THE DAY JUST WENT FROM BAD TO WORSE
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Chapter 20
Kimberly didn't know how long she stayed in Tommy's arms crying but it was nice to have him there to finally help her. She missed him and just finally realized how much. In an effort to make her more comfortable he carried her bridal style up the stairs to her bedroom and gently laid her on the bed. Once she was there he sat down on the bed and then decided to lay next to her. After he was laying down Kimberly laid her head on her chest and continued to cry. "Kimberly she is not all you have. You have me too and you will always have me."
"But Tommy I just got you. It is not like you have been there for me this whole time. I had to take care of myself. Granted it was ever so briefly before Lord Zedd came to me... but then he started to help me." she said as she slowly stopped crying. "You were there for me before, why not after? Was I tainted for you?"
"No Kimberly of course not. I realize now that I needed to do my grieving so that I could help you with yours. It doesn't make what happened right but I needed time to think and to feel. You are the most important person in the world to me and I had to take time so that I could completely put you first.. as it should have been all along."
"Tommy...?" she started slowly "you are not going to let me see Emma again are you?"
"Kimberly I would like it if you didn't. I can't really stop you but you need to know that Emma is with God now and she is not stuck in a dream somewhere. I believe that this Emma that you have been seeing is nothing more than what your heart has been yearing for."
Slowly Kimberly nodded her head and said "I can't promise you that I won't but I will try not to."
"That is all I ask" Tommy said
Tanya decided to go to the park to think. "Why not go to the swings? If it could work for Kimberly why not me?" she decided. She desperately wanted to talk things over with the other rangers but since she didn't feel as though she knew anyone well enough she figured she would try and work things out on her own. Ever since Kimberly and Tommy had been captured she has been doubting her abilities as a ranger. She knew she loved what she did with a passion but she knew she loved it because in theory she was saving the unknown people of the world from monsters. When it came to two people she had grown to care about all of the sudden she kind of felt like a little girl trying on her mothers dresses and being caught doing so. She may love it but she didn't want to continue doing it since those "unknown people" became two people who were near and dear to her heart. I am not sure that I can continue doing this since everytime I try and morph I get filled with fear and dread. "What I wouldn't give to find someone to take this power from me so that I could go back home where I belong."
Upon getting to the swings and sitting down it didn't take long for her to decide what she should do. "I am not going to tell the other rangers yet but I think as soon as I find someone who could take my powers I will transfer them and go back home. At least this way it should make me want it bad enough that I will actively seek my replacement."
The next few weeks went by quickly for some and ever so slowly for others. Kimberly seemed to be doing better but she still hadn't got her sparkle completely back. The gang was actively seeking her out and they were doing much more stuff together including sleep overs so that she wouldn't be alone. Lord Zedd had decided to stay away since he thought he may have been doing more harm than good and that was never his intention. Tommy only left Kimberly's side when necessary which is to say if it wasn't for school, teaching his classes, meals with his parents, battles, and sleep.. he was always with her.
Kimberly thought she was doing good with everything. The loss of the baby had been though and the losing of Emma had been awful as well. She knew she had associated the baby as Emma and to this day she still wasn't sure if Emma had been her baby or if Emma had been created as an outlet for her during such a dark time. She almost broke down a couple of times and sent for Lord Zedd but Tommy had been there and had suggested that perhaps they could seek some kind of counseling which would be a better outlet for them. So they had done that almost everyday since he had suggested it but recently the counsler thought they had reached a point where they no longer needed him. Of course he had also said they were welcomed back at any time he just thought they should try together now that they were at a better point.
Tommy almost wouldn't do anything but hold her hand or put his arm around her. Sometimes, just sometimes he would lie next to her in bed and let her cuddle to him until she fell asleep. It was always really hard to leave her on those nights. He probably would have stayed but when the gang wasn't having a sleep over he knew his parents expected him home and as great as they were being their understanding would only go so far and he knew it. So he would leave but never before he would write Kimberly a note explaining where he was and then laying it next to her on the opposite pillow so she would see it right away when she opened her eyes the next morning. Secretly thought he just wanted to kiss and hold Kimberly and make her his girlfriend again but he wasn't sure if she was ready and when he asked the counsler he had told him that he would know it when the time was right.
When Friday rolled around the gang was over at Kimberly's. It had been decided earlier in the week to do a movie/sleepover night. Everyone had set up their spots on the floor and laid down with their popcorn, candy, and soft drinks while watching the movie. This way if someone fell asleep it would be no big deal and the others would still be able to move feely around without the fear of stepping on someone. The group adored the star wars movies as it always felt kind of like what they do as rangers so that was what they were watching this night. They were determined to get through all of the star wars movies. Somewhere during the second movie Kimberly fell asleep snuggled close to Tommy. As much as this pleased the group to see them like this they were also worried because they didn't know how Kimberly would feel about it as it was hard for the rest of them to read her moods these days. They knew Tommy wanted to get back together with her and in all honestly they wanted it for him but a lot of things had happened between the two and no one knew if there was enough there anymore to build a relationship on. Even if there was enough to start a relationship would there be enough for them to come out better and stronger than ever before? Would it stay strong or would it easily sway in the wind? No one knew and no one wanted to ask.. especially Tommy.
When the second movie finished Tommy decided to carry Kimberly up to her bedroom. As soon as he moved to pick her up Jason quickly asked "Where are you going man?"
"Well Kimberly was having some minor muscle spasm's in her back earlier and I just thought it would be nice for her to sleep in her own bed tonight instead of the floor" he answered. "I am going to carry her, lay her down on her bed, and then I will come back down."
"Oh okay" Jason said "If you wanna lay next to her for a while go ahead. No one is gonna say anything if you wanna be alone for a while and we will all be fine down here." Becuase everyone was listening they quickly agreed with Jason.
"I will see you in a little bit" Tommy said laughing. With that he picked up Kimberly and walked up the steps with her.
"I like hanging out with them but I hope Tommy stay's up there with her tongiht" Rocky said. "I think that they need some time alone tonight."
"Yea and maybe that could lead them to getting back together" Adam added. Everyone nodded and said "I hope so."
Meanwhile...
As soon as Tommy laid Kimberly on the bed she seemed to wake up. "Tommy?" she said
"I'm here" replied Tommy "I was just laying you down on your bed just so you could rest more comfortably. I will go ahead and head back down stairs and join the others."
"No" she said as she grabbed his hand as he started to move away. "Stay with me tonight."
He wanted to he really did but he didn't want her to think he was taking advantage of her so he said "Perhaps tonight is not the best night for this but we can talk about it for another night though."
Kimberly felt kind of sad at these words so instead of letting him leave the room she said "Please, Please stay with me tonight Tommy. I don't want to be alone and I don't want to be without you. Just for tonight will you please stay with me? All night and not just until I fall asleep as I want you here even when I wake up in the morning" she all but begged
Tommy could feel him nodding his head and saying okay. He went over to shut the door and then walked back to the bed and laid next to Kim. Smiling softly to herself she laid her head on his chest and the two quickly fell asleep holding one another.