"Fuzzynose, have you decided yet?" I asked hopefully.
"Yes. I have." he said.
"What is your decision?" Shadowstar asked hopefully. There's no way he chose Shadowstar over me, his own sister.
"I've chosen to stay." he said.
"Stay where? With StormClan or with me?" I frowned. I looked into his blue eyes but they revealed nothing.
"I thought long and hard about which one to choose, you or Shadowstar. I realised it wasn't fair that you were trying to make me choose between the two of you. So I chose neither of you." he said, turning away from us.
"Fuzzynose! That doesn't even make sense. What do you mean that you chose neither of us?" Shadowstar frowned. How could he have chosen neither of us?
"I decided I was going to stay with my sons, I will make whatever decisions they do." he explained.
"Sons? But you're a medicine cat!" Shadowstar exclaimed.
"Yeah?" Fuzzynose scoffed.
"That's against the warrior code!" our father growled.
"Do not lecture me about the warrior code! Have you forgotten that our very existence is against the warrior code?" Fuzzynose retorted.
"I suppose you are right." Shadowstar sighed.
"Who are your sons?" I ask.
"Can't you guess?" he smiled. I glanced around the clearing, trying to find apprentices who looked like my brother in the tiniest way. My gaze rested on two white toms. I smiled, knowing they were his sons. They had to be, they had his pelt and their mother's bright green eyes.
"Those two." I smiled, flicking my tail towards them.
"Snakepaw and Frostpaw." he nodded.
"They are both medicine cat apprentices. They take after you." Shadowstar smiled. I could see a look of proudness in his eyes that I've never seen before.
"If they choose to stay here, I will help mentor them. I've already spoken to Cloudlight." Fuzzynose smiled.
"You are a wonderful medicine cat, StormClan is suffering a great loss if you stay here, Fuzzynose. But I will not stop you. It is your choice." Shadowstar said, dipping his head slowly.
"Mistycloud, you have no idea how horrible I have felt for my stupid mistakes. I tried to find you, I did. But I had to take Stormpaw and Fuzzynose to safety or I would have lost them too. I used to have nightmares, about that dog getting you. I had troubles sleeping, I didn't know what could have happened to you. At first I thought the dog had taken you, but then I thought I had just gone back to the wrong spot and you were sitting by yourself somewhere in that field, waiting for me to come. But I couldn't go back, I couldn't abandon your brothers as I had abandoned you. But then I saw you at the gathering. I thought it was crazy at first but then I saw you in battle, and then when we found you on the border. I knew it was really you. I was stupid to give you away the second time, but Bluesky had promised me you would be safe. She said you wouldn't be sad anymore." Shadowstar told me.
"What do you mean?" I frowned.
"The night before I was to meet with the other four leaders, Bluesky visited me in my dreams. She told me to mark you as Unwanted. That you would be safe and you wouldn't be sad anymore. So that was why I gave you the second time, because I was promised that you would be safe." he explained. He was looking out for me. He did care about me, I always thought it was because he hated, blamed be for everything.
"I was safe, but I was still sad. Shadowstar, I was alone. Almost like an outcast again." I told him, remembering when I was found as a kit. I felt alone, because I was the only cat who hadn't been born into that Clan.
"I know how it feels to be an outcast. I must go. I have to lead StormClan somewhere safe." Shadowstar sighed. Without another word he padded away. I felt a pain in my chest. It was the same pain I had felt all those moons ago when I watched him walk away from me, leaving me with the other Unwanteds.
"Shadowstar! Shadowstar wait!" I called, racing after him.
"Mistycloud, what is it?" he asked.
"Isn't there some way you could stay? With me, Tawnypaw and Fuzzynose?" I asked hopefully. I thought I hated him, but I was only confused. He is my father, there is no way I could hate him.
"I can't. I have to lead StormClan." he sighed.
"But why? Couldn't you just make Foxtail the leader? If you leave then Fuzzynose, Tawnypaw and me will never see you again and," I hesitated. I swallowed hard and looked into his amber eyes. "I don't want to lose you again." I finished.
"I'll see what I can do." Shadowstar smiled. I watched his black pelt disappear in the crowd of cats. I will not lose him again.