Dancing with a Demon Fox
Chapter 2: I love him...I love him not...
If Sasuke had thought the walk back to the village was bad, he was in for hell once he got to the village. After stepping into the village, he was bombarded by hundreds of small gennin girls.
"SASUKE-KUN!! Are you ok? Did Naruto hurt you?!" The asked in unison. Sasuke tried to pull away from them.
"See...fangirls.." Naruto said sadly. He jumped up onto the roof tops and raced towards his home.
"Naruto!!" He yelled after him, but the young blond didn't turn. The girls inched in closer, cutting off his view. They all seemed to be firing off questions at him. He felt his heart beat increase and stared at them in annoyance. 'I just want to follow Naruto...' He thought desperately. 'No you don't! Who cares what the little dobe thinks!' He thought back at himself. His head began to pound. "GET OFF!!" He said loudly and shoved away from the girls. He stumbled slightly and started walking towards his home, messaging his temples.
'I don't get it...do I love him...or is it just..lust? As Orochimaru-teme put it. I..I don't get this...how can I love him?' Sasuke thought as he closed the door. He walked into his room and closed the door, sitting on his bed. 'How could you even think about this!? You know yourself like the back of your hand. Of course you don't love him. Because you can't love. You can only hate. He's a connection. You must BREAK connections in order to become strong.' He thought savagely and frowned. But...he didn't want to leave Naruto again...and he didn't want to hurt him.
"Mom...dad...help..." He muttered as he laid down and closed his eyes, drifting off into a fitful sleep.
Naruto wasn't sure what to think. He looked up at the moon and felt a tear fall down his face.
A lot of things had changed for Naruto while he was away for home for those three years. It had given him time to think and he had realized two things.
One, he was most definitely bisexual. Surprisingly, this fact didn't bother him as much as it seemed to others. 'Then again, I guess it helps that I don't have parents to be disappointed in me...' Naruto thought sourly.
Two, he was irrevocably and most assuredly in love with Sasuke Uchiha. This was the fact that bothered him. Naruto felt that, rightfully, he should hate Sasuke, with every ounce in his body. He sighed and shook his mind to clear the painful thoughts. Quietly, the blond nin went to his window and leapt into the crisp night air.
At first Naruto wasn't sure where he was going. The cold air filled his lungs and made his hair stand on end. Finally he realized where he was...when he found himself right outside Sasuke's window. It was open wide and Naruto could hear soft breathing from within the room. He was about to turn and leave when he heard a soft mummer. 'I should just turn and leave now...' He thought. But he found himself inching closer.
"Naruto-kun...unnn...hnnn.." Sasuke moaned. "N-naruto!" This time it was a shuddering gasp. The blond looked in, quite startled. Then he spotted the slight rise in the sheets just below Sasuke's stomach. 'Oh..my..' He thought, his face turning a deep red. "Naruto...do that again.." Sasuke groaned softly. Naruto squeaked and jumped away from the window. 'Oh...my...god...oh...my...' he thought as he ran away.
Sasuke bolted upright at the sound of someone squeaking followed by a soft thud and the sound of footsteps. Sweat plastered his white night shirt to his back and he could feel the throbbing erection between his legs. 'Oh god...it's worse than I thought...' He moaned in his head. Sasuke rubbed his eyes and looked out his window. Now one was on the street and a quick glance at the clock confirmed his guess. It was only 1 in the morning. He sighed and walked into the bathroom.
Sasuke ran some cold water and splash it onto his face. He glanced up at the mirror. His hair was in disarray, sticking out every which way. His face was hot and and red, almost like he had been running. 'Yeah..running to Naruto-san's bed in your dream...' He thought sarcastically. He sighed again and dried his face. 'Not gonna be able to sleep now...might as well eat something...' He thought, annoyed. He pulled on his clothes and walked out to his kitchen.
After a few minutes of rummaging through his cabinets produced nothing. Sasuke sighed. 'Ichiraku it is then I guess..' he stepped out onto the street. It was too early for most people, but as he passed the training fields, he saw a few gennin and chuunin out training. He chuckled and kept going.
The ramen stand was almost empty. A few half-asleep shinobi sat there, staring at their ramen. Sasuke smirked and sat down, ordering a simple beef ramen and a house tea. As his order was being prepared, he looked around, remembering how much Naruto liked this place. 'I'm surprised he's not here now...' He chuckled in his head and turned to see his food being served. He thanked the waitress and picked up his chopsticks and began to eat.
Thirty minutes later, Sasuke placed his chopsticks down next to his empty bowl and downed the last of his tea. 'Well...that didn't waste as much time as I was hoping it would...' He sighed and paid for the food. 'At least I feel a bit better though...' Sasuke patted his full stomach. He wandered down the street a bit, bored out of his skull. The sky was turning a light grey-ish pink. He looked at the shops that were just opening. 'I wonder if Naruto's up...' His thoughts drifted to what Naruto looked like asleep. Or what he would look like, curled up in Sasuke's own bed...
'NO!' Sasuke roared to himself. He banished the thoughts from his mind and started walking towards the training grounds. 'Morning exercises should get my mid off him..' he thought as he opened the door to training ground 16. He walked towards the center where three dummies. He shifted into his relaxed fighting stance. "One...two...three.." He mumbled softly. Then he summoned three clones. "..four...five...six...". The clones began to attack him from every angle. He activated his sharingan and dodged and fought back easily. Every time a clone fell, he summoned another.
This went on for almost four hours, Sasuke dodging and parrying endless attacks. Finally he dropped the jutsu, all the clones disappearing. He was drenched in sweat, though he didn't feel the least bit chakra depleted. He wiped beads of perspiration away from his eyes. Suddenly he was aware he had gained an audience. Looking around, he spotted Naruto sitting in a tree not far from him, watching. His gaze was intent. When Naruto noticed Sasuke looking at him, he flushed and turned away.
Sasuke hopped up into the tree and sat on the branch in front of Naruto. The blond boy was sitting with his back leaning on the tree trunk. One leg was pulled up, arched slightly while the other lay lazily over the side. Some how, with the light shining down through the trees and the wind tussling his hair, Naruto...looked...amazing. Sasuke looked at him intently, barely resisting the urge to reach out and caress the boys cheek.
"Wh-why are you here, Naruto?" Sasuke asked, finally finding his voice. Naruto turned to look at him.
"It's a free world...I can do what I want, Sasuke..." Naruto said defiantly. Sasuke smirked.
"I suppose you can." Sasuke chuckled. Naruto looked side ways and they sat in silence again until..
"Sasuke...what did you feel when you left?" Naruto asked, still not looking at him. "Like..about me..and Sakura.." Sasuke was surprised by Naruto's sudden curiosity. He cocked an eyebrow and looked at Naruto.
"And why should I tell you, dobe?"
"Sasuke..I'm serious.." Naruto said softly.
"So am I. Why should I tell you anything?" Sasuke said loudly. Naruto looked at him finally.
"You really don't pay attention to anyone but yourself, do you?! All you see is your power, your goal! You don't even care about other peoples feelings!" He was on the verge of tears. The pressure on his heart was building, after to keep this a secret for so long. Sasuke stared at him, stunned. He'd never seen Naruto so worked up.
"It isn't just a goal. It's a reality." Sasuke spat.
"I DON'T CARE WHAT IT IS!! That's all you see! Is that you have to kill Itachi. And you know what? I say it's making you weak. Itachi is winning. He's ruining your life without even having to do ANYthing! I mean, after you kill him, then what? Hmm? What will you do? Just wander the Earth, alone? Because your insane obsession has driven everyone away from you?" Naruto looked at him. Sasuke was silent. He had never thought of 'after'. And he realized now...that was a BIG mistake. He always had prided in being a genius... and now...he was making one of the most common mistakes in the book!
"I..I.." He stammered.
"That's what I thought." Naruto said, tears forming in his eyes. He turned away again and Sasuke jumped down from the branch. He felt numb, as he walked towards his apartment. Naruto was right...he was blind to everything. To other peoples feelings. But..why was Naruto so upset about this? It didn't make any sense.
Either way...he had pointed something out to Sasuke...like he always did. And that's when it hit him. That's why he loved being around Naruto...that's why he loved him. Because Naruto was so...gentle. He cared enough to show Sasuke his short comings...almost helping him. He was everything Sasuke lacked...his missing piece. He stood now, outside the door to his home, his hand resting on the knob. 'But...what if Naruto doesn't feel the same? Have I come all this way...finally admitted my feelings..changing..for nothing?' He thought worriedly. He entered his house, throughly emotionally exhausted. How would he deal with Naruto?