Chapter Fifteen

"We didn't give them what they needed; closure," Catherine said arms folded. She was sitting on the shelf in the back of Grissom's office between textbooks and all sorts of specimens in jars.

"Evidence brings closure," Gil said from his desk still staring at the door. He couldn't believe why the parents wouldn't accept their daughter's death and now they're going to spend all of their money on a private investigator that will probably give them the same information. Going through this will only make it more difficult for them to grieve over their daughter.

"Not always…" Catherine said shaking her head.

"What was that episode called?"

"Chaos theory," Casey said holding up the box of the CSI DVDs, "That's why it was called Chaos Theory."

"It was?" Olivia asked with her mouth full.

"Yeah…" Casey said rolling her eyes.

"Hey, don't make fun of me! I left half way through to get your ice cream," Olivia said 'pretend angrily' staring at Casey while she was shoving a spoonful of ice cream in her mouth. Olivia folded her arms and Casey smiled guiltily choking slightly while giggling into her ice cream.

The phone rang. Casey looked at the caller ID before picking it up.

"Is it Elliot?" Olivia asked too hopefully.

"No, it's no one. Were you expecting Elliot to call? You just talked to him twenty minutes ago…"

"Oh," Olivia blushed, "uh, no, I just…"

"You just love him," Casey said casually.

"Yeah, I- wait! Casey!" she screamed realizing what she just told Casey.

"Ha! I knew it! Okay, so spill," Casey said laying on her stomach with her chin resting on her hands ready for a story.

"We're dating," Olivia said giving in, "Oh, you should see the dress I got for our date!"

"It's not that red one we saw when we went shopping-"

Olivia smiled guiltily.

"Liv! That was so expensive!"

"I know, but it's not just a date. It's Elliot."

"Oh, Liv you're so Lucky!" then she realized what she just said, "Oh, Liv, I'm sorry, I don't even know what to say… I can't believe I just said you were lucky- I- You've had such a bad past and… I'm sorry I'm just making it worse… please say something and put me out of my misery! Liv, please… I-"

"Casey, it's okay. I've made peace with it. Even- even the rape."

"Olivia, you know, it's okay to grieve over this."

"Why would I? It's not a big deal when you think about it. Really."

Casey was about to respond when the doorbell rang.

"Oh, yeah, Liv. I hope you don't mind that I invited someone…" she opened the door. It was Rebecca. She looked nervous. She wasn't quite sure if Olivia was truly her friend again or if it was just a time of need. She knew they'd become closer, but the degree of closeness, she didn't know.

"Rebecca!" Olivia said standing up to hug her best friend.

"Hey, Liv."

"So, I was just telling Casey about my date with Elliot…"

"Seriously?"

"Yeah!"

"Oh, Liv, how exciting! I knew it would happen eventually!"

"Anything new with you?"

"Uh, no, not with me. The guys are chasing down a lead, but I don't think its gonna be anything. Did you ever date a firefighter?"

"What? No, I haven't"

"Yeah, I didn't think so. I'm sorry we don't have any good news for you, Olivia, but we will find him. We will…"

"Guys! I'm over it! It's not a big deal!" Olivia said angrily. Rebecca looked to Casey confused, and Casey put a hand to her head.

"Olivia, no one really gets over it…" Rebecca started.

"Liv, he took something from you," Casey said.

"Not really." Olivia responded.

"He violated you, Liv, and you haven't grieved at all. It's not good for you to hold it all in!"

"It's not a big deal!" Olivia almost screamed.

"I know you don't believe that, Liv. You've spent all your time comforting rape victims. I've watched you tell victims that are reluctant to report a rape the same thing we're telling you. You're the one that has always believed rape is the ultimate violation and I know you haven't changed your mind. I think, if anything, you believe it now more than ever, you're just denying it," Rebecca said.

"I haven't stopped believing it, but I can't let it get to me. If I don't get over it, it'll ruin everything left of my life. My friendships, my job, my relationship with Elliot… my life."

"I can't believe how strong you are… I- I wouldn't be able to do it…" Casey said crying a little.

Rebecca, who already had tears running down her cheeks, said, "Well, we're here for you if you need us."

Olivia sighed releasing any built up anger, "Thanks guys," she said. She knew they were right.

"Definitely a crime of passion," Catherine said leaning in even further to examine the head.

"You think a female could do this?" Grissom asked raising an eyebrow. All they had to look at was a severed head with several marks in random places indicating practice swings.

"I could've," Catherine said evilly still staring at the head as if it were hypnotizing. Grissom looked over to Catherine then back over to the head. He raised his eyebrows even higher.

"Scared of you…" he said jokingly. Catherine looked sideways at Grissom then back to the head rolling her eyes a little.

Olivia laughed out loud. She couldn't help it.

"Please tell me why I'm watching this again?" Elliot teased.

"I love this show! I borrowed the whole second season from Casey," Olivia said. She shifted a little bit. She was sitting with Elliot on the "loveseat". Its funny how the call a two person sofa a loveseat, and its funny how its Elliot and Olivia's favorite place to sit. They were snuggled up tight watching CSI together.

"Okay, so at least explain to me why the whole 'scared of you' thing was funny."

"Well… You have to actually watch the show to understand why. You have to know the characters to get how funny it is. The short of it is Grissom, the boss, is an antisocial, but brilliant scientist while his best friend, Catherine, is the opposite. She used to be a stripper; she's very social. She also has a daughter, and as you heard earlier in the episode, she just filed for divorce from her husband who she loves even though he's abusive and cheats on her. He actually ends up dying in one of the last episodes of the next season. You see, the writers are trying to convince us that even though there is so much sexual tension between these two, Catherine and Gil are just friends, Grissom is going to end up with Warrick, and in some of the newer seasons, they're starting to match Warrick and Catherine, which I'd love because Warrick is so hot, but I'd still rather have Grissom and Catherine," Olivia said.

"Wait, how come you think Warrick is hot? I'm not hot enough?"

"Oh, no. Warrick and Nick, and even Greg are so hot, but who got the girl?" Olivia said squeezing his hand, "Okay, but stop distracting me. I'm a Grillows shipper. They go well together. If you gave me time, I would give you a list of episodes where it shows the chemistry between them. This is CSI, that's what the show is about. Chemistry.

"Now what the hell is a 'Grillows shipper'?" Elliot asked completely confused. She was talking really fast… it was obvious she was obsessed, but he just couldn't keep up.

"It means I want Catherine and Grissom to fall in love and live happily ever after. Bugman and the Butterfly; Grissom and Catherine; Grillows. Okay, Grillows is only their last names combined. Grissom plus Willows equals Grillows."

"So what would we be called," Elliot asked. It was only somewhat seductively.

Olivia opened her mouth to say something the closed it. She bit her lip and looked to the side. Elliot loved the way she looked when she was thinking. Finally, she decided on talking it out with Elliot. She unwrapped Elliot's arms from around her and backed away to the other end of the sofa so she could look at him while she talked to him. She immediately missed sitting in his arms, but she was clearly enjoying thinking about this. He was enjoying watching her enjoy this.

"Okay, well… how would we combine Stabler and Benson? Benbler- no. Stablen- no. They're not really catchy are they?"

"No… I guess not..." Elliot said. He could never understand why women liked this sort of thing. This is the kind of thing his daughters did at sleepovers.

"Okay, well, first names… Oliviot- ehh… or Ellivia… well…"

"Okay what's wrong with those?"

"Well, I don't like Oliviot. Ellivia… I'm not sure. It doesn't sound bad… You know what, Stabler, I'll get back to you on that."

soooo sorry guys... we finally got digital cable, and the guy came and hooked it up but screwed everything else in the house up so another guy had to come and fix it. so yeah i was without my computer and without my tv (where i watch law and order svu) so what good is gettign out of school early for bad weather if i cant go outside because of the weather, and i cant update fanfic!

ok sorry guys... I'm venting

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oh and i apologize for the CSI... I am obsessed, but i'm working on it

-kerry