"You really think so, come sit down"

She pulls me towards a large fallen tree and we take a seat. It's just so cute; here we are sitting in the middle of the woods. There's a pond with swans gracefully swimming around the sun making them look even more brilliantly white than they already are. The sun covers all of the small clearing dancing on top of the water as the swans make it ripple as they swim around. It feels like we're somewhere else, not 10 minutes down the road from my new sixth form. From where we're sitting on the big tree trunk I can see the whole thing the water rippling and dancing in the sun, the area next to it of bright green grass with a few daisy's scattered around. It's all so quiet, so secluded; it's actually really quite beautiful. I turn towards her and can't help but smile.

"I've never brought anyone here before, not even Quinn" She keeps her gaze focused on the pond as she says this.

"But isn't she like your best friend?"

"Mhmmm, I don't even know if anyone knows it's here"

"What do you mean?"

"Well anytime I come here, and that's a lot I've never seen anyone I've never even heard anyone else talk about it"

I pause for a few seconds. If she's never brought or seen anyone here, never even told anyone about this place. Why has she brought me, she's not even known me two full days yet. I just don't get it. I keep looking out not wanting to seem rude.

"Then" I pause again and she looks up at me expectantly. "Why did you bring me?"

"I don't know" she looks down at her feet and begins to fiddle with the home of her shirt. Great, I didn't mean to upset her. I really was just curious.

"Don't get upset Britt, I didn't mean anything. It- It's just that people aren't nice you know." It's my turn to look at my feet now. I don't know what to say, I so didn't mean to upset her I was just trying to understand why, you know why me? "Especially to someone they've known for like a day and I'm just trying to figure out why you're being nice to me. Because people aren't nice especially to people like me where I'm from." I can't help but think back to a few months ago when I was outed to the whole of Ohio.

"Everyone knows now Santana! They all know you're a-a Lesbian!" The way she spat the last word at me, it felt like a slap in the face. I never thought I'd hear her talk like that. My best friend, my secret girlfriend in fact. We'd been together for a few months now, me and Charlotte.

She'd been my best friend since Kindergarten, we'd been inseparable since then. Then this year something changed and I started falling for her, I wouldn't admit it to myself. I wasn't gay and I didn't like Charlotte, I used to repeat it to myself, didn't work though because both of those things were true. I was gay and I liked Charlotte more than a best friend should.

Then one night at a party, we were both drunk and she'd not long broke up with her boyfriend, she kissed me. She kissed me, not the other way around. But I didn't care I went with it anyway and it all grew from there. She'd come over like usual and we'd watch films on my room and we'd cuddle, get our lady kisses on and more. Soon enough we were together. Well that's what I thought, but apparently that wasn't true and she didn't let me down easy.

"You don't think I don't know that everyone knows! It was me on the stupid campaign ad Charlotte!" I ran my hands through my hair frustrated. "It doesn't matter though my parents are fine with it and so are yours they rang my mum to say so. So you can tell your parents too and we can be together, it'll be fine." I smile and take her hand but she snatches it away.

"What are you talking about be together, you're not telling me you actually thought this was real Santana. Ha you're so stupid, this, this was nothing"

"B-But what about us and what we did. We were each other's firsts that has to mean something to you and all the things you said to me. I know you meant it when you said you loved me."

"Oh god you are stupid. You weren't my first, Brad was that's why I was so pissed at him. Us, me and you meant nothing to me! You were just a hook up, I didn't love you and I definitely don't now, that you're a dyke!"

"I- I can't, I don't believe you. It meant something it had to."

"Get this into your head it meant nothing! And this is what's going to happen, you're not going to tell anyone what happened between us and you're not going to talk to me ever again. I'm back with Brad now, I don't need you to hook up. I don't need you at all and I don't need your new found fame as a Lima lesbian bringing my reputation down. Got that?"

"You know what Charlotte. Fuck You! I'm not going to tell anyone because I've just seen you for what you are and I don't want to be associated with a hypocrite like you! I know this meant something but you won't admit it and you know what that's fine I don't care. So get out of my car you hypocritical bitch!"

That's exactly what she did, she got out and we never spoke again. I drove home and didn't cry until I got there. I cried myself to sleep that night. But I didn't shed a tear afterwards. Not for anything, not when I got slushied for being gay not when I got into fights or was shouted at in the street. But just because I didn't cry doesn't mean it didn't hurt, because it did and my parents moved us because of it. They knew I wouldn't admit how miserable I was and I still won't. But it doesn't matter now because I'm standing here in front of Brittany and not back there in a town full of losers and that bitch.

"I don't understand Santana, how could people be mean to you? Why would they be mean to you?"

"Britt it doesn't matter" I have to look away from her, I can't see the questions running through her mind or I'll tell her and I'm not ready for that. I can't tell people I'm gay yet I just can't. "Can we just drop it please?" She doesn't say anything for a moment, instead she looks at me and scoots closer. She puts her arms around me and pulls me into her. I'm stiff for a second before I relax into her embrace.

"It's okay San you don't have to tell me. Not yet anyway. We're gonna be really good friends so I know you'll tell me soon." She pulls away and grins at me. "But for now how bout we get some sunbathing in as it's hot and we've got some time to kill until we have to go back"

With that she stands up and walks over to the middle of the grass and lays down on her stomach. She turns to look at me, a hand shielding her eyes from the sun.

"Are you gonna join me or what"

"Sure" I make my way over and lie down next to her and try to forget about the thoughts still buzzing around in my head. Lima and Charlotte. I'm thousands away from them yet they still manage to get back inside my head. I manage to push them away. The rest of the hour goes by quickly and in silence. Not an awkward silence though, it was nice to just be quiet.

She pulls herself up from the grass leaving an imprint of her in the grass next to me.

"We've got to go" She puts her hand out to pull me up. I take it without hesitation and she yanks. A lot harder than we were both expecting. I end up bashing into her slightly, our body's touching our faces just centimetres apart. I can't help but look from her lips to her eyes and I think she's doing the same.