Where Do We Go From Here?

Time ticked on but for Quinn it felt like she was frozen in time. Rachel had finally stopped crying and let her exhaustion take over drifting off to sleep in her arms leaving Quinn to her thoughts, if you can even call them that. At the moment Quinn's mind was a flurry of different emotions varying from anxious to anger. Anxious because what does this mean for Rachel? How will this affect her future, what does she want to do, who is the father? That last question scared her the most, Quinn didn't like the Brody guy who Rachel let stay in her and Kurt's apartment, especially since he already hurt her once before they were even dating? Quinn's not sure exactly what Rachel's relationship with him is. But then there's also the possibility of another guy to consider… Quinn felt her blood boil just thinking about it.

Finn Fucking Hudson

And that's when Quinn's concern turned into rage. Even though she didn't have any proof she knew it was a possibility. She saw Rachel at the wedding; saw her talking to him, and then poof they disappeared for the rest of the night. She should have talked to her, she should have gone after her, but she was too caught up in her own sadness, caused by Rachel no less, to even do anything. Then she and Santana started talking, and then started drinking, and then other things…

Pushing those thoughts to the back of her mind Quinn focused on the here and now. How was she going to help Rachel out of this situation? What could she say, sure she's been through this herself but this was different, this was Rachel, she had to take her feelings into consideration too. All she could do was give her advice and be there for her no matter what, even if she didn't agree with her decisions. God this just like senior year all over again, she thought bitterly

It's your own fault you know? You should have told her, maybe then she wouldn't be in this situation. This is why she almost got married in high school, when are you going to learn? She could've been with you and you could have protected her from this, you could have stopped this from happening, if only you weren't such a coward afraid of rejection. Her subconscious scolded, and she couldn't argue with herself because 1. That would be weird and 2. She was right; maybe if she would have come clean about her feelings Rachel would've been hers by now. But it's too late to think about what if, it is what it is and all they can do is keep moving forward. Knowing they still have a lot to talk about Quinn, reluctantly, woke Rachel from her slumber. Slowly the smaller girl came into consciousness, her eyes still bleary with sleep but she could make out Quinn' figure.

"Quinn? What are you doing here?" She asked voice still laced with sleep. Quinn couldn't stop the smile that made its way onto her face. Rachel could be so cute without even trying.

"Well considering this is my dorm room I could ask you the same Question, even though I already know the answer" she replied, that seemed to sober up Rachel quickly, her eyes became clear of any trace of sleep and she shot up instantly removing herself from Quinn's embrace. Her temporary amnesia was gone and she remembered why she came here and that she told Quinn she might possibly be… She swallowed past the lump forming in her throat. Fuck she couldn't even think it, never the less say it, it would make it too REAL and she didn't think she could handle that, she was perfectly happy pretending this wasn't happening, pretending that she really was only late and then her period would come and her and Quinn could look back on this and laugh at the ridiculousness of it all. Maybe it was for the best you know what they say, ignorance is bliss.

"Rachel" no answer

"Rach…" still nothing, she wouldn't even look at her

"Rachel you know we have to talk about this"

"What if I don't want to talk about this" Rachel said in a biting tone

"Then you wouldn't have come here" Quinn replied calmly

"Then maybe I made a mistake, I shouldn't have come here" She got up from the couch fully expecting to storm out of the house back to her apartment in New York but instead was caught by the wrist and brought into a, now standing Quinn's, chest. Rachel tried to fight her off, she wiggled, she punched, and she cursed at Quinn but the blonde didn't let her go.

"God dammit Quinn just let me go" But Quinn kept holding her

"I said let me go" she yelled

"I can't do that Rach, not until you talk to me" Quinn said schooling her voice to sound calm and collected, even though on the inside her heart was breaking for the girl in her arms.

"NO, I don't want to talk"

"Why not"

"Because if I say it out loud it'll be real" Rachel admitted, yet Quinn still held her, she had to get her to say it, she had to hear the word come out of Rachel's mouth, if she didn't acknowledge it Quinn couldn't help her.

"What, if you say what, Rachel?"

"You know what, don't play dumb Quinn"

"Say it" Quinn demanded

"I don't want to"

"You have to"

"I said no, now let go of me"

"Not until you say it" Rachel's anger hit its peak and in a flash of anger she pushed Quinn away, who staggered backwards from the shock the amount of strength Rachel possessed.

"Fine you want me to say it, I'll say it. I'M PREGNANT OKAY? Does that make you happy Quinn, I had unprotected sex and now I'm pregnant." A few tears slipped from her eyes from all her frustration and emotional exhaustion she felt, her throat felt raw, but it wasn't from the screaming, it was as if she just drank a bottle of acid and she just threw it back up, she couldn't believe she just said it out loud, but now that she did she felt a little bit lighter as if her burden was being lifted off her shoulders.

"Who's the father" Quinn knew this was her chance to get the information out of her, while she was still emotionally weak, otherwise Rachel would only shut her out.

"I don't know" She admitted quitter than she was before. Quinn's eyes narrowed

"What do you mean you don't know?" Quinn asked she knew she was being the bad guy right now but it was for Rachel's own good.

"Please don't make me say it" she pleaded

"Rachel" Quinn said in a warning tone, Rachel sighed defeated.

"Fine… I… I slept with Finn"

"When"

"At the wedding, I don't know why, he was there and he was trying to be his charming self again but I knew he was drunk but I still feel something for him, so we slept together" Quinn made a mental note to kick Finn's ass the next time she saw him

"Then when I came home," Rachel continued, "I felt bad for technically cheating on Brody so then we slept together too" Quinn added Brody to the list too.

"I slept with both of them and now a month later I'm most likely pregnant" Rachel slumped down onto the couch, mentally exhausted. Quinn took a deep breathe, in through her nose, out through her mouth. She needed to think, she had to have a clear head, and pushing away love-sick Quinn she tapped into her old HBIC persona and started to tell Rachel the plan.

"Okay so this is what we're going to do, first I'm going to run to the drug store and pick up some more pregnancy tests, and when I come back you'll take them and if you really are pregnant we'll talk about what you want to do with your baby, clear?" Rachel nodded solemnly letting Quinn's words sink in, 'what you want to do with your baby', it was a lot to think about, what she wanted to do, she had no idea.

"Okay I'll be right think about it while I'm gone, and Rachel" she said her voice losing its edge and authority instead growing soft and caring again, "Remember no matter what, weather you are or not, and whatever you want to do, I'll be here for you supporting you one hundred percent" Quinn reminded her, Rachel felt the warmth fill her heart, knowing that no matter what she could count on Quinn.

As Quinn made her way outside she took a moment to breathe in the fresh air and tried to clear her head. Even though it was impossible, there was just so much going on there was no time for her mind to rest. The walk to the pharmacy wasn't long, or maybe it was and she was just too caught in her to notice.

Walking through the electronic doors she went into mission mode. Quickly scanning the signs above the aisles she found her target and closed in. Picking up several different types of tests Quinn walked briskly to the cash register, the guy at the register gave her an odd look but she brushed him off, she didn't owe him any explanations. As soon as the bag was in her hands she exited the store, she broke into a jog on her way back to campus unable to stand the wait. She made it back to her room in record time, when she walked in she found Rachel exactly as she left her, on the couch with a faraway look in her eyes. Quinn slowly approached her and placed a gentle hand on her shoulder, Rachel's focus slowly made it way to Quinn, and then her eyes quickly flicked to the bag in the ex-cheerleaders hand. They both locked eyes as if silently communicating to each other. Rachel's eye asked if she really had to do this, and Quinn's gaze said yes, there was no way she could get out of this. With a reluctant nod the tiny singer grabbed the bag and turned to make her way to the bathroom, "Second door on your left" Quinn supplied helpfully, "Thanks" she replied curtly. About a minute and a half later Quinn hears a flush and the sink being turned on, she makes her way to the door gently knocks and pushes it open.

"Rach"

"I set up the timer" she answered not really in the mood for small talk, getting the hint Quinn walks over to her and sits them both down on the edge of the tub. Her left hand finds Rachel's right and she intertwines their fingers. Rachel gives her hand a slight squeeze in thanks, and then they wait.

They wait for five minutes.

Five agonizingly long minutes in which they both felt like they were going to either throw up or pass out from the intensity of the situation.

"Rachel we have to-"

"I know"

"Then how come-"

"Cause I'm afraid Quinn, I'm so afraid of what the might say, but if they are- If I am pregnant, I just want to know that I really thought about this and I want to try to keep my baby" Quinn swallowed thickly, that was a big decision, but she promised she'd support Rachel no matter what. Nodding her head she said, "Okay, so that's what we'll do, but first" she gestured to the white sticks, "Do you want me to-"

"Yes please" Giving Rachel's hand one last squeeze Quinn got up and made her way to the sink, her blood began to pump in her ears, and her heart thudded against her ribcage. This was it, once she read these results there really was no turning back. She closed her eyes and steeled herself before finally moving next to the sink. When she opened her eyes she felt her stomach drop and her intestines twist and turn she felt dizzy like her brain wasn't getting enough air, was the room spinning or was that just her? Before she could pass out she heard a soft 'Quinn' come from the other girl still sitting on the bathtub. When no reply came Rachel cautiously walked towards her and looked down at the sticks, her heart seized in her chest and her hand instantly grabbed Quinn's and held on to it for dear life.

Sitting right there in front of her was a smiley face, two plus signs, and one that had two bars stared back at her, mocking her.

"Fuck" she cursed and Quinn could only nod in agreement

"I really am…" Quinn nodded again squeezing her hand tighter cutting off the blood flow, but Rachel let her, the pain in her hand was distracting her form the pain in her chest.

"Quinn"

"Yea Rach"

"Where do we go from here?" Quinn paused thinking back to when she had asked herself that same question, so mirroring the words she told herself earlier she said

"We can only move forward"

MC: Hey there guys this was supposed to be a one-shot but then I got a review and a couple of follows so I reread the first chapter and realized I can probably drag this out a bit more, I'm not sure how long this will be so just bear with me. Also I feel like I should change the title it doesn't really 'fit' the story so send me some ideas. And as always fill that whit empty box with your lovely reviews and until next time,

MC over and out