disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade, OR Alice in wonderland, if i did it would be amazing though! XD Anything in this story was made up by me, if anything is like an event that happen is pure coincidence!

So guys XD it's your favorite friend and writer Your shadow Kira! :3 formally known as Kirashadow! ^^

This is the next chapter to down the rabbit hole and I have to say :3 this is one of my fav yet! ^^

This will explain a little bit of Kira, and also give you a inside on one of Kira's missions! And guess who's the target this time! If you read chapter 3 you'd know!

Anyways :3 I hope you enjoy and I do wish and beg you to review! XD I'd love to see what you guys think! :3 I also don't mind guest accounts putting reviews :3 I just need feed back!

Won't you come down the rabbit hole with me?!

Chapter 4 Breaking and forgotten

Kira sat in front of a screen, reading the information that Sakuno got for her new mission.

Target: Tala Valkov

Age: 20

Rank: The Red knight

Plan: The Red Knight usual stayed at home, when he had no mission, with his friends that lived with him. It'll be difficult to try and make it out without being detected, so Sakuno will be on stand-by and will be ready to be decoy while you get away. Tala usually heads to bed by 11:30 pm, and his room is located on the 2nd floor on the far right. Try to make it look interesting and you know to leave messages for the Wonderland Organization.

Kira sighed as she read the file for the sixth time today and looked over at the blue prints that went with it, always feeling nervous before a mission. She brushed her bangs away from the front of her face as she tried to calm her nerves.

'There will be by-standers… They'll probably find the body first…' she thought, worried, since most of the people she killed so far lived alone, and were found before anyone other than anyone that wasn't in the Organization could see what she had done.

"It's okay, Alice. They all deserve it. Everyone you've killed were bad people" came a voice to in her head. Kira groaned as she placed her hands to her ears trying to cover the sound. "No! Go away! I won't listen to you!" Kira cried out as she

"But I'm you, Alice. You and I are one. I'm the only one that you can trust!" the voice cried out, causing Kira to close her eyes shut, and press her hands harder against her ears. "We are one, but I will never trust you, so go away!" Kira cried out as she then slammed her hand on the table in front of her, panting, as her blood was pumping.

"She's talking to you again, isn't she…" came Ayame's voice behind Kira. Kira quickly turned around to show that her eyes went bloodshot and were beginning to tear up. Ayame looked at Kira, worried for her best friend, as she walked up to her and placed a hand on her shoulder.

Kira sighed as she started calming down and brushed a hand into her bangs. "Yea… she's been talking to me more ever since we came back to this place…" Kira said softly as she placed a hand on Ayame's. "But I'll be fine… I won't let her get in my way."

Ayame looked down at her friend, worriedly; since they came back, she hadn't been the same. "Do you want to rest tonight?" Ayame suggested as she took Kira's hands in hers, trying to urge her to do as suggested.

Kira shook her head as she looked at Ayame, hating the look she gave her when she was worried. "I'm fine. We have to keep on schedule or headquarters will be angry." She said as she looked away and back at the computer screen.

"I don't care about headquarters, Kira. You've been working non-stop, and I know you don't want to kill!" Ayame said as she kept watching her friend. Kira kept looking at the screen, not wanting to show Ayame the pain in her eyes when she mentioned killing again.

"It can't be helped, Ayame. I was raised to do this. I was raised to be a killer," Kira said with an emotionless tone, trying to hide the pain. "Besides… I have no other life style than to kill….."

Ayame put a hand on her best friend's shoulder. "You maybe have been raised as a killer, Kira, but you're not one," Ayame said, softly, trying to reassure her friend. "You're a kind girl who's stuck doing a dirty job."

Kira took what Ayame said to heart. She hated thinking she was a killer. "Alice, you know that's a lie. You were raised as a killer and will always be a killer." The voice said inside her head.

Kira slammed her fist on the table, startling Ayame, making her back up away from Kira. "Get out of my head!" Kira cried out as tears started welling up on the side of her eyes. "I know that! I know I'm a killer!"

Kira sobbed as the tears flowed down her face as she sunk to the floor on her knees. "I know…I know I'll always be a killer…" Kira whispered as she closed her eyes. Ayame walked forward and placed a hand on Kira's shoulder, but Kira shrugged it off lightly.

"It's okay Ayame… I just have to accept it… there is no other way for me…" Kira said as she got up and wiped away her tears away before she turned around. "I better head out. It's almost time." Kira's eyes started changing colors, turning bright blood red, as she grabbed a mask off the table and started heading out the door.

Ayame sighs as she stood where she was standing, watching her best friend leave, thinking, 'Why can't you just go back to the old you Kira… you were always so strong…'

Kira sat on a roof top, across from the house she was about to enter to get to the Red Knight, and saw that it was a pretty big place. She could see from the window that Tala and his roommates were hanging out, lounging in the living room.

"It's time." She said as she put on her mask, which had the face of what looked like a women with a red heart painted over the right eyes and blood red lips, and let herself fall forward from the roof she was on.

As she came close to the ground, she flipped and landed without any problems, with only a light circle of dust was around her.

Then, she quickly ran forward and hid against the walls of Tala's place, slowly getting to the back where his room should be. As she came under the window she was to go through, she looked up and disappeared, only to reappear at his window, opened and already climbed in.

Kira walked over to his huge closet and hid there in the closet til he would head to bed. Tala had started heading to his room not long after Kira hid, which was the time that Sakuno had given her.

Tala merely took off his shirt and walked over to the bed, ready to rest for the next day. Kira watched from his closet, with only a small crack to see through, to see his chest moving up and down from his breathing, and, when it was steady, she walked out of the closet and over to stand next to his sleeping body.

"Oh, Red Knight, what are you without your queen now… Looks like you're just the same…. It's time to come off with your head." She said softly as she took out her katana from behind her. "Say good night forever, Red Knight."

Kira slashed downwards to take his head off quickly, but was stopped by another sword and was thrown back by it. "I don't think so, bitch!" Came the voice of the person who stopped her. Kira looked at the person and saw that it was Tala, questioning to herself, 'How?! He was asleep!'

Tala smirked as he got out of bed and held his katana in front of him, ready to defend if he needed to. "I could feel your venomous aura all the way from downstairs; you're slipping 'Alice'." Tala said as he glared at her.

Kira sighed against her mask as she tilted her head lightly, looking at him with no interest. "Doesn't matter, I will kill you." She said as she started walking towards him, holding her katana in one hand.

As she came close enough, she quickly slashed to the right, only to get caught again by Tala's sword. "Do you really think you'll get away with this?!" Tala shouted as he pushed her away and slashed down at her only to be blocked.

"Yes, actually, you have no say, you're tainted." She said as she fought against him. She had to admit, though, that he was pretty good to block her quick moves so easily.

"You're pretty good… but unfortunately," She said as she suddenly ducked from his sword and slashed as his leg causing him to cry out in pain, and she quickly stood up and kicked his sword out of his hand and place her sword in front of his face. "I'm better. Now, say good night, Red Knight." She said then slashed at him.

No one had heard the door to the room open.

No saw or felt the boy move to save his friend

But everyone could only watch as 'Alice' had cut through an innocent by-standard.

Her sword slicing across his back in a clean motion at first, but then became hesitant as she realized it wasn't Tala she was slicing. She stood there, frozen, as she watched as the one she cut fell to the floor, bleeding to death.

"BRIAN!" Tala cried out as he quickly fell to his friend, and was trying to stop the bleeding coming from his back. Tala looked frantic as tears ran down his face, and he was covered in his best friend's blood. His hands were shaking as he tried his best to save him.

"Oh god, Brian…no I can save you…you can't die man…you just can't!" Tala said, trying to convince himself that his best friend was going to be saved. Brian coughed as he looked up at Tala, his eyes starting to dull as he felt his life leaving his body, as blood surfaced from his mouth and his heartbeat was slowly disappearing

'Alice' grimace as she watched as Tala moved to try and save his friend, but she knew it wouldn't work; she had just cut through his one of his lungs and part of his spine. She raised her katana at the boys behind her, who were standing at the door, sensing them trying to sneak up on her.

"This isn't how it was supposed to happen…" She said as she suddenly disappeared from the room. Tala growled as he stood up and quickly grabbed a gun from his drawer, running out the room and down the stairs. He tried his best to look for any sign of 'Alice'.

"I WON'T LET YOU GET AWAY!" Tala yelled out as he then felt a tint of her aura on the roof tops. He quickly found a way to the roof tops, fueled by anger and hatred. Anger that he just lost his friend, who was trying to save him, and hatred for the one who killed his best friend.

As he ran the roof tops he saw 'Alice' up a head running away as fast as she could. Tala raised his gun and shot at her yelling out, "You will pay for killing him!" Alice tried her best to dodge the bullets while still running away, jumping over building after building.

"Alice…Go right…I'll take over…" came a gentle voice as Alice just past an area. Alice nodded and ran behind a wall to the right and Tala felt her aura disappear for a second, but then it re-appeared and he followed, but this time he was having trouble, she was faster than before.

He was losing her. She was so far away now that he couldn't possibly catch her. He growl and yelled in frustration as he stopped and watched as 'Alice' got away. 'I will kill you bitch, you will pay for killing Brian.' Tala thought as he began crying from mixed emotion, not able to hold it anymore.

-With Alice-

After Alice had turned the wall, she used whatever was left of her mentality to shut down her aura and hide away in a box that was just around the corner. As soon as Tala had past her and was far away, she had gotten out and was now running the other way from Tala, knowing he would soon have to come back the way he came to go back home.

"Alice what happen?" the voice, coming from the person that helped her earlier, asked as the person appeared out of nowhere. That person was dress exactly like her; she even had the blood that had soaked Alice's lower hem.

Alice looked down at her hands as she saw the blood on them. "He got in the way…. He saved red knight from me…but… now he's dead." Alice whispered as her hands began shaking. "Sakuno…" Alice looked up at the doppelganger as her mask feel from her face to show that she had started crying. "I killed an innocent…"

Sakuno let go of her mental power and her illusion disappeared showing her now in Black long-sleeve v-neck shirt with navy blue vest jacket over it; white jean shorts with black leggings underneath; silver chain hanging loose off the belt thingy around the waist; black combat boots; black leather fingerless gloves; Shoulder-length smooth black hair and her mask gone showing her blood-red eyes, her skin lightly tanned and her body type was that of an athlete.

Sakuno quickly walked over to Kira and pulled her into a hug. "Come on. I've got to get you home." Sakuno said as she quickly took Kira in her arms and disappeared from the roof tops, leaving behind Kira's mask.

-Later on back in Alice's headquarters-

Sakuno had gotten Kira home, but Kira had shut herself in her room, crying away the pain, not even changing or washing up, only looking at her hands at the mistake that she had done.

"I killed him… I killed an innocent… he didn't do anything wrong… he was only saving his friend." Kira repeated to her-self as tears flowed from her eyes and her hands shook uncontrollably.

"See, Alice, I told you. You are a killer and you'll always be one." said the voice in her head. Kira cried out as she slammed her hand against the wall in anger, "Go away! Just go away forever!" Kira was so desperate to get the voice to leave her alone. She felt so weak right now, but she wouldn't allow the voice to manipulate her.

"Silly girl, I can't leave, you are me and I am you." The voice said, laughing lightly. Kira shook her head as she tried to use whatever was left of her mentality to push away the voice.

Suddenly, an image of Kira as Alice appeared in front of her but with her Cheshire cat mask on. Kira whimpered as she realized the voice had use the madness inside her to create this image, and usually when that happens, it's very much real to her. "Why…Why are you doing this?" Kira asked as she tried to push herself against the corner even more as the figure walked up to her.

"I just want to help you Kira, me and you are one, if only you'd accept me," The figure said as she talked in a soft spoken voice now as she held out her hand to Kira. "When you accept me, Kira, that is when you'll be able to be what you wanted… you're the one that abandon me long ago, I've been waiting." The voice said as she sounded like her voice was cracking.

Kira looked at the figure in confusion, and with less fear, as she looked at the image more carefully. Kira looked at the hand in front of her and felt that the voice meant no harm. She felt that the voice was being gentle with her and was even using her real name. The voice almost sounded familiar, like someone she had talked to way back.

"Who are you…" Kira had suddenly whispered out as her eyes were now at the mask's eyes, curious of the face behind it. The figure's mask slowly cracked and was crumbling apart slowly showing off the face of the figure as she talked, "Have you forgotten yourself, Kira? I am you and you are me, I am…" The voice's face was clear now but she had transformed into a little girl. To be precise, it was Kira when she was a little girl, looking like the day she made the promise with Kai and Ayame. "I am the girl you threw away the day you left."

That was when Kira's room shattered and darkness covered everything. Kira looked around, frantically, as she was confused about what was happening. Suddenly, the image of her childhood room appeared, and Kira stood in the middle of the room.

"How did I…" she began to say, but then stops suddenly as she saw someone sobbing and crying away in a corner. She walked over and saw it was her as a child, and she was dressed in her Alice outfit but her apron was covered in blood.

Kira remembered this day. This was the day they had told her she was going to leave and learn more by traveling the world. This was the day they gave her one final test before they had to leave.

The test... was to take a life of someone that had done something bad. They had put her in a room with the person she had to kill, and that person had been promised if he could kill her then he would be set free. As the man had come at her, Alice's instinct kicked in and she had killed the man by quickly cutting his head off with the katana she had been training with all her life.

The blood of the man had sprayed all over her, having not learned to control her slashes yet to do something she could do in the present day. After the test, they had taken her to her room and let her be alone to cry as she had then realized she had killed her first man.

She was alone that day; they had taken Ayame to go do her last test, for she was to leave with her. She had no one. No one was going to comfort her, no one was going to tell her it would be okay, and no one was there when she was deciding if this was going to be her future, killing men, then she would have to give up her innocents.

Kira had abandoned the pure feelings in her heart. She had thrown her emotions away, and she became different that day. Ayame once told her that she didn't know what the test was, but it had changed me. To be honest, Kira had forgotten that day as well so that she couldn't go back to what she was.

Present Kira watched as her small self cried away, hiccupping and sobbing, as she held herself in fear, haunted by the dead. Kira's eyes looked down at the poor girl, seeing the pureness she had in her heart and the innocents she held.

"I left you here, didn't I? I left you to be alone, something that I never wanted myself." Kira said softly as she came up to the girl and kneeled in front of her. The younger self looked up, tears streaming down her face, as she sobbed, looking at Kira with sadness. Kira leaned forward and placed a hand on her younger self's head, brushing her hair lightly.

"And, all this time, you just wanted me to come back for you. You just wanted me to save you." Younger Kira nodded as she looked a Kira, trying to wipe away her tears. Kira grabbed the younger girl's hands and intertwined her hands together.

"The things you've said to me were a way I think about myself, but you know the truth," Kira whispered as she leaned her forehead against her younger self's forehead. "We're not killers. We're just girls who trained and grew up as one."

"But, deep down, we both believe we're doing this cause of the promise." Kira's younger self said as she smiled up at Kira though her tears. "So that when HE remembers us, we'll throw it all away for him." Kira said as she already knew what the younger self was saying; finally accepting her other half she had left alone.

Younger Kira smiled as she felt Kira finally accepting her as her other half and was slowly disappearing into Kira. "Thank you for coming back for me." The younger self whispered before she had fully disappeared. Kira stood up after her other half had disappeared. Her childhood room shattering like a mirror and her present room came back.

Kira looked down at her hands at the blood of Brian and closed her hands into a fist. "This time, we're doing this the right way…" Kira said as she walked over to her bathroom and prepared a bath.

-GASP- soooooo XD I hope that slightly explains Kira's character a bit! :3

Man is Tala pissed at Kira now, he had watched his best bud die in front of him and just to save him! Tsk tsk tsk XD I know a lot of you will be slightly like "NOOOOOOOO!" but I needed something dramatic to trigger Kira's inner self!

:3 hopefully soon you'll find out why Kai is the way he is with Kira and why Kira is trying so hard to stay away from Kai.

And also D: I will be killing more characters off but you just won't know who! :P I know I know you're wondering if your favorite character will die, but it's already been decided and I won't change my mind!

I hope you liked my friend, Sakuno's OC as well ^^ she'll be explained more later.