I gotta admit I'm a little stuck on what to write next. Callie is my heart and that stunt Arizona pulled has me thrown so I can only imagine how Callie feels. I'm so conflicted. I love Calzona and want them to work this out but then again I'm tired of Arizona putting Callie through so much. I still don't know how I want Callie to handle this but I hope as I start writing it will come to me. I almost don't want to write this anymore. It was so hard to write the last two chapters but I found it to be cathartic. And the reviews made me smile so I guess I'll suck it up for you guys :) Shout out to that guest and Alex, thank you ;)
Again I do not own these people, just borrowing them for a while. No copyright infringement intended.
Oh and you might see some lines thrown in here from different characters from different seasons. I love their lines so much sometimes. Anyway, let me stop procrastinating, enjoy! (Reviews make me write faster though;)
The storm was finally letting up. It seemed like hours passed since Arizona had finished her recount of her indiscretions to her wife. She knew in reality it was only a few minutes but she was going crazy waiting for Callie to say something. Yell, scream, slap her, anything except what she was doing, which was nothing. No emotion on her face, and she had yet to even breathe so it seemed. The silence was so unbearably loud to Arizona. Any longer and she knew she would explode. She didn't wanna rush Callie but she couldn't take it anymore. "Callie, say something, please. Yell at me, hit me, do something!"
Callie just sat there. She didn't know what to say. Even if she had known what to say she knew her words would fail her. Hell her thoughts were currently failing her as she just sat there, numb. She felt nothing. For a woman who forever wore her heart on her sleeve and always seemed to carry the weight of the world on her shoulders, she felt nothing. For the first time she felt absolutely nothing. No pain, no hurt, no nothing. She should feel something right? She knew she should. She tried to think back to what she felt when George told her he cheated, but she remembered she was silent then too.
Arizona was met with more silence. So she just embraced it. She would just have to sit there until Callie said something. She felt like she should be grateful for the silence. Since once the silence was over she feared her wife would leave her.
The minutes turned into hours that Callie just sat there. Still unmoved, and still silent. She noticed that the rain had let up a little. It wasn't hitting the building as hard although it was still dark out. She had no idea what time it was but she knew it still wasn't morning and she knew the storm hadn't passed. She had to get outta there. She knew she shouldn't leave since she was probably still needed or would be needed soon down in the pit but she had to go.
Arizona, who had dosed off into a light sleep felt the cot she was sitting on stir. She looked up to see Callie making her way down the hallway to the elevator. She hoped up as quick as her legs would let her and went after her, "Callie where are you going," she asked her wife. Still nothing. As Callie got on the elevator Arizona thought whether she should follow Callie or just let her be until she was ready to talk. She thought the better of it and jumped on at the last possible moment. "Callie baby just talk to me," she pleaded. "Please don't do this please don't go, if you go know we don't stand a chance. We don't stand a chance if you go now, we won't be able to fix this. Calliope please, you have to give me a chance to show you how sorry I am," she felt the tears pool in the corner of her eyes and tried to reach out to Callie.
Callie sensed Arizona about to reach for her stepped back until her back met the wall. Luckily the elevator sounded signally she was at the right floor. She tried to get past Arizona but Arizona wouldn't let her by. "No Callie, okay? No, I'm not letting you go we have to talk about this," she tried to block Callie's exit but to no avail as Callie physically moved her out of her way. When Arizona turned around and realized where her wife was going she went after her again. "What are you doing? Callie she's sleep you can't wake her up and drag her outta here just let her sleep and we can talk about this," she tried to convince her wife not to disturb their daughter, again to no avail as Callie picked up a sleeping Sofia and carried her out the hospital nursery back towards the elevator.
Callie made her way to the elevator after gathering her daughters things without so much as a glance at Arizona. She was well on her way to exit the hospital with her and her daughters things in tow when she was stopped again by Bailey. "Callie there's no way you or that baby are going out into that storm out there!" her friend commanded.
"Bailey the storm has let up a little just let me go, please," her words where barely heard by her friend. "I can't fight with you on this Bailey, I don't have any more fight in me right now so just please, let me leave," her words were barely above a whisper it's a wonder Bailey heard anything.
Bailey had never seen her friend so broken before. She had half a mind to give her what she asked for and let her friend go but knew that wasn't a good idea. "Oh Callie," Bailey said, voice drenched in sorrow for her friend. "As much as I want to let you leave I can't, you know just as well as I that you and Sofia shouldn't be out in that storm. God forbid something should happen to you, I'd never forgive myself for that."
"Miranda please," Callie kept pleading.
"Callie what's wrong? Should I go get Arizona hold on here she comes now," Bailey started to move from her friend but felt a hand push her back.
"No Mandy keep her away from me," Bailey looked at her friend, she was so confused but when she looked into Callie's eyes she began to understand.
"Okay, okay, if that's what you want I can do that, but you can't leave this hospital with that baby in this weather. Just go find a somewhere where you and lil one can lay down and I'll keep her away okay?" Bailey pleaded with her friend. Here she goes yet again being drug into others problems.
"Okay," was all Callie said as she made her way down a hall to do what her friend said.
As Arizona started to follow Callie Bailey stopped her. "Ah hey no where you going," Bailey said more as a statement than a question.
"Excuse me Bailey but stay outta this, this is between me and Callie," Arizona said as she tried to get around Bailey, she was never the one to discuss the private matters of what was going on in her life to anyone other than her wife or Teddy.
"Let her be. You can't help her now," Bailey told Arizona. She was never one to take sides, she understood that it was always two sides to every story and she's yet to hear either one but she's far from dumb, she's got a good idea of what's going on here.
"If you would just let me by I know I could go talk to her, I have to make her listen Bailey," Arizona was crying now. She'd done so much of that these last couple of hours, she hated herself for not being able to hold it together. But based on the circumstances she figured she was allowed.
"She can't hear you right now Arizona, you have to give her time. She can't process this with you all in her face looking like that. It's not fair to her Arizona. She just needs a minute so she can think. There's nothing else you can do for her right now," Bailey saw Arizona start to crumple right in front of her eyes. She was so shocked to see Arizona let go of her emotions like that, she never let's people see her like that she always seemed so... put together. "Look, I don't know what's going on with you and Torres, well not for sure anyway but what I do know is that there are sick kids somewhere in this hospital and that should be where you are right now. Not down here," Bailey gestured with her hand to explain what she didn't know how to explain, "like this. Whatever you two are going through right now, there's nothing else you can do. So why don't you go do something you can do, and that's go help those sick kids."
Arizona knew Bailey was right. They were short on staff up on her ward and she knew she needed to get back up there. Maybe Bailey was right about giving Callie some room to think too. So she just nodded, pulled herself together and went to do the one thing she couldn't possibly screw up, her job.
So I'm not sure that's how I wanted to end this chapter but you know how these things can take on a mind of their own. It's shorter than what I wanted it to be but in the next chapter I want the storm to be over so Callie can get out of the confines of that hospital. Hope it wasn't totally terrible. Let me know what you think. Any ideas?