuckled, but his laughter ended in cough. I grabbed him and I layed my head on his chest. He felt a little bit warmer already. He was going to be better. Everything would be fine. Finally everything was fine.

He put his arms around me.

'So, what did I miss? You grew again, that really isn't funny anymore.'

I smiled.

'You didn't miss anything. I feel like the world has stopped.'

He felt my grief and said nothing.

'I missed you.' I whispered in his warm chest. He pushed me closer to him.

'Whatever happens, I will stay with you forever. I'm not leaving you.'

He smiled. 'How did you get tot hat suddenly?'

'If my family moves, I'm not coming with them. I know how it feels to lose you for a week, and I can't handle it. I can't live without you. Whatever my parents do, I'm staying with you. I'm not leaving.'

It stayed silent. I listened to Jacobs breath, that didn't change. I thought for a second I hurt him. But then he said: 'Are you sure?'

I lifted my head so that I could look at him.

'I've never been so sure of anything before.' I gave him a kiss.

I looked into is eyes and knew it was fine, everything was fine.