THE DAY JUST WENT FROM BAD TO WORSE

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Chapter 17

*I am going to jump ahead a few days with this story. Tommy and Kimberly are both released from the hospital (him first of course as his injurys weren't serious). Tommy still has yet to see Kimberly but Kimberly has spent every night in her dreams with Lord Zedd and Emma. Kimberly has taken a short leave from school to help give her body time to heal.

It was around 4 pm and Tommy was sitting at the Youth Center with his friends. He knew they were trying to make him feel comfortable and try to help him through the pain he was in. Well trying in the way that they didn't directly address it but made themselves availiable just in case he wanted to talk. They also tried to give him some "normal teenage" time so that he could have a small break in his mind from the loss of the baby. He knew that he had become slightly more serious lately but honestly he was trying to grieve the best way he knew how. He wanted the baby back and he missed Kim. It was that simple. He didn't want anything more or less than that. He knew that he had within his grasp the chance of having Kimberly back but as each moment passes it keeps sliding further and further away from him. So he kept thinking back to what Lord Zedd had said to him during that one visit in his hospital room. "If you love her than be with her. If you don't than you need to let her go. Let her go now and get all the grief out of the way. It would be quite cruel to do it later. Just know this either way you decide if you are not there for her during this than you will lose her for good. You won't even have friendship left or a chance of it. You will become the point of her anger and resentment." He knew that Zedd was right but he wasn't sure what he was going to do about it. He desperately wanted to see Kimberly but somehow he could not make his body go to her. He knew that she was more than likely still devestated but he could not think of how to make it right for her. All he knew is that he was the person who needed to make it better. Today, he thought, today is the day that I am going to go to the hospital and see her. I have to hold her and somehow make this situation right.

"Tommy? TOMMY" Jason all but shouted

"Huh? Yea man" Tommy responded

"I was asking how Kimberly was doing? We would love to see her and was wondering if she was planning to join us in hanging out again."

"Um.. I am not sure. I haven't seen her since before the hospital. I am going there today though so I will ask her when I see her later." He shamefully admitted

"You haven't seen Kimmberly? Why?" Jason asked. He was outraged but wasn't sure if he should show it or not.

"I haven't. Look I know how that sounds but I haven't been able to face her or what we both are going through right now."

Jason digested that information before answering "I get that man but we have been here for you and you are telling me that no one has been there for her thus far. That is hardly fair since she is the one who was carrying the baby and the one who's body was affected by the loss." Everyone at the table was shocked that this topic because they wanted Tommy to be comfortable with them and not to regret coming to them and hanging out with them.

"I know Jason. Believe me I know. She knows that you all were at the hospital and were willing to see her but it was her choice to not see you all. So she is kind of also responsible for no one being there for her. It is not just me."

Jason's anger finally got the better of him and shouted out "HOW CAN YOU BE SO CARELESS WITH KIM'S EMOTIONS WHEN SHE WAS CARRYING YOUR BABY? IT'S LIKE YOU FORGOTTEN THAT SHE HAS A RIGHT TO GRIEVE OVER A BABY THAT WAS HALF HERS! SHE NEEDS YOU, NOT US. SHE PROBABLY WON'T SEE US AT ALL UNTIL SHE SEE'S YOU, YOU MORON!"

Tommy sat back shocked and realized that Jason was right. He was a complete moron in thinking that somehow his grief was worse than Kims or that he needed more attention than she did. He honestly didn't think that way when he found out about the baby but with the more attention he got the more he thought his grief mattered over hers. He was full of shame and sadness when he realized he simply never gave a thought to the fact that no one has visited Kim at all since she was in the hospital. But everyone was right in thinking that he should have been there by her side the moment that he found out about the baby. It should not have mattered if she was awake or not. He should have waited by her side until she woke. He should have been by her side as the doctor told her the news about the baby and he should have been there to hold her as she shed her first tears. If she would have been in the hospital for anything else he knew he would have been there in an instant. In fact he probably would have demanded them move his bed into her room so he could be there and sleep by her side.

"Your right Jason. It actually scares me about how right you are."

"Good now what are you going to do about it?"

"I swear on everything I am going to the hospital today and I am going to see her."

Jason nodded his head because he knew it was past time for Tommy to do this. He did feel though this was the best course of action that he could have decided to do. It just made him sick to think that his baby sister was going through such a horrible thing alone. If he would have known that sooner than he would have been by her side and be dammed what anyone else thought. Not one doctor or nurse would have been able to stop him from seeing her and holding her.

It was at that moment that Kimberly walked in to the Youth Center. Everyone knew something was up as soon as Jason saw her and he wore a shocked expression on his face. Tommy, who was sitting with his back to the door, didn't see her so as soon as Jason's face changed from anger to shocked he quickly asked "Are you okay bro?"

"Jason baby are you okay?" Kat asked. While Jason tried to answer her and Tommy she saw him struggle to say something so instead of waiting for him to answer she followed his line of vision and saw the young woman he was looking at. "Oh" was all she could say

Tommy who was still clueless about what was going on looked at Kat and said "Oh what?"

Jason still couldn't talk so instead he did all he could do.. He got up from his chair and walked over by Kimberly and just wrapped her in a big hug that only a brother could give. Everyone's eyes were on them as everyone was following Jason with their eyes since he got off his chair and walked away from the table. "Kim I am so glad that you are here" he whispered into her ear. "How have you been? Are you alright?"

Kimberly ever so slightly chuckled and said "I am getting there Jason, I really am."

"I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for you. We are all so sorry as we thought that Tommy was there for you so we tried to stay away to give you two some privacy with your grief. I will forever regret that you had to deal with this all by yourself."

"Thank you so much Jason. I truly love you for that and I am truly touched by your concern.. well all of yours. But I wasn't alone. I have someone who is helping me. I don't want to say to much but just know that I am not and will not be alone."

Jason nodded his head as his response. He wanted to ask the millions of questions that was filling his head with alarming speed but he wanted her to give her the choice to talk or not. He didn't want to push her as he just got her back and didn't want to lose her all over again. "I'm here Kim if and when you want to talk. No matter what it is you don't have to hide anything from me. I won't judge or tell your secrets. I just want you to know that anything you want to say in public or private I'm here and want to hear it."

Kim could feel her eyes fill with tears. "Thank you Jason. It truly means the world to me to hear that and trust me I more than likely take you up on that offer" she whispered.

Tommy was watching the two. He could not hear what was being said between them but he was jealous that Jason was the one holding her when his arms was aching to do so. As Jason and Kimberly's hug came to an end Tommy knew this was his chance to see, talk, and hold his beautiful. He made the choice to get up and he made his way over by them. As soon as Jason saw Tommy standing next to them he excused himself and went back to the table to give the two at least a few moments where they could talk. They weren't alone but at least they could talk without fear of someone over hearing them or interrupting them. They truly needed these precious moments as they were long over due.