Even after night's sleep she didn't feel good, she had one of those restless sleep, those filled with memories of the wolves. How long ago did she had the same dream, being chase by them, and calling out to him...

she woke up with cold sweat on her forehead, wiping them off, she realized the sun has yet to rise, maybe going to see the sunrise would calm her a bit more, wearing her white satin night gown and walking thru the silent halls of the eastern castle...

the castle was on a hill one side of it faced the eastern sea of japan while the other side overlooked the main city of the eastern lands, 6 years ago, this castle was left to rot, since then this castle has been serving under her and striving...

the sun peaked out of the horizon and she let out a soft sigh, she would be the sun and he would always be the moon, times like these she is reminded why she still loved him, like the moon, he fascinated her...

one didn't see her lady till mid afternoon after she spent the morning working on anything that needed working on. But today she decided to have breakfast in the kitchens, walking into one, caused the maids to be really surprised.

'if its not a bother, is it alright to have my breakfast here?' she quizzed the nearest maid, 'yes my lady, I shall see to it'. She continue to sort her thoughts out while waiting on breakfast 'maybe firstly we should inform them of our displeasure' then if what I excepted come to pass, I would then impose trade sanctions'...

she felt that she was being a bit harsh, but if it continues, the east will get implicated, and that she wouldn't want to happen.

'someone tell general Kono I would like to see him around quarter to noon' she spoke to no one in particular, a guard replied 'yes my lady would there be anything else you would be needing?' she had a sad smile 'no that would be all' and continued with her thoughts.

she was working on the various new requests when general Kono announced his arrival, she decided to explain her 'reasons', 'come in', 'your lady you called for me' general Kono was in his half uniformed attire

'general Kono, the reason why I am sending you instead of attending is simply because I realized as a lady without being married in this day and age I would carry no weight, where else sending you I would be sending the message that I have a good general that I trust enough to send in my place.' this was a good reason she thought.

'You would be escorting the gifts to the western lands, the ones that I shall be picking out this evening, after that you shall return, I have already sent a messenger to ambassador Abe informing that he will attend the wedding on behalf as I have important matters like this pile of proposals, I would rather spend my time going thru them then going thru a ceremony that has no gratifications to the daily lives of the people of the eastern lands, and the same time do offer my congrats to the lord of the southern lands and do inform him that the proposal that he sent over for the trade pact needs to have some changes done, and offer my apologizes on the delay' she said a matter of factly. 'that is all, you may take your leave' She waved him out.

She just continued working on the proposals, mindlessly, her thoughts were on the subject of not attending the ceremony 'its better this way, for him, time has changed me a lot, I am no longer the little girl you brought up, I have to give considerations the people of the eastern lands, and my love for you was just a childish fantasy' she had a sad smile again, remembering all the things about him 'the reason was satisfactory, but the truth is that my heart would break into a million pieces if I were to go, seeing you again would break my resolve to forget about you' she sighed.

There was nothing much to decide with regards to the gifts that would be presented to the western lands, the usual food and various products of the eastern lands were included, the only thing left was which kimono to present, the eastern lands very renowned for they translucent silk kimonos, and usual it took 20 years to make one, mainly cause the silk used took a while to collect, looking at the current kimonos she had a selection to pick from.

She sighed, the black and blue one would do good, but there was the magnificent white kimono that was really intricate, but she didn't think giving it away was a good idea. Maybe to Kagome, she smiled, realizing that she didn't attend their wedding either its been like 3 years since she heard they had a pair of twins.

Maybe one day she would go see her, after all this years Kagome had been there for her many times, but the day she left the western castle she decided not to go seek shelter with them, mainly cause she would add to their burden, and she didn't want to be that burden. She wrapped the White kimono up and decided one day she'll go visit Kagome, she wondered how the kids were like, must be a handful. She smiled sadly...

Tonight she had a guest for dinner, he was just poking at his food again, 'its rare for you to come' she sighed, 'well thought I stop by, and offer my assistance to you, if you need it' he smiled, she just sighed, because he was who he was, he knew, without being told how she felt and at this times she was gratefully, having him here was really a relieve...

'you know I was wondering if you wanted to go riding tomorrow, I mean with all the work you do, you do deserve a break' he had a big grin on his face, sometimes its hard to say no to him, but she was grateful, make a change of scenery would take her mind off things...

and I can;t think of anything else LOL who is the mysterious guy, its not Sesshomaru obviously...

sorry for the hiatus, its Obon holiday , try to have the next chappie up soon XD I promise within this weekend XD

other then that meet Mr. A... lol he is... I should warn you guys that Rin has changed, she's not the innocent naive little girl, she has become very much like... yup this is not the worst... but it'll come to pass, some characters will get the shock of their life, others just shock beyond words...

I like my heroines strong LOL oh well XD

read and review please XD

Taraah36: he;s an idiot, updated XD sorry for the wait~~~

Animeroxs Rin-Sess and Inu-Kag: well kagome has twins with inuyasha, he wun dare cheat on her, he;s too busy looking after them LOL sesshy on the other hand LOL