Chapter 6: Define Me

Ally POV

I can't believe that it's been over a whole month since Austin and I spoke. He hurt my feeling in so many levels that I haven't been able to look at him the same way since. First he told me that he wants to be nothing more than friends, then he kisses me out of nowhere, and then I find out he has a drug addiction and finally, he admits after insulting me that he's fell in love with me.

What I don't understand is "why now?" I was practically dating Dallas. All I ever wanted was to be happy. Austin made it seem like he was happy with Cassidy and that she meant the world to him. But it was all brunch of lies and a cover up. From the get-go Austin wanted me as much as I wanted him. He didn't want things to become weird between us, which I understand. I don't want our relationship to turn out like it is now. But the truth of the matter is I fell absolutely in love with him.

As for Dallas, he has been trying to ask me out for quite some time now and I still haven't given him a straight forward answer yet. Do I want to go out with him after what happen? No I don't. It's not that I blame Dallas, because I don't. However, I don't trust his friend Trent, he's not all cracked up to what he seems to be. I told Trish about what happen and it's like she completely ignored the most important part of the story. That's when I left it alone and moved on.

The only person I've been able to have a decent conversation with is Darcy. She's actually been pretty happy lately, especially since Austin broke up with Cassidy. Plus her relationship with Dallas has never been better.

"Ally, are you still coming to my party tonight?" Darcy asks.

I was daydreaming at first, "Yeah, I'll be there."

"The real question is am I going to be there. Everybody knows that the party don't start to I get there." Trish says.

"Yeah, you keep thinking that." Darcy says with a smug look on her face.

"By the way Darcy, I meant to ask you something. Can –"

"No Trish, Trent can't come, especially not after what he did." Darcy says cutting Trish off.

"I don't understand, why not?! He is my boyfriend and I want him to be there." Trish complains.

"Not my problem. No mortal enemies of my brothers are coming to mess up my party." She tells her.

"So Ally gets to bring Dallas but I can't bring my boyfriend?" Trish asks.

"So your roll Trish, I am not bringing Dallas." I say.

"You see Trish? Ally not bringing Dallas, so I guess you'll be going solo too." Darcy smirks. "Any 'who, I have to go home and set up, later."

"That bitch better be lucky she's my best friend and I love her." Trish says shaking her head.

"Relax Trish. You'll be fine for one night without Trent." I explain.

"I know. It just feels weird that he's not going to be there with me."

"Face it, he's just not invited." I say.

"Thanks Ally, you're a big help."

I smile, "I try."

"What are you going to wear tonight?"

"I bought this really cute dress at H&M's."

"Oh my god, I used to work there! But then they fired me because I kept trying on the clothes in the female's department. Plus, that's one of the best jobs I've ever had. Good times, good times."

I giggle, "When you're on a job you don't try on everything you think is cute."

"How else was I going to pick out outfits when I get my first paycheck?"

"I don't know Trish. Maybe when you're not on duty and you earned your first paycheck.

"Too lazy, I like to have my outfits picked out before hand."

"It figures you would say that." I reply. Right away, I noticed Austin and Dez walking towards us.

"Hello Trish and Ally." Austin says, staring right at me.

"Hello Austin." I reply staring at him back.

"What are you knuckle heads up to? Shouldn't you guys be home getting ready for the party tonight?" Trish asks.

"Yes, we're on our way there now. Are you coming tonight Ally?" Austin asks.

I nod, "Yes, I'm definitely coming."

"See I told you! Austin thought you would still be mad at us and wouldn't bother to show up." Dez explains.

"Dez I got this." Austin says.

"No, I'm not mad at you guys anymore. I could never be mad at you guys for too long." I tell them.

"Good, because one mouth is awfully a long time to stay mad at us, especially for Austin." Dez says.

"Dez shut up!" Austin shouts.

"As much as I would love to stand here and continue this conversation about how much we're sorry and can we all just get along, but unfortunately I can't. Ally and I have to go home and get ready." Trish explains, a bit rudely.

"Okay, you don't have to be rude about it." Austin says.

"Yeah Trish, ever since you've been going out with Trent you've been nothing but rude to us." Dez says.

"I haven't, and Trent hasn't changed me either." She says.

"Okay, whatever, who cares? See you tonight Ally." Austin says walking away.

"See you guys later!" I shout.

"Let's get out of here." Trish says.

Austin POV

"Can you believe Trish and her attitude? It makes me mad just thinking about it." Dez complains.

"Why do you care? It's Trish." I ask.

"I don't know. I guess I miss the told Trish."

"Trust me, that's hasn't change."

Ring, ring, ring!

"Who keeps calling you like that?" Dez asks.

"Just Cassidy I bet. She wants us to get back together."

"Dude, that girl doesn't give up into she has her way."

"Tell me about it. I've been ducking and dodging her ever since we broke up." I say changing my shit.

"Austin!" Some body called from outside my window.

"Who is that?" I ask Dez.

"I don't know." He replies shrugging his shoulders.

"Austin! I know you hear me!" The person shouts once again.

I looked out my window to see who it was and it was no other then Cassidy herself. "What are you doing here?" I ask.

"Can you come downstairs so we could talk?!" Cassidy shouts.

"Cassidy it's over! I want nothing else to do with you!"

"I know and I'm sorry! Can you please come downstairs?!"

I roll my eyes, "I'll be down there in a second!"

"Wait your actually going downstairs to meet her? I don't think Darcy would like her in this house." Dez explains.

"I got this Dez. Be right back." I say running down stairs and opening the front door. "What do you want Cassidy? You got 3 minutes."

"Can a girl come in first?" She asks trying to make her way in.

"No, I don't think that's a good idea. You're not welcome in this house anymore."

"Geez Austin, give me a break. Ever since you got hit by those water balloons you've been tripping."

"I've been tripping? No, I got hit with shit and you made fun of me."

"I apologize okay. You can't stay mad at me forever."

"I'm not mad." She stares at me, not believing a word I just said. "Okay, so maybe I'm still mad. But that doesn't change the fact that I don't want anything else to do with you."

"Maybe this will change your mind." She says kissing me hard on the lips.

"What the heck! Why is she here Austin?" Darcy asks.

I push Cassidy away. "Darcy, it's not what you think."

"I thought you said you were trying to get rid of her, not kiss her?" Dez asks.

"Austin can never get rid of me. He loves me too much." Cassidy smirks.

I glare at her, "What! That is not true. I told you already Cassidy. I want nothing else to do with you."

"Austin, she got to the count of three to get away from my house before I beat her down." Darcy says.

"Can you please go Cassidy?" I ask nicely.

"No! Because she not going to do anything." Cassidy says switching her head side to side.

Darcy sighs, "Ok, 1…2…3!"

"Darcy please, she not worth it." Dez says.

Darcy walks up to Cassidy and slaps her hard across the face. "You bitch!" Cassidy yells, holding her red cheek. That's when Cassidy tries to attack Darcy. Although, she didn't get very far because I pushed her out the door and slam it on her face.

Knock, knock! "You won't get away with this Darcy!" Cassidy screams.

"Thanks Austin, but I could've handled that slut myself." Darcy says.

"It a waste of time okay." I say.

"You may be right but it still felt good to slap that bitch across the face."

Dez laughs, "This is why I love your sister."

"I love you too Dez."

I shake my head and chuckle. "You guys are awesome."

"You're awesome to bro. Now go upstairs and finish getting ready." Darcy says.

Ally POV

"How do I look Trish?" I ask twirling around in my flared pink dress.

"You look fantastic Ally. Now what about me?" she asks twirling around also.

"You look beautiful." I reply with a smile on my face.

"Thank you, I was going for that." She says.

Beep, Beep!

"Who's that in front of my house?" I ask her.

"Oh that's just Trent and Dallas here to pick us up."

"What! Trish, I was going to drive us in my father car. Why would you tell them to meet us here? You know they're not invited."

"They know that. Dallas and Trent wanted to make sure we get there safe."

"For your information, I don't need a babysitter. I could take care of myself."

"Oh Ally, don't be such a baby about this. It's only a ride."

I shake my head, "Whatever, let's just go." I say grabbing my purse and walking outside

"Hey girl, you guys look really nice tonight." Dallas says.

"Why thank you Dallas." Trish says.

"Yes thank you." I reply.

"Don't have too much fun tonight. I don't want to have to come up in there and beat somebody up." Trent says.

I snort.

"Please Trent there will be none of that tonight." Trish says.

"I hope not." He smirks.

"Ally, what are you doing tomorrow?" Dallas asks.

"I work in the afternoon. Why?"

"I was wondering if you and I could maybe go out for breakfast or something? Whatever works best for you?" Dallas asks.

"Geez, I don't know Dallas. I might be really busy tomorrow." I reply.

"Oh really? Well if you change your mind then call me." he says.

"I will." I say.

"Where here ladies." Trent says.

"Thanks for driving us Dallas." Trish says.

"Yeah, thanks." I say with a smile.

"No problem." Dallas smiles back.

"Remember try not to have too much fun." Trent says.

"We won't babe. Bye." Trish waves. They drove off.

"That was one of the most awkward moments of my life." I say walking inside the house.

"You act like we haven't been hanging out with them for last 3 months." Trish says. "There's Austin."

"I'm so glad you guys made it. I'm about to perform." Austin says.

"Okay." I smile.

"Hi everybody, I'm Austin Moon and I'm about to preform my new hit song written by my partner Ally Dawson. It's called Breaking down the Walls."

Wa-oh! Yeah!

Stop, hiding out in the shadows

Scared to show the world you exist

Don't, Lock yourself in the darkness

The world is so much brighter than this

Yeah, if you never take a shot

You're never gonna win

So turn it all around

And break down the walls, whoa

Don't be afraid to let them fall
Break down the walls
Whoa
And you can dare to have it all
Come on and give it everything you can
Take a chance, make a stand and break, break, break down the walls
B-b-b-break down the walls, yeah

Change

You can fight it inside

Then don't have the strength that it takes

Oh and truth

You can twist and resist it

Or finally look it straight in the face

'Cause if you never take a shock, you're never gonna win

So find a way somehow

To break down the walls, whoa
Don't be afraid to let them fall
Break down the walls, whoa
And you can dare to have it all
Come on and give it everything you can
Take a chance, make a stand and break, break, break down the walls

Go on and watch them tumble down

Feel all the doubt

Just crumble out

And let the light come pouring in

Just break down the walls, whoa
Don't be afraid to let them fall
Break down the walls, whoa
And you can dare to have it all
Come on and give it everything you can
Take a chance, make a stand, and break, break, break down the walls, whoa
Break down the walls, whoa
Break down the walls, whoa
Come on and take a chance, make a stand and break, break, break down the walls!

Everybody applaud in excitement and Austin took a bow. I was so happy to see Austin doing good for himself. I also hope he stopped doing the drugs, but let's not get into that.

"Ally, you came!" Darcy says hugging me. "What do you think of my party so far?"

"You did a really good job Darcy. Nobody knows how to throw a party better then you do." I tell her.

"Thank you." Darcy says.

"And me." Austin says putting his arm around my shoulder. "Thanks to you, people are starting to notice me again and I have "you" to thanks for that."

"It was nothing." I blush.

"Come on Darcy. They're playing beer pong." Dez says pulling her away.

"Okay! Be right back Ally!" Darcy shouts.

"I'm going to have a drink and mingle. Later." Trish says leaving too.

"Do you want something to drink?" Austin asks me.

"That would be nice."

"By the way, you look amazing in that dress tonight."

"Thank you."

"What would you like to drink?"

"I don't drink beer, so I guess a soda will be fine."

"That's fine with me." He says passing me a soda and taking one for himself.

"You're not going to drink a beer?" I ask.

"No, because I'm with you."

"AWWW, Oh sweet." I say hitting him playfully on the shoulder.

"It's pretty loud down here. You want to go upstairs and talk?" Austin asks.

"Yeah, let's go." When we got up to his room, Austin closes the door behind us and we sat on his bed. "So what did you want to talk about?"

"I'd wanted to tell you how sorry I was for calling you stupid. I didn't mean what I said. I was mad that you choice Dallas over Me." he explains.

"Oh Austin. I'm –"

"I'm not finish. You've been a great friend to me Ally. Your better than that you're awesome. I have never met anybody that can make me feel like you do. You're smart, kind, organized and fascinating. All those things I'm not. I would've never thought in a million years I'll fall for a girl like you, because we're complete different. Surprisingly my thoughts were wrong and you're everything I wanted in a girlfriend. What I'm trying to say is I'm falling in love you more everyday I'm with you, and I know this may be too soon to say this but I couldn't hold it back anymore."

I grin, "Falling in love with somebody can never be too soon Austin, because I'm falling in love with you too."

"You are?"

I nod, "Yes, I am. Why do you think I'm not going out with Dallas? My heart already belongs to somebody else and that somebody else is you."

Austin smiles, "I'm so glad to hear you say that." He says kissing me on the lips.

We fall back on his bed making out like there was no tomorrow. I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him on top of me. Unfortunately that wasn't enough for me. I wanted more. In fact I wanted all of him. I was about to lose my virginity to the person I love, and nobody was going to stop me.

"Ally!" Austin says gasping for air. "What are we doing?"

"What do you think I'm doing?" I reply. I started to unbutton his shirt.

"Are you sure about this?" he asks.

"Of course I'm sure. Now more lip and least talking." I reply kissing him gently.

He trails kisses down my neck as I moan out in pleasure. I never felt so many chills in my life, and if he continues on with this I might end up ripping off all his clothes myself.

"Austin take everything off." I moan out.

"Okay." He says

He takes off his shirt and jeans, than throws them to the side. Wearing nothing else but his boxers.

"Austin, can you help me unzip my dress?" I ask turning around.

"Yea. "Austin replies. He unzips my dress and slowly beings the straps down my shoulders showing off my skin. "You feel really nice Ally."

"Thank you." I say taking my dress completely off. I was in nothing else but my lace pink bra and panties now. Austin stares in amazement.

"Wow, that's a nice pair of bra and panties you got there." He stutters.

"It would be even more nice if you helped me take them off." I say bitten my lip.

Austin takes a deep breath before un-clipping my bra. I lay down on his bed, now showing off my perky breast. He stares with wide eyes.

"Are you going to just stand there or are you going to help me take off my panties too?" I ask.

Austin didn't reply. He grabs the fabric of my panties and slowly takes them down.

"Why do you keep staring?" I ask.

"Because your body beautiful."

I blushed when he said that. Finally Austin takes off his boxers showing off his 8 inch penis. The only other penis I've ever seen before his was my ex-boyfriend's, and Austin was definitely above average.

"You ready?" Austin asks crawling on top of me.

"Yeah." I reply. "Can you put the blanket over us first? I'm a little cold."

"I got you." He says putting the blanket over us. "Now this is going to hurt at first."

"I know." I say taking a deep breath

Austin didn't waste any more time, he gently hit my hymen and pulls out again. Every time he would do this it would only add more pressure making me cringe in pain. Then finally, he breaks through my hymen.

"AHHH!" I cry out in pain. I was trying to pull away at first but Austin pulled me closer to him. Assuring me that everything was going to be alright.

He continues to thrust inside of me slowly for the next five minutes. During that time, pain turn into pleasure. So I wrap my arms around his waist digging my nails into his back.

"Oh Austin!" I moan out.

"I'm still hurting you?" he asks.

"No, it feels so good. Faster." I say kissing him hard on the lips.

He continues to thrust inside me and this time it was a lot faster. With each thrust I can feel myself beginning to cum. He must've felt it too because he started to thrust deep inside of me almost hitting my cervix.

"You're so tight." Austin groans.

"OH!" I cry out in ecstasy.

Finally I came. Austin felt my pussy throb on his cock because he also cried out in ecstasy.

"OH GOD! I'm about to cum!" He cries out.

With one last thrust he came deep inside me releasing his offspring. Then he pulls himself out and lies down on the bed beside me.

"How was I?" Austin asks breathing in a heavy pace.

"I'm a little sore, but it was worth it." I reply.

"Ally." He says looking at me.

"Yes." I say looking at him back.

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"I thought you would never ask." I say kissing him.

"Do you think we should keep us a secret for now?"

"Yeah, when the time is right we'll let everybody know about us."

"Great idea." He says pulling me into his arms.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you even more." He murmurs.

A/N: That's it for this chapter. More to come next week. Please review and let me know what guys think. See ya!