Dancing with a Demon Fox
Chapter three: Secrets reveled, Love discovered
Warning: This chapter contains mature material.
For weeks, Sasuke avoided Naruto and the others. He stayed locked in his room, contemplating what he was going to do about Naruto. He tortured himself with constant questioning and self destruction. Often times, he would wake up with a painful erection and Naruto's name on his lips. It was getting bad. Naruto filled his every thought. Even training was hard. He couldn't look at Sakura at all. The one time he had spoken to her, she told him Naruto had been looking for him. She said the blond boy had been crying.
'How could I have done this to Naruto-kun?! How can I face him after this...he probobly hates me..' Sasuke thought desperatly. He was sitting infront of his window, staring as the rain pelted the street outside. He leaned his head against the cold window pane and stared up at the dreary grey sky. 'I'm too scared...I don't want to face him...and be rejected. Though I deserve it. But...I can't live like this, hiding from him...dealing with those dreams.It's tearing me up...I'm going to go insane!' he thought, gripping his head. He let out a slow breath and leaned his head against the glass again.
Suddenly, movement from outside caught his eye. He wiped at the fog on the window and looked again. Naruto was stumbling down the muddy road. His hair was stuck to his face and he was in nothing but his white t-shirt and what appeared to be boxers. He tripped o something and went sprawling in the mud. Sasuke stared in open mouth horror. 'N-naruto?! What have I done!!??' He ran towards the door, but froze as he touched the knob. 'What if he doesn't want your help? Do you really want to risk exposing yourself and find out it was for nothing?!...but..if I don't go..Naruto could be hurt...' Sasuke thought for a second more thn flew out the door.
Naruto was in the same position as before. His ragged sobs could be heard over the rain. Sasuke ran over and knelt before the young man. He pulled Naruto off the ground and into his arms. The blond boy clung to him, tears streaking down his mud covered face, almost invisible cause of the rain. Sasuke tried to comfort him, whiping the mud aya with his hands. The rain quickly soaked him through and flattened his hair. Naruto's body shook violently as sobs wracked his slender frame.
"I..I'm sorry Sasuke-kun! I..I didn't mean it...any of it. You may have been distant, but you were always there...And I always believed in you, not matter how much I never showed it!" Naruto cried. Sasuke stared down at him. Rain stuck the white t-shirt to his body, revealing a hard and toned chest. He knew his boxers would be the same, but didn't dare look down. Rain drops hung on Naruto's dark, thick eyelashes. His cheeks were flushed from the cold. It reminded Sasuke of his dream, and he felt an erection growing in his pants. He stared at Naruto's soft lips, wanting so badly to capture them in a kiss, to hear them murmur his name softly. "I..I just have felt so bad lately. I..I've been hiding something for so long...just...well..I LOVE YOU!! And I was scared that you were goig to hate me and that you were never going to look at me again and then you left and... and...a-"
Sasuke cut him off, catching Naruto's pale pink lips in a soft kiss. Colors exploded in Sasuke's mind as the feel of soft velvety lips against his own caused his erection to throb painfully. His hand came up and brushed some hair away from Naruto's face tenderly and caress his rain slick cheek. The blonde's eyes widened in shock as Sasuke held the kiss for a moment longer and drew back.
"S-sasuke...kun..." Naruto stammered, shocked. Sasuke put a finger to his lips to silence him.
"Naruto...ever since I returned...I've been feeling strange around you. And..now I know what it is. I want you Naruto..physically..emotionally...every way I can.." Sasuke said, lustily. Naruto flsuhed.
"I..I want you too Sasuke...so bad...I'll do anything you want.." He said softly. Sasuke didn't pause for a second thought. Lust took him over as he picked Naruto up and brought him inside. Naruto still clung to his shirt desprately, shaking violently. He walked straight into his bedroom and closed the door. Laying Naruto against the bed, he leaned in and kissed him again, pushing his tongue through Naruto's hesitant lips. The blond moaned into his mouth as Sasuke's hands began to pull off Naruto's soaked shirt. His hands played over Naruto's nipples, awarding him a soft moan. He trailed his kisses down to Naruto's shoulders as he pulled off his own shirt.
"Sasuke-kun..." Naruto whimpered as Sasuke paused for a second. "I...I want to know that there will be more to this...than...than just lust.." he said softly. Sasuke ignored this and kissed his stomach. he unbuttoned his pants (Though Naruto was not wearing pants, his boxers had buttons). "Sasuke! Sasuke! Answer me! Dammit!" Naruto said loudly,his defiance returning. He pushed Sasuke off, sending the Uchiha crashing back into a wall. He looked around frantically and pulled on his shirt, stealing a pair of Sasuke's pants and pulling them on too. He didn't bother buttoning them. He ran out of the room and out into the rain, tears threatening to fall again.
"N-naruto! Naruto wait!" Sasuke ran to the door and stared down the rain choked lane. But Naruto was gone. "Ksa..." He growled. 'Way to go, Sasuke you baka...I should have answered him as soon as he asked...' He went back inside and sat on his bed. He laid on his bed, not bothering to cover himself and fell into a light sleep.
Dream...
Sasuke was running. His breathing was wild. He could see Naruto running up ahead, as fast as he could. Everything around them was black. Only the sound of tier echoing foot steps could be heard.
"Naruto!" He called. He sped up and closed the distance between himself and the blond. He grabbed the boys arm, and spun him around to face him. "What are you running from?" Nauto looked at him, terrified. Sasuke turned and stared into a mirror. But it wasn't his face that stared back. Itachi's cold red eyes regarded him.
"Your just like me, Nisan. Cold...distant. Willng to do ANYthing to get what you want." Itachi's face laughed.
"NOOO!!" Sasuke howled and sank down to his knees. Naruto ran away. "Naruto! Naruto come back!" He called. But Naruto's orange blazer faded from veiw and Sasuke was alone.
"Just like me...just like me.." Itachi's voice laughed. "Just like me...just like me..."
Sasuke jolted upright in bed. The sheets tangled around him and his hair was matted to his head. Bright sunlight filtered in through his window and shined on his face. He squinted and looked around, confused at his undressed state. Suddenly, the nights events came back to him in a blur.
"Oh no...I have to find Naruto...I..I have..." He stood quickly and searched for a shirt. He finally found one and began to pull it on. He stumbled out into the hallway, the shirt half over his head. He grabbed his sandals and shoved them on roughly. Running a hand through his hair, Sasuke stumbled out onto the street. People stared at him as he stumbling numbly down the street. Fatigue weighed his limbs down, but he kept running, searching for a hint of his blond crush.
"Sasuke?!" A familiar voice called out. Sasuke stopped and turned to see Shikamaru Nara walking up to him, a slightly concerned look on his face. "What's going on?" Sasuke stared at him for a second.
"Have you seen Naruto?" He asked finally, looking around.
"No..uhh..look..let me buy you a drink. You look like you could use one." he took Sasuke's arm, but e shook him off.
"No..I need to find Naruto..."
"Look...in the state your in, you'll never find him. You won't be able to think straight. A sake will help clear your mind..." Shikamaru pulled him towards the bar. "Besides..everyones staring..." He glanced around. Sasuke let himself be pulled through the door. He sat on a stool and soon found a warm sake being shoved into his hands. He sipped it grate fully. It tasted sour at first, but as he sipped more, the warmth spread through his body, waking him up.
"Here." Shikamaru shoved a pate of dumplings at him and Sasuke realized how starving he was. He began shoving them in his mouth, followed by sips of sake. Once his plate was clear and his glass was empty, Sasuke sat back, fully awake. Sasuke sat back and looked at himself.
Sasuke's hair was wild and disheveled. His clothing was wild and was still covered in mud from the previous night. He looked like a mad man. 'No wonder Shikamaru was worried..' He thought. He tried to smooth his hair down with his hair, but gave up with a disgruntled sigh. Sasuke pulled his shirt straight and used a napkin to wipe his face.
Shikamaru came back over and sat down wit a sigh. He stared at Sasuke with a measuring look.
"What?" Sasuke grumbled.
"Why were you out there? Why are you looking for Naruto?"
"I screwed up..." He groaned. He held his head in his hands.
"Wanna talk?" he asked, not sounding acctually interested. Sasuke looked at him. Why couldn't he tell Shikamaru? After he's been keeping the secret about him and that sand girl? And he'd be too lazy to tell anyone anyways. He sighed and ordered another sake. Shikamaru raised an eyebrow.
"I'm gonna need it to help tell the story.." He sighed and drank up. Sasuke sat up and prepared to completely spill his guts for the first time in years.