A/N: This is what you voted for! This story is approaching it's ending, however, the next couple of chapters will be the most important. This one is important too, so enjoy it!

Disclaimer: iCarly is the property of the brilliant Dan Schneider.

Chapter 9: Hold Onto The Memories

March 3rd

It's been two days since I told the fans. Freddie told me that the comments have been supportive with the exception of the Creddie fan with a bad attitude. I'm really glad they understand. I've received several gift baskets and get well cards from people all over the nation. It's amazing how the fans have responded.

Also, this is my last week being single. Freddie and I are tying the knot next week. I'm excited, but part of me hopes that I can make it that long. I'm not sure how long I have. My ultimate goal is to live long enough to marry him.

Sam

"Bridesmaids, check," Carly was talking to herself. She had been really into the whole "wedding planner" thing. The checklist she held in her hand was so long that it reached the floor, "Freddie's tux, check," This was more entertaining than anything they had on TV at the hospital, "Chicken wings...wait, I didn't put that on the list...?"

"Sorry, that was me," I interjected, my smile wide. Carly put the list down and faced me.

"What's so funny?" She curiously asked. My smile softened as I spoke, "You! With your checklist and your conversations with yourself."

"I want this wedding to be perfect, okay? Don't judge me!" I smiled again, but pondered a question in my mind. Why was it so important to her? I mean, of course she'd want me to have a nice wedding, but I could read her like a book. It was something deeper.

"Why? It doesn't have to be perfect," I explained. Her face relaxed, making me notice that she had been tense since she walked in an hour before. She looked at the floor, thinking about how to respond.

"Do you remember that time that I almost got beat up by those mean sixth graders?" That was ages ago. Carly and I were both in fifth grade when some tough kids tried to beat her up. Of course, I interjected before they could do anything. Why did it matter? I simply nodded and she continued, "Well, you helped me. And...I wish I could've helped you."

"Wh-?" I started, wondering what exactly she was referring to.

"You got sick!" Her face made me want to cry. I shook my head, hoping that she'd stop, "I can't fix it! You could if it was me, but I can't! You know how awful that feels? You're my best friend and I'm gonna lose you!"

My face started to turn red, as I held so many tears in.

"This is my pathetic attempt at making everything you've done for me," She finished. She was full-on crying and I hugged her. My tears rushed out of my eyes like a waterfall as I tried to comfort her.

I couldn't believe she felt this way. It could never be her fault; nothing could've stopped it from coming.

"Just by being here," I said in a lower tone over her shoulder, "you've already made it up."

"I'll miss you," I let go of her.

"I'm not leaving! I'm staying here!" I exploded. She looked shaken, but nodded. She knew that I'd find a way.

My face relaxed when I said, "Now, go back to your checklist." She chuckled a bit and then picked up the list once more.

"Fried chicken..." She said, "I'll get on that." She walked out and I shook my head at her. I always loved how she could pick herself back up, "GIBBY!" Carly screamed, "I'M GONNA NEED YOU TO GET ME A CHICKEN!" I laughed at this unexplainable scene. Ever since she's taken over the wedding, she's been tense, but I could see that she really did enjoy planning it.

Freddie walked in...in a doctor's uniform, "Why are you wearing that?"

"This is the only way I could get in to see you," He kissed me and then held my hand, "They're busy admitting someone, and they said they'll speak with me in an hour, but visiting hours are over soon, so..." I nodded.

"Are you ready?" My smile reappeared on my face as I said that.

"For what?" He questioned.

"Our wedding?" My face was beaming with excitement. My number one was coming true.

His goofy smile was one of my favorite things about him, "I've been ready since I met you, I just didn't known it until recently."

He laid down next to me and we faced each other, "You know what the best part about this is?" He gestured for me to go on, "Even if I go, my number one came true."

"So will mine," he kissed me once more and he smiled. In his arms, I fell asleep.

The next day, I set up a video camera in my room at about seven in the morning. I woke up early to make a video. It was for everyone, just in case...well, you know.

It took a second, but I finally turned it on.

"If you're seeing this," I gulped, and tried to hold back tears that I knew were coming, "I didn't make it. You know how much I wanted to pull through, but sometimes it just doesn't work that way. I want you all to know that I'll miss you. Carly, you're my sister. You planned my dream wedding, and I will never be able to repay you. You've always had my back, and I'm sorry I can't be around anymore to do the same for you. Thank you for being there; I love you sis. Spencer, take care of her. She'll need you," This was way harder than I thought. Talking to Carly was hard enough, I imagined what it'd be like once I got to Freddie.

"Gibby, look after Freddie for me," Mentioning his name was hard, knowing that, if he watched this, I'd be dead, "iCarly fans, if they show this to you, thanks for watching. Hopefully, even though I'm gone, they'll still find a way to continue on without me," The big one was coming up. This was too hard, too much, but I had to do it.

"Freddie, I love you. The last couple of months have been hard, but I'm so glad I got to be with you until I went. There's only one thing I wish for you. Don't forget what we had, but it's okay," I let a tear fall, "to move on and find love again. I love all of you. Thanks for everything," I thought of what else to say, "Don't miss me too much, we'll see each other again, I promise," My final word, "Goodbye."

The camera clicked as I turned it off. As I wiped tears away, I thought of the wedding. My one thing that had to happen before...I died. There only was one thing left to do.

Wait until March 10th...

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