The accident ch7
SPOV
I kept flipping through the channels trying to find something, anything, to watch.
The doctors come in and ask me things, like "what's your name? Where are you? What happened to you?" I answer the same every time, "Stacia, hospital in Texas, car accident."
My father would come in all the time and monitor my memory.
But, the person I was most interested in hadn't come back. Only my father stayed…
"Hey dad" I said.
"Yes?" he responded through his newspaper.
"Who is the boy you had with you?"
He lowered his paper, "why?"
I played with my sheet, "Because, I'm…fond of him".
He shook his head with a smile, "Do you remember him?"
I smiled back, "not really, but I feel like I should…like he is quite important"
"Well you're not wrong" he said breathing in.
He went back to reading, "Dad" I started.
"Yes dear?" he responded. "Is he? Important I mean…" I asked sincerely.
He put down his paper once again, "Avi is a young man you met a little over a month ago. You took to him like water…he is a great kid and he is really fond of you as well. Avi is…Avi is also your boyfriend, or he was…" he explained.
He frowned, "Stacia, he damn near loves you…so be a bit gentle with him." I nodded and stared down at my sheets.
"When will he come to see me again?" I asked solemnly.
He looked at his watch and smiled, "he should be on his way now".
I smiled to myself and stared outside. The sun shone through my curtains and changed every few moments.
Several people moved around below and stood for conversation. I guess it was the amnesia, but everything seemed so much more beautiful.
My father stayed rather quiet; with the exception of the occasional page turn. I could hear several people in the hallway bustling around.
There are several patients in worse shape than me; they take priority.
The windows that lined my room were tinted a bit…I believe it was because there were several rays of sunlight beating in.
But I had an eerie feeling that you could still see inside my room. My attention went back to the window, over cast…
The door to my room opened and he came in…he had a beanie on his head and a smile across his lips.
I was momentarily stunned, this is my boyfriend?
This amazingly beautiful man is mine?
He loves me?
"Hey Stacia, how are you?" he said sitting in the chair my dad had vacated a moment ago.
"Hello?" I said accidently.
"It's me, Avi, we met last night" he explained.
"I'm aware, nice to see you again" I said.
Avi nodded to my father, he left us alone.
"I missed you" he said leaning forward on his knees.
I blushed, "I missed you too"
I don't even know why I said this; maybe subconsciously I did miss him.
Maybe, on a deep level, I remembered him; I don't really know.
He then showed my favorite thing about him so far, his smile.
The smile that stunned me once again…
All I could do was smile back, "So have you been eating a lot? Your appetite was one of the best I've seen" he explained.
"Well not really" I started.
"Really?"
"Yeah, doctor says that my brain needs time to remember what it wants" I explained.
I kept fiddling with my sheets. Avi nodded leaning back in the chair, "Well do you think you can walk to the cafeteria?"
I smiled, "Yes, I believe I can"
I moved from my bad for the first time since the accident.
My legs felt like lead and were all stiff. Avi stood giving me a hand so I could stand easier.
Standing was almost a chore…he smiled and said, "There you go, now, can you walk?"
"Um…maybe" I responded unsure of my own abilities.
He moved forward with my hand hoping I would follow his lead.
I stumbled, of course, never having walked on these legs before now. Avi just kept smiling and I tried to stay focused.
One foot in front of the other; Left, right, left right…
We started down the hall and walked slowly. All I could think as he went on and on about his…or our school was 'do I know these people?'
This girl Tia hasn't been to school in forever apparently and this guy Scott is talking to Avi about an acapella group.
He wants to do it but he doesn't want to leave. For some reason he was confiding in me about everything.
But, I liked it; he wasn't trying to make me remember things. He was talking to me like I was normal; like this happened every day.
We got far enough down the hall that the nurses started to smile my way.
The orderlies seemed to as well…everyone was…
Avi kept talking about school and people wishing me better days. My walking became almost effortless; before I knew it Avi was holding my hand down by his side like we were normal…
"Avi" I said interrupting him.
He stopped and looked confused, "Yes? Are you ok?"
He went to hold me up but I smiled at him, "How long have I known you?" I asked.
He smiled and met my gaze, "About six week's maybe…"
"Really?"
"Yes, and we have been inseparable" he explained.
I thought a moment, "have we ever….ya know" I asked.
"Ever what?"
"Had sex?" I said quickly and quietly.
"No, we haven't" he responded just as quickly.
I sighed from relief; I would have felt amazingly bad if he said yes.
"Hey Avi" I started again, "can I try something?"
"Yeah, of course" he responded facing me.
I brought my hand to his face and ran it along his cheek and jaw line.
He closed his eyes and smiled, it was so cute.
Then I leaned forward and lightly touched my lips to his.
He returned the motion and when I felt the moment I pulled away.
When I opened my eyes, his were still closed but he was smiling like a fool.
I smiled although he couldn't see it.
"It's so great to feel that again" he said, eyes still closed.
My hand was still on his face, feeling the unshaven line that connected to his goatee.
A feeling so familiar for me, but yet so foreign at the same time; he kept his eyes closed and a smile on his lips.
He was just so…adorable; but I felt so bad for him. To love someone who doesn't remember who he is.
"Why do you keep coming back?" I asked.
"Because I love you" he responded. I smiled and caressed his face once again.
"Why do you love me?" I asked. He opened his eyes and the smile on his face left…
"Because, you're beautiful, funny, fun, a good listener, understanding, lovely singer, smart" he explained enjoying my touch once again.
"I don't understand you" I said moving my hand from his jaw line to the curly hair that lay on his face.
He smiles "You don't have to". Avi grabbed my wandering hand and brought it to his chest.
I smiled, "what happens if I don't remember you?"
He smiled back, "you will…in time".