Title: Carrying your life

Summary: Addison and Derek are trying to have a baby but could conceive. They try having another person carry their baby but what happens when Derek falls for her.

Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy. I don't own anything. If I did Meredith would not be in the water almost dieing.

Authors Note: The italics are thoughts. Sorry for not updating sooner. I have been really busy.

She decides

Meredith entered her fairly large, dark apartment. The house was quiet and empty. Her mother bought it for her when she decided to take the job she found for her. It was completely decorated and furnished by a designer and was not Meredith's taste. Meredith sat thinking in an over sized, plush, cream chair. She needed a simple answer. Her mother would probably fight with her if she knew Meredith was even considering having someone's baby. But Meredith had a connection with them for some reason or maybe it was just Derek the way he looked at her with such desperation like he was going to give up his dream. Then there was Addison she didn't look real motherly but they probably had a lot of money and could give the child anything they wanted and Derek would be a good father.

Maybe I should find out more information about them before I make a decision. I shouldn't say no unless I think it is unethical but I shouldn't just say yes because I feel bad about them. Meredith gets her laptop and googles Derek Shepherd.

Meredith clicks on an entry that was from a local newspaper in New Jersey and reads the article from seven years ago.

Dr. Derek Jonathon Shepherd got down on one knee on Thursday May 12th and popped the question to his girlfriend of three years Addison Michelle Forbes Montgomery. She delightedly squealed a yes. Derek spun around his beautiful fiancé before kissing her.

Meredith read further into the article and found out it was after they graduated Medical school and right before they started internship on her birthday. The article described Derek as a family oriented and loving guy. Addison was from a rich family and was an only child due to inherit everything. Meredith was really torn when she found another article about Derek and Addison traveling around the country in there first year as residents to help in needy hospitals. Will they have enough time for a baby? I don't want this child to grow up not feeling wanted. Meredith decided to think on it a little and went to her favorite bar in New York for a drink.

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Derek and Addison were in a restaurant with Mark and his flavor of the week. They were discussing their hectic day they spent in the hospital. Mark then remembered the appointment they had that morning.

"So OBMC, when is Mark Sloane going to add uncle to his business cards."

"OBMC Mark real clever, don't talk to my wife that way." Derek said laughing at the idiotic ways of his best friend.

"What is OBMC mean, honey?" Addison asked pouting her lower lip out slightly knowing Derek couldn't resist.

"Old boring married couple." Derek and Mark replied at the same time to Addison.

"Aren't I honey, sugar lips." Mark asked looking sad at Addison. She shook her head. "You never told me the outcome of your appointment."

"Meredith is thinking about it. We aren't going to call her for a few days incase she might be over whelmed." Addison nodded her head to this statement.

"Who wants to finish this conversation at the bar down the street?" Mark asked them all. The others nodded their heads in agreement with Mark.

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It was a busy night at The Apple Martini all of the regulars were there and out of town visitors. It had become the doctors' bar for most of the employees at New York Presbyterian-Hospital. There was always lots of young single women throwing themselves at the men, which Mark enjoyed, that displeased Addison. It became a symbol of the city where many tourists would stop by for a drink. The Apple Martini was one of the only bars in New York State itself to that had such a diverse group of people going to it. The interior was painted a calm blue. The room had a long bar that wrapped around a corner. The booths had just enough privacy to have an intimate setting for dates. The bar was light inside with big picture windows framing the view of New York.

Meredith Grey sat at the bar with a bottle of tequila and some boring man hitting on her. She was not interested today in being hit on by strange men. Meredith had a decision to make and was determined to make it tonight. The shot glass was still full on the bar she kept staring at it as if it would give her an answer. She tapped her manicured nails on the bar deep in thought not hearing a word the guy was saying about the stock market. The guy next to her wasn't taking the hint so she excused herself to the bathroom hoping he would move on.

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Addison, Derek, and Mark all arrived at the Apple Martini after dropping off Mark's special friend. They sat at there normal table in the dead center of the bar getting a glimpse at everything around.

"So tell me about Meredith. Is she going to carry your baby?" Mark asked Addi once Derek got up to retrieve their drinks.

"If it doesn't work out for some reason I am going to tell Derek that I cannot take it anymore. I don't even know if I want a baby anymore." Addison says looking down at the polished table. "Am I a terrible person if I don't? All Derek ever talks about is a baby. Our marriage is falling apart if we don't have a child I don't think our relationship will survive." Addison said with tears lining her eyes.

"Maybe you should talk to Derek about how you feel. It won't just go away if there is a baby." Mark was trying to be the better person even though he wanted Addison he knows Derek would be crushed without getting a baby and Addison would be crushed if their marriage ended. "Derek's coming back."

"Tell him I went to the bathroom." Addison dashed towards the bathroom so she could avoid a confrontation with Derek.

"Hey Mark, was that Addison that just ran by."

"No, Addi is in the bathroom." Huh that is strange it looked just like her Derek thought. "So what took you so long to get our drinks?"

"The bartender was busy it is a full house in here tonight."

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Meredith stood in front of a mirror in the bathroom fixing her make up trying to delay going back in the bar incase the guy was waiting for her. She heard the door slam open and shut and someone ran over to the sink next to her. Meredith glanced at the woman's disheveled appearance. Her eye liner had run down her face messing up her blush with tears. Meredith stared at her intently thinking she recognized her.

"Dr. Shepherd, are you okay." Addison looked over at the younger woman next to her and cracked a small smile.

"I am fine Meredith. Thank you for caring though." Meredith offers a smile back. "You should probably get back to your boyfriend."

"Oh, I don't have a boyfriend. My mother would get mad if my grades dropped third year of medical school. She has my life planned out." Meredith said shrugging her shoulders slightly. "Besides I don't want to go back out there yet some guy kept hitting on me not getting the hint that I wasn't interested."

"Oh, come and sit with Derek, Mark, and I." Addison looked at her pleadingly. "That will save you from the guy, and then you can meet Mark. He will be in the child's life if you have our baby. You can also get to know us better it will help you decide." Meredith nodded her head thinking that if she spent more time with them she would just know.

"Umm…I guess for a little bit."

"Good, good." Addison adjusted her make up and left the bathroom with Meredith.

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Derek and Mark were drinking beer and didn't even notice that Addison was gone for a while. She came walking back to the table confidently with Meredith in tow.

"Guess who I found in the bathroom."

"Meredith, it is great to see you." Derek stood up and pulled a chair over for Meredith. "Please join us. This is Mark you don't have to like him."

"Oh, I was just going to leave." Meredith said backing up slightly from the table not wanting to intrude.

"You don't have to. We are just having some drinks. Mark was asking about when he was going to be an uncle."

"Der, I mean you said she was pretty but god she is gorgeous. You would have some hot kids." Meredith blushed at this.

"Don't even think about sleeping with her. The last thing we need is for Meredith to not feel comfortable around you." Addison nodded her head in agreement.

"Umm…if you don't mind me asking can you tell me more about your friendship?" Meredith asked.

"Well Derek, Mark, and I met in medical school. I was Derek's girlfriend when Derek put up a flier for a roommate. Mark responded and then we started hanging together and all became really close. He is destine to be single. I think Mark slept with the entire city by the time we graduated medical school."

They all kept talking about life experiences and family through-out the night. They ended up barely drinking just sitting there talking until closing. Meredith felt comfortable that they could raise a child and even thought Mark would be a good influence in the child's life.

"I have made a decision incase you were wondering." Addison and Derek looked over at Meredith with hope in their eyes they got along with her better than any other possible surrogate they ever had.

"So…what did you decide?" Derek asked with a small smile gracing his face.

"I will have your baby. I think it will work we seem to really get along. You are all great people even Mark."

"I am offended that you think I am a bad person before meeting me." Mark pretended to be upset but Meredith saw right through it.

"I guess you can go and schedule your next appointment."

"Yes!" Derek said jumping out of his seat and hugging Meredith before going over to Addison and kissing her on the lips.