I wanted to thank my reviewer DBZGT, thanks for the words of encouragement; I have to admit if it wasn't for you it would have taken a lot longer for me to get back to this story.

Here's a small excerpt of the Chapter I will release on Monday 05/07/11, let me know what you guys think.

This one is for my reviewer Minnie—

Bra
another party, another guy, but after everything is all set and done I still feel empty—I want to feel truly alive…at least once. Was that too much to ask for?

We left Trunks and Pan a few minutes ago and the adrenaline from the party has completely left my system.

I'm dead inside. I want to feel the rush from before.

"You're fucking gorgeous" Jake nibbled my neck while my eyes adjusted to the dark bedroom. He was the host of this week's party and apparently I owed him a favor for graciously allowing me to attend his 'college-students-only-get-together'. There was a time when I'd be offended by him cornering me without even providing a simple introduction just to get me in his pants; I'd hurt severely because guys did not seem to find it worthwhile to know me before they screwed me…but not anymore, I built myself a superficial shell that no insult could crack. I was done with emotions yet I still craved them.

"Can we get this over with? I have to go soon" he was handsome, very much so compared to my previous encounters, but he still didn't make me feel that non-existent fire that made you burn with fervor. "Don't sound so uninterested" he said while stroking my bottom lip with his thumb, the smirk on his face ever so sleazy, "I'll show you what the grown boys can do" he pushed me back slowly so that I was sitting on top of the bed. "I promise you'll like it" I didn't like the grin on his face, it was over confident and gluttonous—I was clearly just another conquest…an illegal one at that; he was a thrill seeker.

What came next was pure ecstasy.

The foreplay was nothing I had experience before. His lips against the tenderest part of my body made me moan with pleasure. It drove me crazy and he had been right...he didn't disappoint. Then came the sex—the meaningless act of intimacy between two complete strangers…after he's done he walks off saying 'Thanks' with the same satisfied look that the rest give me and nothing else. I'm not worth more than that.

I know I look miserable every time I catch Goten sneaking a glance my way. "What's wrong?" he asks, not taking his eyes off the road this time. The hour and half we have left to get to my house is not enough time to explain to him what's wrong with me so I just shake my head to say 'nothing', although that could not be further from the truth. My parents have provided me with everything a girl could possibly want and still, I lack that certain spark…the enthusiasm and passion I see in others. I used to be jealous of Pan, she had the spark and then one day it was no longer there. I wanted to know what she had before that I seemed to have lacked my entire life, but asking was out of the question—it was our unwritten rule to not pry…so I stayed despondent. My phone vibrated so strongly that it startled me; a small envelope with 'Mom' written on it flashed across the screen. It was already five o'clock in the morning; about time my parent's noticed I was missing.

Mom: Where are you?
Me: Trunks'. Pan and I went to watch a late night movie with the boys. Text you when I'm actually awake.

Mom: Ok, give your brother a kiss for me.

Me: Will do.

It was so easy to fool my mother. Did she really believe that I was the perfect daughter? Beautiful, smart, with a bit of a wild side as she would often say, or did she actually know me for what I was, a deceitful and comatose wretch. It was sad that my persona was a complete fraud even to my parents and for once I wished I could remember what I was like before I became this way.

The tears that came trickling down my face were bitter and I did what I could to muffle my sobs with my hand before Goten realized that I was having a meltdown.

His warm hand grabbed me gently by the chin, "That doesn't look like nothing"

He brought the jeep to a slow stop in the isolated area we were in and the only light that stopped the darkness from engulfing us were the headlights of the car. "Come here" he whispered while reaching for me to lock me in a hug. The action caught me by surprise and though it was meant to make me feel better it just crushed my heart…no one had bothered to hold me, comfort me, like that in a while—and my cries just intensified.

"Bra…"

"Goten, why doesn't anybody love me?" I muttered between sobs into his chest. I really wanted to know the answer to that; why was it that I was never good enough to be more than everyone's one night stand, why was I not worth befriending? I just wanted someone to make me feel special, at least once…even that much was enough for me now."What?" he sounded incredulous. "Bra, what are you saying?" he pulled back to look into my teary eyes and I could tell that before I proclaimed this question he hadn't had the faintest idea that I was remotely emotionally distraught. "You have a family that adores you and you mean the world to your friends" he continued, "So what's making you feel that way?" I felt the warmth of his hand on my face, cupped tenderly on its side so that his thumb could wipe away the few tears that kept escaping my eyes and the soothing motion was making me better and sleepy. I wanted tonight to end already and I knew I could end the drama of tonight's chapter if I let it all out of my system.

So I did.

"I just had sex with a guy who doesn't know anything about me besides my name and it's not the first time I've done it either." I said flatly while staring at him, silently praying that it wouldn't change whatever way he saw me.

I felt his muscles tighten as he digested my every word, I wanted to seize the anger that was building up inside of him and let him know that unlike my first time the rest of them were my choice, but it was out of the question.

"Bra you have to stop" he said firmly "If not for you then for me, because I'd kill every single one of the bastards that dared touch you again". I could do that for him, because I cared more for his well being than mine.

" I promise". The jeep rumbled back to life as he kissed my for head, the seal to a deal between the two of us.