I lean in ever so slightly beginning to close the gap between us, when I hear my mum shout my name from the hallway.
"Santana, Mija!"
It makes me jump back slightly "Yes mami!" I look back over to britt to see her smiling at me shyly. I wasn't sure how she was gonna be seeing as we almost kissed and I practically jumped off the sofa when I heard my mum call me. My mum opens the door slowly before peeking her head around the door frame.
"Okay girls, Brittany and her family are going now"
"Okay we'll be out in 2 secs"
She looks at me knowingly, smiles and shuts the door behind her. Itake a second to try and figure out what to say seeing as we almost kissed. Well to me that was definitely an almost kiss. Still not quite sure what to say I look back over to Brittany and open my mouth to speak. Before I get a chance she cuts me off.
"Santana it's okay" She smiles at me and places her hand on my knee squeezing gently.
"What- what's okay which bit?" I'm not sure if she means the whole me being a lesbian chased out of Lima Ohio thing or that almost kiss that just happened.
"Everything" She takes my hand in hers and squeezes it reassuringly "You, who you are, why you came here and don't worry I won't tell anyone. Its all fine, I would never judge you or make you fee; bad for being you or for stupid people back where your from not being able to see how amazing you are. But it looks like I've got to go so I'll see you Monday"
She pulls me in for another hug before she stands up and straightens out her dress; I follow her lead about to walk her to the door. She walks ahead of me and as she reaches the door she stops and turns around.
"And that almost kiss was totally okay too, just so you know" She laughs and sends me a wink before making her way out of the room.
I freeze for a second trying to process what she said. It was okay, that's a relief I didn't want to have scared away my only friend. But then again that was partly her too and she just winked so she definitely doesn't find me repulsive. Not that that could ever happen I mean I'm hot stuff, practically sex on legs. I'm Santana fucking Lopez, Bitch!
I make my way from the living room to say goodbye to Britt and her family. All of us hugging before they put on their coats and make their way out the door. As it shuts I feel relief, partly because Britt knows about me but also because I told someone. It's like a weight's been lifted, now just to tell everyone else. I guess I should tell my parents I've at least made a start in telling people about me. I turn to them and clear my throat to get their attention.
"Mami, Papi I told Brittany. She knows, everything about me and why we moved"
"I'm glad for you sweetheart, don't you fell a bit better now?"
"Yeah, I guess I do" I look up and smile at them both. My dad steps forward and pulls me into his arms.
"I'm proud of you mija, for everything. For how strong you were when we were in Lima and for how you're being now, opening up to Brittany I know that must've been hard for you."
It takes me by surprise to hear him say this but it also makes me feel good, to know that he's proud and he cares for me. He kisses me on the forehead and lets me go.
"Santana, me and your father did something tonight" Okay colour me intrigued.
"What do you mean did something?" I raise my eyebrow as I ask her.
"Okay don't get mad" I butt in before she can finish.
"Why would I get mad what did you do?" I can feel myself beginning to get angry just because she told me not to get mad. That means she's done something that's going to make me angry somehow otherwise she wouldn't have said it. Plus she knows me and she knows how I get like when I'm mad. Trust me it isn't pretty.
"I said don't get mad" She pauses for a minute not sure if she should carry on. "We told the pierces, about why we moved. I know you said you weren't ready but I disagree you clearly are you told Brittany tonight." I don't say anything for a moment waiting to see if she has anything else to say.
"They knew something was up from when Tom first asked us at dinner. So we told them, they've already said they won't tell anybody, not even Brittany. Not that that's a problem as you've already told her. I'm sorry mija I think it'll be good for us even if you don't see it yet" She lets out a deep breath as she finishes, looks down at her feet and waits for me to explode on her. You know what it's not going to happen. Don't get me wrong I'm a bit pissed that they just told them but they seem cool and Britt does already know. It's not just that though… I think I'm going to tell everyone at school soon. Why hide it?
"It's okay mami"
"I'm sorry Santana but it had to happen sooner or lat- wait did you just say it was okay?"
"Yes its fine I guess, it's not exactly perfect but I can't hide forever. And anyway I'm gonna tell people soon you know… that I'm a lesbian. Not why we moved but you know who I am and this is the first step"
"Oh sweetie" She practically runs forward to hug me and put me into a death grip
"Mum abit too tight" She loosens her grip but doesn't let go, she kisses the top of my head and steps back.
"Okay well I'm gonna go to bed"
"Okay we'll see you in the morning, goodnight"
"Night guys."