Chapter 11

APOV

What Stacia told me, killed me…

I broke down, everything was wrong.

She shouldn't be leaving yet; it's only been a weekend…

I cannot stand the thought of losing her completely…

I lost her once, I can't lose her again.

"My dada is at home packing" she said gripping me tighter.

"Stacia, its fine" I said when in reality it wasn't ok at all.

My eyes started tearing up and I started to sob faintly.

She gripped me even tighter then, "Avi, I don't want to leave you" she said.

That made it even worse…a few tears ran down my face and I held her close.

Her face was tucked into my shoulder and mine was sitting atop her head.

Her breathing kept up with her sighs and sobs.

"Stacia, I love you" I said almost too low for her to hear.

But she responded, "I love you too".

I scrunched my eyes tighter at her words.

Tears burned my cheeks and I hugged her harder.

We ended up walking over to her bed to sit together.

I lay back on her hospital bed and she cuddled up next to me.

I put my arm around her, put my head on hers, and just spent time with her.

Nothing was said, but we both knew that it was precious time we had…

Stacia played with my hand and the buttons on my shirt.

She unbuttoned one, then a second…

I looked down, "What are you doing?"

She smirked and kept on un-doing the buttons.

I grabbed her hand, "What are you doing?" I repeated.

"I want to remember what being with someone feels like" she said.

"Ok, so why are you un-doing my shirt?"

She pulled her hand loose from my grasp and put it on my, now, half bare chest.

"So I can feel you, not your shirt. Avi i…"" she started.

Don't get me wrong…I want her; but not here!

She rubbed my chest and cuddled closer.

I closed my eyes but quickly opened them because she was trying to get my attention.

I looked down at her, she kissed me then…

A long passionate kiss, followed by another, then another…

I don't know what it was, I felt like throwing myself on her…

We kept kissing until she giggled, "What?" I said almost breathless.

She giggled again and I opened my eyes. I followed her gaze; my jeans were a bit raised and I hadn't noticed.

I smiled and my face got hot, "So I guess you do want it huh?" she laughed.

"Never said I didn't" I responded.

Stacia smiled and kept kissing me. Her hand kept on rubbing my chest and her other was under her side.

My eyes were closed but I knew she was unbuttoning my pants.

I really wanted to let her do it, but I couldn't.

I grabbed her hand and stopped kissing her, "Stacia" I started but she cut me off.

"Yeah, I know, you can't right?"

I sighed and then smiled, "Stacia, I want you obviously, but not here".

"Why not? The blinds are closed and the doc won't be back…" she pressed while unzipping my pants.

I closed my eyes trying to get passed the urge, "Stacia, please" I tried to say.

But she didn't let up; her fingers skillfully worked over my chest.

I gave in…my hand went to her jaw and pulled her face to mine.

Her hand was fixed on my chest then to the curls lying on my face.

"I love you Avi"

"I love you too" I responded.