umm... ohh... hey guys.. yea... umm don't kill me for not updating! hahaha I missed you guys a lot! I can't tell ya how sorry I am for not updating! My life has been insanely crazy and busy and I never really had the time or heart to write. But thanx to my friend, LiveLifeToIt'sFullest47, I think I might be writing again! Thanks gurl! ;D

So guess what... I actually have a plot line for this story! YEAAA! so now that I know where this story is going, you can expect more updates. I promise I won't disappear on ya again!

Ta-da! Now wait no longer, here is chapter 4. and I really like how this turned out. ;p

3 months later

I don't know how long I can take it. I knew it was going to be hard with Peeta being hijacked. Except I didn't realize how emotionally draining it would be.

I've moved in with Peeta now, and it wouldn't be a problem if he wasn't always hijacked. Peeta knows I'm struggling. He feels bad and I know it but there is nothing we can do. There is nothing the doctors can do. We were there about 3 weeks ago. They said the hijack poison is starting to slowly wear off. This is great news except that when they say slowly, they really mean slowly. It could be years until he is fully himself again. I love Peeta and of course I am willing to wait that long for him is fully come back to be. The process of it has been excruciating.

There haven't been any main incidents. Peeta is learning to control them. He can't make them go away but at lease he doesn't always attack me. We could be in the middle of a normal conversation and his eyes darken, this is how I know. Normally I go into another room and close my eyes. I leave Peeta where he is, as he grips the edge of a chair, or any furniture close to him. I know it's over when I hear him walk into the room and feel his protective arms around me.

There was an incident about 2 months ago. I woke up to Peeta yelling at me. I kept my promise and I was able to lock myself in the bathroom. I knew it was safe to come out when I heard Peeta's soft soothing voice on the other end of the door, coaxing me out.

There really hasn't been anyone I can really turn to. I don't want Peeta to know how much I am struggling with this. It will only hurt him more. My mother, still working in another district, refusing to come back to District 12 because of the memories. Prim… I wish Prim was still here. Thankfully, Gale is visiting in a few days from District 2. He visits once in a while. He sometimes brings his girlfriend, Nina. But the last time he visited, she didn't come. Apparently they are no longer together. I wonder what happened. Gale deservers someone who loves him. He's my best friend and I miss him. I can tell him anything and right now, he's the only person I can talk to about this.

"Katniss?" I hear a soft voice call my name. He doesn't sound hijacked which is a good thing. I lay on the bed, resting my head on Peeta's arm. I'm curled up next to Peeta; our hands intertwined together and rest on his chest. I just woke up, and I'm still half asleep. I wonder how long Peeta's been awake, just waiting for me to wake up.

"Yes?" I ask with curiosity. I look up to see blue eyes gaze upon me. His lips curl into a small smile when our eyes meet.

"We'll make it through together. I promise," Peeta says, pulling me into him more. He knows how I feel and how much I struggle with it. I guess I don't hide it well enough. I feel like I've hurt him again. I know with the hijacking, he's hurting constantly but I've just made it worse. I have to say something that can reassure that I still love him no matter what we go through. Because it's the truth.

"I have no doubt," I say "I never did." Peeta leans down and kisses me on my forehead.

"I love you" I hear him whisper into my ear. I smile and before I can respond, he gets up and goes to the bathroom to take a shower.

The morning is the same as any other morning. We have breakfast together, then Peeta leaves for the bakery, and then I hop in the shower and get ready.

It's around noon when I hear the doorbell ring. Curiously, I place the book I was reading down on the table and I scurry to the door. I open it only to see my best friend standing in the door way.

"Hey Katnip! Surprise!" Gale says in a joking tone. It is a surprise. He wasn't supposed to be here for a few days. I laugh and he pulls me into a hug.

"Hey! You weren't supposed to be here for a few days!" I say.

"Yeah well, I was really looking forward to visiting and I needed to get away for a while. And I missed you," he replies.

"Oh well that's great! Come on in!" I say as I motion him into the living room where I was reading my book. It's a nice open room with a fire place and plush couches that I have fallen asleep on multiple times. "You hungry?" I ask him.

"Nah, I just ate near the hob when I visited some old friends," he answers.

"Alight then," I say as I sit next to him on the couch. After a brief moment of silence, Gale takes a deep breath and turns to me.

"So how have you been?" He says in a tone that catches my attention. It wasn't that greeting tone 'hi, how are you' kind of thing just to get a conversation started. He really wants to know how I've been. It's almost like he knows something is up and how stressed I am.

"Honestly," I start and I tell him. I don't hesitate when I tell him about Peeta and his hijacking. I talk to Gale so easily because he's my best friend. It feels good to talk about this to someone who cares.

"Wow.." Gale says when I'm finally finished. I feel like I've overwhelmed him with my problems. But when I ask about him, he tells me all about his ex-girlfriend Nina. They have been having problems and they finally ended about a month ago. But Gale still feels lonely. And I can understand that. I don't feel that now but I used to. That time period between the end of the rebellion and 3 months ago when we never spoke. It's possible that he and Nina could get back together like me and Peeta did but from what Gale's told me, I don't think it's going to happen.

"I just need someone who understands…" Gale trails off and turns and looks at me. I look back at him, feeling sorry for him. Our eyes lock for the first time in a long time. We don't say anything for a while. I don't know what to say. Finally, I'm about to offer for Gale to stay for dinner with Peeta and I but Gale's actions stop me.

He leans in close and I inch away. Before I can fully pull away, Gale's lips chase after mine and he kisses me.

So I really like how this turned out! and the good part is that I didn't have a hard time writing it. I find it easier to write about Gale being the 'bad guy' so this is how is going to turn out. sorry for you Gale lovers hahaha.

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