THE DAY JUST WENT FROM BAD TO WORSE

I don't own anything though I wish I did sometimes. All the disclaimers still apply though.

Authors note: I do have a plan for Lord Zedd. I know how I have been writing him and it will have a strong purpose with this story.

Chapter 18

Kimberly stood in front of Tommy unsure what to say. She could feel her heart start to beat a bit faster and she wasn't sure if it was becasue she could finally see him and he was in touching range of her or because she was afraid of what he would say now that he finally saw her. He never did come and see her and she only had the doctors word that he had told Tommy about the baby and the loss of her. So she just decided to get it over with and she reached out and hugged Tommy. "Hi Tommy. I hope that you are doing well" she said rather shyly.

Tommy was actually shocked that Kimberly had reached for him and embraced him so quickly. As soon as he had seen her he had assumed that she would be truly mad that he had not seen her to this point. The only reason he is seeing her now is because she had shown up at their hang out spot and not because he came to her. It took her to come to him before he saw her. For that he was truly ashamed of himself. "Kimberly" he breathed against her neck "I missed you. How are you doing with everything."

Kimberly made the quick decision to make him feel better. She was in fact alright.. at night. It was during the day that she was struggling with. She wanted her daughter and not just in her dreams. Though she was happy to have her even in this small way and for that her grieving was not all that bad and she knew she had Lord Zedd to thank for that. Lord Zedd, that name brought a smile to her lips. That man was truly the angel she needed. Tommy would have been better but since he wasn't there Lord Zedd had become important to her and she is not giving him up for anyone... and that includes for Rita and Tommy. She needed Zedd right now as he is the one who gives her the chance to be with her baby and she wouldn't let anyone take him away from her. She would fight them all first before that happened. If he was gone, Emma would for sure be as well and that didn't sit well with Kimberly at all. "I'm okay Tommy. How are you doing?"

"I guess I have my good moments but also my bad" he admitted. "I would love to get together with you. I truly think that we need each other more than ever right now and I am truly sorry I haven't been there for you before now."

Kimberly let Tommy go and dismissed what he said with just a wave of her hand. "It's okay Tommy. I get it. It was not like we were together or anything and you don't owe me anything. If we were in love and you were mine than that would have been a different story. No worries. As for getting together sure why not. Just give me a call sometime and we can try and figure out a time that will work for the both of us. You have my number." With that she walked away from Tommy and walked over toward to the counter and ordered two smoothies to go. As soon as Ernie made them and she paid for the drinks she picked them up said her goodbyes and as she started to walk to the door. Tommy felt the panic spread all through his body when he realized that she intended to leave. He hurried and raced to Kimberly's side and said "Wait Kim." As she turned around he quickly continued "What do you mean if we were in love and if I were yours it would be a different story?"

Kimberly sighed and said "Well Tommy I have been in love with you for a long while. I do admit that I was starting to think that we were once again together and belonged to one another especially while we were captured. It is okay that it was all in my head. I was in a lot of pain and I guess I was confusing my love for you for love you may have had for me. It's okay. Honestly I am fine and I don't need you to feel guilty for not feeling the same." She meant to walk away but she felt Tommy grab her arm and turned her around to face him once more. "Kimberly there will never be a day for the rest of our lives that I will not think that you are mine. I believe with everything in me that you are mine and I am yours. Forever Kim. I love you. I loved you for what feels like my whole life and I want to continue to spend the rest of my life loving you. You are more perfect for me than I could have ever hoped for and I wouldn't change a single thing about you. I do regret the loss of our baby but that loss was not your fault."

Kimberly nodded her head. She knew it wasn't her fault. Lord Zedd told her that everyday and somehow she was at the most peace when she was with him and he was telling her that. "I know that Tommy. Ze.. well I hear it a lot that it wasn't my fault and I am starting to believe that person who tells me." Kimberly knew she had to get going. Lord Zedd was going to meet Kimberly at her house and she wanted to get home and meet him at the time he had availiable. So she reached for Tommys hand and put her hand in his and started shaking his hand saying "It was very nice to see you again Tommy. If you want to get together please call. I am sure we won't have much of a problem getting together." Then she quickly let go of his hand and walked out the door leaving a shocked Tommy and the rest of the group staring at where she had been standing just moments before.

Jason who had been watching the exchange with the rest of the group muttered "What the hell just happened?"

"Did she really just shake his hand as a way of goodbye?" asked Adam

"She did. We all saw her. Honestly I thought she would have kissed his cheek, ran into his arms crying, or something. She almost looked like she didn't have a care in the world." said Rocky

"Something is going on and I don't like it" said Kat. "Something or someone has captured her attention and I do not think this will turn out very well once we find what what it is and we get to the bottom of things."

"I agree Kat" Tanya said. "We all know she loves Tommy so that makes this whole meeting today just seem weird. Not only does she look okay but she is treating Tommy like a friend from the past that she isn't sure she likes now or not." Everyone nodded their heads at this.

"I think I am going to stop by her place tonight and find out what is going on" Jason said determined to get to the bottom of things.

Tommy walked back over to the table and sat back down with the gang. As soon as he sat down he was immeaditely asked a bunch of questions by everyone who was completely interested in why Kimberly was acting the way she was. He did the best he could to answer them but he was so shocked and hurt by what had happened he could not help but think "Is this what my not showing up right away did to her? She has completely turned away from me. How could she ever doubt my love for her and the future I want to have with her?" It was in that moment he felt the deepest sense of longing he has ever felt in his life. I should have just held her and kissed her senseless. Just then he remember once again what Lord Zedd said in the hospital. Not all of it but the part when he said "Just know this either way you decide if you are not there for her during this than you will lose her for good. You won't even have friendship left or a chance of it. You will become the point of her anger and resentment." He didn't think that he was at the point of her anger and resentment but he did think he was losing her or he has already lost her and that just wasn't something he could live with. He needed her back. He needed to just hold her and to lose himself in her. Now that he was realizing that Kimberly was no longer within his grasp , that he could no longer freely touch her, no longer to spill his deep secrets to her whenever he wanted sent him feeling more of a loss than he felt when he found out about the baby. All of the sudden he felt like he couldn't breathe. How could he deal with losing the baby and its mother? Never he decided. I would rather die before I would ever let that happen. Damn me for letting this happen. It should have been me there from the beginning and not this someone she was talking about. I am not going to turn into the man whom she used to love and who fathered the baby she lost. I will be the man who will spend everyday of my life loving her mind, body, and soul. I don't really care what I have to do, he thought, I will get my Kimberly back and this time I won't ever lose her again no matter what the situation is. But first I need to find out where she is at in order to fix what has been broken bewteen us.

Jason was watching Tommy and the more he watched him the more emotions crossed across his friends face. It was everything from being shocked, hurt, determined, deep longing, love, hope, and then back to determination. Because he could clearly see this he didn't need to ask what was on his friends mind as he already knew. And he also knew that no matter what he was going to fix whatever was broken when Tommy failed to comfort Kimberly and to take his place by her side during the time of the great loss they has experienced. All at once Jason knew what he had to do. "Um guys I am going to take off for a while. I will meet up with you all later." Kat looked at Jason with questions in her eyes but while searching for answers in Jason's face she must have seen what she was looking for because she nodded and said "I will see you later." He leaned down and quickly and gave Kat a soft kiss before he left to go find Kim.

*Authors note: I hope you all like this story. I am soon going to wind it up but the next 2 or 3 chapters may have a lot going on in them so I can do this.