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Whack!
"What was that for!" Matt glared at Mello as wet snow dripped down the side of his head.
"Get off your fucking DS!" Mello chucked another snowball at his now red in the face friend when the snow hit his DS.
"If this breaks, you're buying me another one!" Matt waved his DS in the air before placing it on the bench and gathering snow into a ball. He chased Mello around the side of the building and chucked the snow. It missed… by a lot.
"Ha ha ha… MFG!" Mello fell face first into a pile of snow having tripped over a rock buried under the snow.
"Who's laughing now." Matt said and looked down at his blond friend. Mello rolled over and glared at him.
Matt sighed and extended his arm offering to hep Mello up. Mello took hold of his forearm and pulled him down into the snow beside him.
Mello smiled and turned his head towards a stunned Matt. They looked at each other for a moment and bust out laughing. Moments like this were the best. Moments when neither of them were worried about the pressure of becoming L or anything but that moment. Forget the outside world. Forget all their problems. Even Mello forgot that he should be keeping up his usual "evil" aura. Matt forgot about video games.
It started to snow again and flakes his their faces and stayed their like glitter until they melted and ran down their face. Mello closed his eyes and relaxed into the snow. It wasn't often that Matt saw him this relaxed while awake so he took those few precious seconds to look at his face. He looked so innocent and younger than usual without that hard scowl on his face or forced smile while around others. Only when Matt was around did Mello let his guard down. Matt felt the sudden urge to kiss this peaceful angel. He even started to learn forward before catching himself and laying back in the snow. He glared at the sky.
"It's not fair. If Mello were a chic I'd understand but he's my best friend. Why do I want him? It's not fair. I want to tell him but he's the kind of guy to shoot a persons head off if he thinks they'll get in the way. He has already voiced his thought on bisexuality. He's beat the crap out of one guy before because he claimed to have a crush on me…" Matt sighed and stood up.
"We should go inside Mello. If you want to sleep, don't sleep in the snow. You'll catch a cold."
"I don't want to move. I'm comfortable." Mello said but got up anyways. Matt rolled his eyes and started to walk back towards the front of the building.
"Oof." Matt turned around to find that Mello had fallen face first into the snow again by tripping over the same rock.
Mello sat up and glared at the rock hoping it would melt or disintegrate or disappear.
"I'm going to kill that rock." Mello said.
"You can't kill a rock smart one." Matt held out his hand once again for Mello. "Don't pull me down again."
"Only if you ask." Mello said suggestively and grabbed hold of his hand. Matt was to say the least, surprised when Mello said that. He pulled Mello to his feet and tried to pull his hand away but Mello wouldn't let go.
Matt looked at their entwined hands and then at Mello.
"If I fall, you fall." Was Mello's only answer. If only Matt wasn't so thick.
They ended up walking back holding hand and earning a few odd glances from some girls and the boy who had a "crush" on Matt. The boy's eyes widened and he ran off towards his friends and said something. They all turned their head to look at them and started snickering.
"Um. Mello, we're getting weird looks. Are you okay with that?" Matt would have blushed had his face not already been flushed from the cold.
"If they tease you about it, I'm pounding their face in." Mello looked at them and stuck his tongue out at them. Childish yes, but he didn't want that boy trying to steal Matt from him. They gaped for a moment and huddled together to gossip like old women.
They went inside and slipped out of their wet jackets and boots. Mello went so far as to take off his shirt earning a lecture from Matt on catching a cold.
"Just shut up Matt." Mello mumbled when they entered their bedroom and Matt continued his rant which had turned to health in general.
"Health is important!" Matt sat on the floor and reached into his pocket. His eyes closed and he let out an angry sigh.
"What?" Mello asked.
"My DS is still outside." Matt did not look impressed.
"Then go get it." Mello grumbled and pulled a bar of chocolate out of his bedside table drawer.
"No. You go get it. You made me forget it."
"How did I make you forget it?" Mello asked angered.
"By being so fuckable and cute in the snow." Matt scowled.
"What about my health that you were ranting about? I shouldn't go outside. I'll catch a cold!" Mello smirked slightly and Matt chucked the closest thing at Mello which happened to be an eraser. Very scary…
"You owe me if it's broken." Matt not-so-gracefully got up and stormed out of the room after his DS.
"Pfft. It's just a game… Look at me more than that game. It gets more attention than me." Had Mello been on drugs or something he would have cried but being the "evil" one he was he wasn't going to cry over being jealous of a game. He contented himself with finishing off his chocolate bar and starting another. He was resting on the floor with his back against the side of his bed. He leaned his head back so that it lay on the bed and stared up at the ceiling.
He looked at how it wasn't exactly white. It had a yellowish tint to it and a few brown spots of chocolate directly above him that had yet to be cleaned from Mello's "tantrum" (Mello refused to call it that) last year when Near beat him on an exam once again.
He closed his eyes and thought about earlier. Matt hadn't pulled away when he held his hand. Mello wanted to hop but it was probably because Matt was scared of Mello's wrath and they were best friends.
"When's Matt getting back?" Mello tilted his head and looked at his clock. "How long does it take to get a video game?" It had only been three minutes.
Mello sat there for another five minutes before getting up and opening Matt's drawer and scooped out at least two dozen DS games and seven computer games.
Matt opened the door and walked in just as Mello was shoving them in the garbage can, trying to make them fit.
"Mello!" Matt dropped his wet DS and pushed Mello to the side and started pulling out his games. "What the hell are you doing? I need those games!" Matt glared at him and placed his games back in the drawer.
"Why do you need them Matt? They're inanimate objects that turn your mind to mush!" Mello rolled his eyes. He got what he wanted for the moment. Matt's attention.
"Life is so boring here. There is nothing to do! Why do you eat chocolate? Because you like it, I play games because I like it and it makes life less boring." Matt shoved the drawer closed roughly.
"Life is boring? Maybe it wouldn't be boring if you paid attention to your surroundings instead of watching your video game all day long!"
"And what would I see if I paid attention Mello?" Matt looked at Mello through his goggles. "If you're a genius, then tell me what's so exciting that I'd discover!"
"You are so fucking blind! You know that!" Mello dropped his chocolate on the floor and moved quickly towards Matt. Matt thought he was going to get hit so he flinched back.
Mello was standing right in front of him. Just inches away. Matt blinked and wondered what Mello was going to do if not hit him.
Mello looked like he was going to say something but suddenly changed his mind and turned around. Matt thought he saw a tint of red on Mello's cheeks but he must have been mistaken. Mello never turns red unless he's angry but he didn't seem angry now. He was almost… embarrassed.
Mello picked up his chocolate and unwrapped the rest of it, took a bite, sat on the floor facing away from Matt and picked up the book he had been reading before with the other hand.
Matt sighed and opened his DS. He flipped the switch hoping it would work. It did and it seemed unharmed, just a bit damp. Mello could hear the sound of the DS and felt worse.
"What the fuck I thinking. I can't ever risk it. Never. Matt might think he has a boring life but if he just fucking looked around, I think maybe he might find that it's anything but boring. If he knew what I felt he could avoid me and his life wouldn't be boring or he could except it but it would never be the same. I can't fucking risk our friendship ever…" Mello bit his lip and turned the page of his book. He wasn't really reading it. He wondered if he had actually blushed or if his face just felt hot like when he got angry. It hadn't felt like it does when he's angry. It didn't feel hot anymore. He had cooled down enough. "I should tell him. It's not like he'll hate me or anything. I should tell him… He can't avoid me forever. We share the same room. If I have to I can beat the crap out of him or if he has a bad reaction I can just laugh it off…" Mello smiled and stood up with new found courage.
"Matt." Mello stood behind Matt and poked him in the head.
Matt paused the game. "What?" He asked irritated.
"Don't act so fucking grumpy." Mello smiled slightly. "I have to tell you something."
"Can it wait till I finish this level?" Matt un-paused the game and continued playing.
"Matt!" Mello pulled the game away and shut it off and tossed it onto the bed.
"Hey! I didn't get to save!" Matt stood up and Mello suddenly felt small (which doesn't happen often). Matt was indeed two inches taller than him.
"Um." Mello looked to the side and leaned slightly back but he had decided to tell him, so he would. "Matt. I… I…"
"Come on Mello. I want to get back to my game."
"I am… sort of… er. How do I put this." Mello looked down at the ground and Matt sighed irritated. "Fuck…um…"
"Mello." Matt threatened. He wanted to get abck to his game and wasn't waiting much longer.
"I am in… lo…gay." Mello couldn't say it. If he said he was in love with Matt it would be even worse. Saying he was gay was much easier.
"Great. Now I'm going to get back to my game." Matt moved around a stunned Mello and picked up his game and sat on his bed.
Mello felt his chest seize up. Matt wasn't even paying any attention to him when he said that. The only thing he cared about was his games. Stupid.
Mello could feel his eyes prick. He couldn't hold back the small amount of liquid that he quickly wiped away from his eyes. He couldn't stand to be in the same room as Matt at the moment.
He left towards the library, leaving his chocolate.
Aww. Mello isn't feeling the love T_T Please review so Matt can realise he's being an idiot and Mello will stop becoming an emo chocoholic!