Chapter 5

Rose woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of a child screaming. She looked around the room and saw Caitlin sleeping as sound as a lamb. Rose was sweating. It was a nightmare. The nightmares
didn't seem to bother her but this one did. It was a child screaming, screaming into open air and then the water just appeared out of nowhere headed for her. And she was still screaming when Rose woke up.
Who was she? Could it have been Cora? The little girl who called Jack, uncle? But the girl in her dream looked much younger. It looked... It looked like her. The realization dawned upon Rose. She wasn't just
having nightmares about the ship, it was about her. She scanned through her brain trying to pick a thought where she stood in front of the water with it headed towards to crush her. She thought of the ship but it was unlikely she wasn't a child anymore. Rushing through her thoughts, she remembered a faint memory back in her father's estate.

She was a child of first class standing and her mother brought her to a party while her father chatted with his business partners. Little Rose just sat the whole time clearly bored but on the way out, she tripped on something sharp maybe it was a rock that made her fall rolling down. Her father ran quickly to her and started healing her wounds. Everyone's attention was focused on her mother and father who
failed to educate the young girl to avoid tripping at events. Her father, smart and kind, told the guests, "it happens to everyone doesn't it but I think Rose just wants out of here, your fault for inviting my daughter Parker! There isn't anyone her age here!" And everyone laughed even the Parker man, a rich business tycoon. They said goodbyes and headed home wounds were nursed by her father himself before she changed into something elegant. Her father patted her on the back for being so
brave and he promised her a toy when he came back from the office. Rose thought it was okay to slouch and so she did. Her father went to the study and her mother stood in front of her. Her mother glared at
her and she sat straight instead of slouching murmuring

"Sorry, mother, not going to happen again,"
"It better not. If not for your father's quick thinking our family's reputation might have been ruined. You want that? You want that don't you? You want to be a peasant then go ahead Rose,"
Her mother pulled her up and brought her to the bath where Rose screamed because of the icyness of the water. Her mother took a cup where she threw the water towards Rose just like when Rose took baths except this time Her mother was angry.

Rose grimaced, yes, it was that memory and dream but why? Why that dream? Why couldn't it have been about Jack? Something that made her see his precious face once again?

She went outside to get some water. It's been weeks since she started to stay with the Calverts. Three months and two weeks to be exact. She works now, helps with the Calverts and is considered family. The Calvert boy has been confirmed to pass on and this devasted the entire family a month afo but they're recovering. Johnny Calvert, the cousin has found work and is still trying to get his own house but the Calverts good folks said he should live with them until he gets married. Yes, a lot of things has happened but for Rose, it only seemed like yesterday when she boarded the ship. When she met Jack and when she lost Jack on that night. Expecting to see no one, she was surprised to see the Calverts' relative sitting on one of the stools.
"Johnny? What are you doing here at this hour?" she asked him surprised.
"Hi Rose. Can't sleep. I'm bothered. How about you?" he casually said.
"I just wanted to have a drink. But, my thirst went away so Im going back now." She felt nervous, no not nervous but awkward around Johnny as it is. She didn't know why but she felt that way. It was strange
and has been going on for a long time so she decided to leave. She started to walk back to her room when Johnny called her back."Wait, Rose," Johnny held her hand. It was a Comforting touch. Not one
someone would really give to others."Shhh. You're going to wake Cait-" she tried to say but Johnny put his finger on Rose's lips. She felt hot and a surge of adrenaline swept
inside her. He pulled her out on the porch."Ever seen night here outside?" he whispered. Rose shook her head, her heart was thumping like when Jack taught her how to fly aboard the
ship. Slowly, Johnny held her hands and pointed to the stars. She couldn't move. She felt it totally normal to be in Johnathan Calvert's arms under the night sky. The stars were so bright perfectly
illuminating the streets below. They shone like diamonds over a pool of darkness.

"It's so beautiful." she went.
"It is." he said looking at her. He was Also amazed. The stars were never this beautiful. Johnny put his hands on Rose's waist. This, she was not aware. She was so taken by her scenery. She felt a wave of
familiarity just looking into the night sky with those small things sparkling. She turned around, faced him.
"Ive never seen anything like it."
He chuckled. "You've never looked at stars before?"
"Well, stars yes but here it's just so serene and peaceful and bright." she looked totally entralled. Johnny felt his heart do a leap at how innocent she was. Rose smiled, "Why do you think it's so bright over here?"
"To be honest," he said slowly. " I was going to show you night here. Just night around here, the scenery I mean. How everything just envelopes everything in serene blackness and not the stars. They're
not usually this bright." Rose's face showed a touch of confusion and Johnny tried his best to make amends. He just wanted to see her face happy again. Somehow, it made him smile. "Though they say that a star so bright to a person is actually a loved one who passed on." he said. Rose's mood changed altogether. She remembered Jack. If Jack is the star that is shining so bright above her watching her, she didn't want to see the star. She felt like Jack left her only to be watching her up there. She didn't want a star, she wanted a person but that person is gone.

"A loved one, huh?" she slowly whispered. "I'm tired. I just, just want to go to bed. G'night Johnny."
She turned to leave but before she could go, Johnny held her locked in place.

"Look at me Rose. Look me in the eye and tell me you don't in no way like me because I do you know and it's so hard to do so not knowing if I have a chance or something. I know we've become friends. I know you've learned to deal with me and in a way learned to trust me yes, I've felt that. But. What I'm trying to say is, do I have a chance with you because I believe you're the one I want to marry, you're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm not sure if you notice it or not, but I'm living each day trying to please you to get a smile on your face. I don't know what you've been through because you don't want to share it but that's okay, I'll understand you no matter what. So, now. Tell me. What Is it you feel?"A billion things rushed to Rose's mind. She wanted to tell him of what happened in the ship, who she really was, of who Jack was and that whatever happens she will only belong to one person but she couldn't, something made her not to say those things. Instead, she said.

"Johnny, are you proposing Marriage to me?"
Johnny looked taken aback. This was not the way he planned things to be but this would be the vest chance he got so Nodding, He picked himself up and managed to say barely looked surprised but inside she was a wave of emotions. Johnny was a good man and she didn't want to be away from the Calverts who were family to her now. This felt like a last chance for her to get if not her whole life, at least some back.

"I accept it then," she said with a lack of enthusiasm in her voice. Johnny couldn't sense it though he was too happy lavishing this very moment. He pulled Rose up and hugged her tight for the first time. He kissed Rose ever so passionately and hugged her again and again while Rose just stood there hugging him back looking at the stars. Her heart was bleeding, se was going to marry someone else. A tear fell down and she quickly wiped it saying it was tears of joy and Johnny didn't notice she was down. Unlike Jack, Johnny didn't know her every emotion or her every feeling but that was okay too. She didn't even know her own emotions. Come first thing the next morning, they would be telling the Calverts.