This morning is like no other. When I wake up, I've got Tegan clinging to me as tight as she can. I groan and kick her away when I notice her black eye and her swollen lip. I reach out to touch the purple skin underneath her eye and she scrunches her nose. I keep looking at her, wondering where in the world it came from and who in the hell would hurt Tegan like this. Then again, Tegan does have a short temper. I sigh, realizing that I miss her arms around me. I fucking hate that. I hate her. I hate Tegan more than anything. She turns me into a totally different person and it makes me angry.

Tegan's eyes flutter open and she stretches, sitting up. Her lip is bigger than I originally thought.

"What happened?" I ask, my voice barely audible.

I'm awfully terrified that I did that to her, or worse: we slept together again. Each time it happens, I tell myself it's the last, but it never is. She looks to me with a confused look on her face.

"Your eye," I say.

"O-oh," she stutters, "I got into a fight last night."

"What? With who?" I ask.

"You went into the bathroom with that bitch, Dahlia. Remember, my ex-girlfriend?" she starts and I already feel like absolute shit. I had a habit of repeatedly fucking Tegan's exes.

I nod and wait for her to continue.

"Anyways, she had a girlfriend. She saw you walk away with Dahlia and when she saw me, she thought I was you; so she punched me." Tegan tells me, her voice raspy.

I swallow hard, "What… what did I do with Dahlia?"

"Well, Dahlia offered you some cocaine. You decided that was alright, but it wasn't cocaine. It was actually Ketamine." Tegan says.

My heart drops to my stomach, "Did she rape me?"

Tegan shakes her head, "After her girlfriend punched me, I beat her ass and got kicked out. I sent Trixie in to find you. She said you and Dahlia were fully dressed."

"How do you know it wasn't coke?" I ask, out of curiosity.

Tegan sighs, standing up. "Trixie's brother drug tested you."

She walks out of my room, slamming the door so hard that the wall shakes. The blow causes a huge pain in my already aching head. I sigh, lying back down and looking at my cracked ceiling. I slowly fall back asleep.

When I wake up, I decide the first thing to do is shower. I grab a towel and strip down to nothing before wrapping the towel around my body and walk down to the bathroom. I open the door, seeing my twin on the toilet, completely nude and her hair soaked.

"Holy shit," I say as I immediately close the door.

I hear Tegan laugh and my face fills with color.

"I'm sorry," I call out to her, to which makes her open the door after flushing.

"It's not like you haven't seen it before," she smiles, still naked.

My eyes scan her body and I'm at a loss for words. Tegan just admitted it. She just told me she was… we…

I immediately push past her and vomit into the toilet, where Tegan's little bum sat not minutes ago. In the process, my towel as dropped down and now I'm naked. Tegan's at my side in a second, rubbing my back and questioning how I feel. I resist the urge to yell at her. I try my hardest not to snap. I just slowly pull away from her touch. I sit on the floor and she looks at me. I can't help my eyes from scanning up and down her curvaceous body. Tegan leans into me and my heart starts beating faster and faster. I push her back.

"Stop," I say in a hushed tone.

She doesn't move. She has tears in her eyes. Oh, no. What have I done? I panic because now Tegan's crying in front of me. She's sobbing, almost hysterically and I know how to fix it, but I'm so fucking scared of that.

Sorry that it's so short. Me and my girlfriend just broke up, so I'm upset. I couldn't write anymore.