Chapter 4 is here :) I hope you guys like and it's slightly fluffy :) Okay, a little more than fluffy :)

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Chapter 4

Who Am I Kidding?

Lucy P.O.V

I open my eyes and blink in the sunlight that streams through the window. I push my self up and freeze when I can't sit up. Natsu lies beside me, his nose touching my shoulder and his arm wrapped securely around my waist. I stare down at his face, relaxed and childlike. Every now and then he stirs, his nose nuzzling into my shoulder.

I blush and let my body flop back down. I don't have the heart to wake him, he looks so peaceful. I bring my hand up and run my fingers through his pink hair, smiling as he burrows closer to me. I'm beginning to remember why I fell in love with him in the first place.

I sit there for about an hour, running my finger through his hair, until he finally begins to wake up. I pull my hands from his hair and close my eyes, pretending to sleep. I don't want to see like a creep or anything.

"Luce," he mumbles, sitting up. I stay silent, hoping he'll get up and leave. I keep my breathing paced and low.

He moves slightly, hip pressing into mine. I stay perfectly still and try not to move.

"Luce, wake up sleepy head," he says, his breathe dancing across my cheek.

I crack open an eyelid slowly and freeze. His face in inches from mine, his eyes staring into mine. I blush but I can't seem to look away. My gaze flickers to his lips and I take a deep breathe.

"Natsu?" I say, looking back at his eyes. He stays silent, staring at me with confused eyes. "Natsu, what's wrong?"

"Nothing," he suddenly says, pulling away and grinning. "You ready for a day of remembering?"

I nod and watch him jump up, heading for the kitchen. I scramble out of bed, my face still flushed, and follow him. He begins pulling stuff from my cupboards, humming to himself.

"What are you doing?" I ask, placing my hands on my hips.

"Feeding us, what does it look like?" he answers, nto turning around.

"If my memory is right, you can't cook," I laugh, walking over and grabbing the boxes from his hands. "But I can. Sit down and try not to break anything."

"Aye!" he laughs, grinning. He flops into on of my chairs and I can feel his stare on my back.

I quickly pull together what I need and make us pancakes. I place strawberries and cream on mine, before grabbing a lighter and placing it on the table in front of Natsu, along with his plate. I sit next to him, shaking my head as he lights his pancakes and eats them whole. Ew.

"This is brilliant, Luce," he mumbles, still chewing. "I can't believe you remembered I like my food on fire."

"I remember quite a lot, actually," I say, taking a small bite of my pancakes. "In my sleep, that is. I remember mostly everyone from the guild, though a few faces are blurry. I remember running away, you finding me at Hargeon, the requests we've been on, the battles we've won. I remember-" I cut myself off and blush.

"You remember what?" Natsu asks, pushing his empty plate away. I blush harder and shake my head. I was about to say I remember loving him. Not a good idea.

"It's nothing. Doesn't matter," I say, raising my voice a little. He looks at me, head tilted and I can't help but think how cute he looks. Damn it Lucy! Stop that!

"You sure?" he asks. I nod and he smiles after a moment. "Well today I'm taking you on a walk."

"Where?" I ask. I'm still eating but I can see him eyeing my plate hopefully, so I finish one more pancake and push the plate towards him. His eyes light up and he grins at me before finishing what's left.

"You'll have to wait and see," he laughs, pushing the second plate away. His appetite never fails to amaze me.

"You finished," I laugh, eyeing the empty plates. He laughs too and nods, so I grab the dishes and lay them in the sink. I turn on the tap and let the water run over the plates, finally switching it off and running to the bathroom. "I'll be right back."

I take a quick bath, soaking in the warm, vanilla scented water. Jumping out I towel dry quickly, brush my hair and teeth, and slip back into my pajamas. I exit the bathroom and see Natsu curled up on my bed again, staring at the ceiling. I walk past him and grab a change of clothes out of my drawers, choosing a tan mini-shirt, green tank top and a brown belt.

"Hey, Luce?" Natsu murmurs, not moving an inch.

"Yeah," I say, rummaging through my underwear drawer.

"Do you blame me? For what happened, I mean," he says and I turn to stare at him. "I know you said you don't but I can't help but think that maybe, deep down, you do."

I stare at the side of his face, frowning slightly, before walking over and sitting beside him. I grab his hand and pull him up so he's facing me. I take his head between my palms and stare at him, shaking my head.

"Natsu," I say slowly, "you are my best friend. You have saved me so many times I've lost count. You're always there when I need you and you never fail to make me smile. Natsu, you are allowed to make mistakes. It's part of being human. And I know how sorry you are Natsu. I am your Nakama and I know you would never, ever hurt you Nakama. Not on purpose. So stop feeling like I blame you because I sure as hell do not. You're my closest friend beside Levy, do not think I hate you. Hell, I don't think I could ever hate you."

"Luce," he mumbles, before pulling me towards him and wrapping his arms around me. I lay my forehead on his shoulder, buried into the crook of his neck, and smile. We stay there for a while, wrapped in each others arm, before I pull away and smile at him, my eyes watering.

"I should get changed," I whisper, standing up.

"Um, yeah, of course," he says, scratching the back of his neck.

I grab my change of clothes from the bed and hurry to the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I change quickly and lean against the sink like I did last night. I'm falling for him all over again. I know I am. Damn, I hate being a girl with all these emotions and crap. I push away from the sink and walk out of the bathroom, smiling when I see Natsu still sitting on the bed in the exact same position.

"You okay?" I ask, walking over. He jumps slightly and grins up at me. Obviously in a world of his own.

"Yeah, never better," he says, still grinning. "You ready to go?"

I nod and he jumps up, grabbing my hand. He leads me from my apartment, only stopping long enough to let me lock up. Dragging me down the street, he chats the whole way about the guild, it's members and our missions. I remember these things but I don't stop him. I like hearing his voice warm every time he mentions the guild. I don't pay attention to where we are going, just to the way his lips moves as he says different words.

"We're here," he suddenly says, stopping. I look away from his face and grin. We're in the park, right beside the Sakura Trees. Petals float around us, disturbed in the morning breeze. I feel like I'm missing something about these trees. Something important.

I walk over to them, placing my right palm on the trunk of one of the trees. I stare up, my eyes tracing the decent of a petal. That's when it hits me. I sink to the ground, still staring up as the memory floods back. Me sick from a mission. The festival that I had to miss. The tree, in all it's colorful glory, floating along the river. The mysterious reattachment of said tree to the ground. He never did admit it was him but I know. Natsu was the one who unearthed the tree just so I wouldn't miss is bloom.

"Natsu," I choke out, bowing me head and smiling.

"What? What's wrong? Did you get hurt? Luce?" he panics, throwing himself down beside me and taking my arm.

I throw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him closer. I bury my face in his chest and half-laugh, half-cry, as he stutters and stammers, trying to work out if I've gone insane.

"I remember," I finally say, still clutching him to me. "About the tree and the festival. I remember it on the river and how it lit up the whole street. I remember how special and happy I felt. It was you wasn't it?" He stays silent and I fear he won't answer.

"Yeah," he finally gets out, "it was me. Happy helped a bit I guess, but I was mostly me."

I pull away and stare up at him, smiling and blinking away tears. He grins down at me, his hand reaching up to brush a tear away from my right cheek. I freeze as the tips of his fingers trace along my skin, leaving a small trail of warmth. His finger stop when the reach my chin and I dare not make a sound. I have no clue what's going on but Natsu's face is suddenly serious as he stares down at me. His head tilts forward and my eyes flutter shut. I wait, in silence.

And he licks my cheek.

I screech, shoving him away and staring in horror as he blinks back at me from the ground. I rub the back of my hand over my cheek and grimace. What the hell was that? I though he was going to kiss me. Stupid, good-for-nothing, fire-headed Dragon Slayer.

"What's wrong Luce?" Natsu asks, looking up at me as I stand up. I place my hands on my hips and glare down at him, a dark aura surrounding me.

"What's wrong?" I say, my voice deadly calm. "Hmm, lets think. You just licked my cheek when I though you- you..."

I break off, blushing, and turn away, breaking into a run across the park. I don't stop until I reach the other side, where the bridge acorss the river is. There, I sink to the ground, my back against the brick side of the bridge, and place my head in my hands, bringing my knees up to my chest. I won't cry. It's my fault. I know how dense and child-like he is. I was kidding myself if I thought he would love me like I love him. It would never happen.

I hear footsteps, but don't look up. I know it's him. He probably followed my scent here. I stay silent, staring at my knees through the gaps in my fingers. He stays silent to, but I hear him take a seat a little away from me. Hi breathing is labored making me guess he ran here after me. My breathing is the same, though less so. I have been sitting down longer than him.

We sit in silence and every minute we do, my heart breaks some more.

Ah yes, Natsu is still a dense idiot :) But, hey, we wouldn't love him if he wasn't :P

Anyway, till next time :)