Chapter 8… "I Love You"

Jasper POV

I woke up suffering from a big headache. I looked for an aspirin and took it. It was almost eleven in the morning. I noticed I was still wearing the same clothes.

I looked for some clothes and towels and run to the bathroom. I had a thirty-minute shower but my head was still hurting; I got dress.

I went to the kitchen and made the breakfast. After some minutes, Alice showed up.

-Hi- I said, but her response was a murmur. She made herself a coffee- Are you still mad at me?- I asked.

-What do you think? You don't answer what I ask you and, even worse, you get drunk and talk bullshit- she answered while having her breakfast.

- You neither answer what I ask you- I maintained.

-I said I couldn't tell you.

-How long do I have to wait to know your secrets?

-I dunno- was her response. She turned around and started doing the wash up. There was an awkwardly silence for a few minutes- Jasper…- she spoke again- last night, you…- she shut up.

-I…?- I inquired.

-Nothing- she answered. I came close to her and made her to look at me.

-What did I do?

-Nothing, you just…- I gazed at her- made a striptease- I laughed.

-That was all?- she nodded- I don't think so- I insisted.

-You talked bullshit too.

-for example…?- I asked amused.

- There were a lot… you let me drive your car, so…- I opened my eyes wide.

- Really?- she nodded- Oh my God, if I had been sober, I wouldn't have given you the keys… whatever, what else have I done?

- I dunno remember, but you were drunk, so…

-Remember that kids and drunks always tell the truth- Alice was lost in her thoughts, but then she shrugged.

I finished my breakfast and went to the living to watch TV. Ten minutes later, I started watching Pearl Harbor. I had seen it twice or three times, but I didn't care. I loved History, so I didn't mind watching epic movies.

-Can I join you?- Alice asked me while she was sitting in the sofa next to me.

-Sure… do you want me to change the channel?

-No, it's ok. I love it- she answered smiling reluctantly. I stared at her for a while until I came back to reality. After an hour, she started asking me questions about the history of her country. I answered the best I could.

-Wow, how do you know all that? In History class, I noticed you were so smart…

-I love History, so I read as much as I can. I'm interesting in the subject 'cause I think that we can avoid future and daily mistakes I we take into account our past mistakes… I don't think, it's our history, although it happened a long time ago- I shrugged- many people find it boring, but I think it's amazing… it's like you and fashion, isn't it?

- How do you know that?- she asked me amazed.

-I saw your draws and let me tell you they are awesome…

-Thanks- she whispered blushed.

-You're so beautiful when you blush; well… you're beautiful all the time- I confessed with a smile.

-Th-thanks- she stuttered and then sighed- Jasper, last night…

-Last night…?- I inquired raising an eyebrow.

-Last night, you said you love me… and I wanted to know…

-you wanted to know if it's true- she nodded- Sure. Alice, although last night I was drunk, I can tell you this today, sober: I love you. I know we don't know each other pretty well, but I love you as I've never loved anyone- I confessed giving up my heart. Her eyes watered- hey, don't cry… I don't want you to be sad…

-I'm not sad- she said wiping her tears- you're such a great guy… I don't deserve you, Jasper. You deserve somebody else.

-What? Alice, I want to be with you, only you. Nobody else can deserve me but you.

-You don't know what you're talking about- she looked away- I don't deserve you.

-Tell me why- I claimed, but she didn't talk- Alice, look at me… what are you hiding? Why are you telling me I don't deserve you? What's happening?

-I…- my cell phone rang and Alice glanced at me.

-I won't answer- I said sharply.

-It may be important.

-I don't care.

-Answer the phone!- she exclaimed. I sighed and took the fucking phone; it was Rose.

-Hi sis- I spoke upset.

-J-jaz…- my sister murmured sobbing. I stood up worried.

-What's going on, Rose?

-H-he abandoned us- she managed to speak.

-Who? Rose, talk to me!- I claimed extremely alarmed.

-D-dad…

-WHAT!- I shouted. I felt as my heart stopped beating and my blood vessels froze.

-He cheated on mom, Jasper… she found it out and he left- she explained.

-It can't be true- I murmured as I sat down again and put my head on my hands- it can't be true…- I repeated.

-What's going on, Jasper?- Alice seemed worried.

-Are you there, Jazz?- I heard my sister's voice on the phone.

-How's mom?- I asked.

-Destroyed… Jasper, I really need you!- Rose exclaimed crying even worse.

-Rosalie, listen to me. You must be strong, you must be there for mom, okey? I can't come back… please, Rose, I know you can do it. You must take care of yourself and mom. Help her.

-I can't Jazz, I can't…

-Yes, you can!- I exclaimed- I trust in you, Rose.

-I love you Jazz.

-I love you too, sis. Remember what I told you.

-I'll try, goodbye Jazz- she got off the phone and I tossed my head.

-J-jasper… what happened?- Alice spoke.

-Shit- I murmured.

-What is a shit?

-My… father- I spotted the word out- he was cheating my mother. He always seemed to be 'the model dad', but he's a piece of trash. And now I'm here and I can't do anything… I hate him!- I shouted as I started dropping some tears. I covered my face with both hands and shook it once or twice; trying to avoid what was going on.

All in a sudden, I felt as two thin arms wrapped me. I took courage and hugged her strongly. I hided my face on her shoulder; there was a complete silence around the house.

-Thank you- I whispered- I'm a fool crying like that- I release her and wiped my tears.

-You're not a fool. You're different from the other guys I've met.

-is that good?- I said trying to smile.

-That's… really good- she murmured blushed. Then, I could smile.

-Hi everyone- Mrs. Brandon was entering the house, fully-hand of sacks. I stood up and helped her- Jasper, are you okay? Were you… crying?- she doubted. I sighed and told her what had happened- oh, my dear…- she hugged me strongly- you know you can count on us…

-Yeah, I know, thanks- I answered- I'll have a shower again, so I could be distracted for a while- she nodded and released me.

I went to my room and then took a thirty-minute shower. Once I finished, I got dressed with the same clothes I was using.

The shower calmed me down just a little. I came back my bedroom and looked for my guitar and the notebook where I had written several songs. I opened it and looked over until I found a particular song: Father and Son.

It brought back so many memories. My father would sing it to me when I was just a child and then, when I grow up, I joined him playing my guitar. I brook the sheet off and broke in pieces, leaving them to fall one by one.

I wouldn't cry anymore. I didn't want to. It didn't worth it. My... father was a piece of shit and I was trying to realize it.

Someone knocked the door. "Come in" was what I murmured before Alice showed up.

-Jasper, I-i… wanna tell you that I'm here for you and…-she blushed- I love you too.