Chapter 2
The guys were all sitting outside on the porch talking about God knows what, while me and all the girls sat in the kitchen, eating snacks and talking.
"So Jacob punched him?" Kim asked shoving a chip into her mouth.
"Yup, and then he started shaking so I pulled him off Adam. Jake shifting in the middle of my school is the absolute last thing I need."
"Any of those guys shifting in any public place is the last thing anyone needs." Emily added.
This is what I love about hanging out with these girls, theres no secrets. We all know about the guys being werewolves. Claire's dating Quil, Rachel, Jake's sister, is dating Paul. Emily is engaged to Sam, Kim is with Embry and Audrey is dating Seth. Its so nice not having to hide it for a while. I hate not being able to tell my mom or Sierra what Jake is, but I simply can't. I'm pretty sure my mom has a feeling something about him is different, but she's never pried.
"I know, he got so upset and mad. I think he was more affected by the whole thing then me. I mean yeah I'm hurt and angry, but Jake...I don't know, he took it to a new level."
With that, they all looked at each other as if they knew something I didn't. It was really quick, I don't think they knew I noticed, so I didn't say anything. Weird…
"Well, thats a trait of being a werewolf," Rachel said. "All their emotions are heightened."
"And plus, think what you would do if a girl he was dating cheated on him." Kim said.
"That's totally true, I'd completely destroy her." I said, laughing.
"Who would you destroy nugget?" Jacob asked, coming in from outside with the rest of the guys.
"Any girl that would ever cheat on you," Claire answered for me, taking a sip of her drink.
"Yeah, like that would ever be necessary," Caleb answered, punching Jakes arm. I hate when they hit each other. It makes me nervous.
"Jacob would never date anyone, so he can't be cheated on!" Quil laughed loudly, walking over to Claire and putting his arm around her, kissing her on the temple. Must be nice…
"Will you guys shut up," Jacob muttered grabbing a handful of chips and eating them.
"Man, its time." Sam said seriously. Right after Sam said that, the room got eerily quiet and Jacob grabbed my arm.
"Come on, its time to go." He said, I could tell he was mad. Or maybe he was nervous?
"Uh, ok? Bye guys, see you soon…" I said confused as Jacob was shoving me out the door, "What the heck was that would Jacob?" I asked madly.
"Nothing."
"Jacob William Black tell me whats going on right now." I said sternly.
"You really have to use my middle name," he said with a strained smile.
"Come on, why can't you tell me? We tell each other everything. Or I thought we did anyway…"
"No, Al we do. I'm just not ready to tell you right now. But I promise you I will be soon. And Its nothing bad. Promise," he said smiling at me, grabbing my leg. "Come on lets get you home. Besides, I have to help your mom."
"Alright...fine." I said pushing his hand off my leg and staring out the window.
"Aw come on nugget don't be like that. I told you-"
"Yeah, your not ready. Remind me of that next time theres something you wanna know about me." I said to him as he pulled into my driveway. "You know what, I kinda just want to be alone. Ill tell my mom you'll help her tomorrow." I said getting out of the car.
"Nugget-" he started, reaching for me.
"Jacob. Don't. I'll see you soon I guess." I said slamming the car door and walking inside. As soon as the front door shut I leaned on the front door and sunk to the floor.
"Hey honey, whats wrong?" my mom asked coming in from the living room and sitting down next to me.
"This was just a horrible day mom, just so horrible."
"I know honey, wheres Jacob?" she asked stroking my hair.
"Ugh don't even. I told him not to come in. Apparently theres something he's not telling me but 'he will tell me when he's ready.'" I said mocking him, "I mean seriously whats up with that? We've been inseparable for years and now he chooses to start keeping things from me? Like honestly!"
"Alex, relax. He said he's going to tell you. Respect the fact that he's not ready to tell you. Maybe he hasn't told anyone."
"No he obviously told all his friends. And I'm pretty sure all their girlfriends know too. I seem to be the only one in the outs." I said wiping an escaping tear.
"He loves you, anyone can see that. Give him time." She said getting up from the floor. "Don't worry, he'll come around. So what do you want for dinner?"
"I don't care mom. I'm going to go call Sierra and see if she wants to come over."
I got up and walked up our huge staircase and into my room, shutting the door. I love my room, its like my safe haven. Its huge, and decorated perfectly. Its all white with silver accents and mirrored furniture. My king sized bed is in the middle of my room with a flowy angelic canopy above it, I have a vanity to house all my makeup and hair products, a sitting area with a flat screen TV, a desk with my iMac and all my school things, and my favorite part of my room, my window seat. I have a huge bay window in my room with a cushy seat on it. On either side of the window I have custom bookshelves to fit all my books and my ever growing collection.
I plopped down on my window seat and pulled out my phone to dial Sierra. I have 4 missed calls from Jake. I ignored those and dialed Sierra.
"Hey! I was just going to call you, I saw Jacob drop you off. Are you ok?"
"Can you come over?" I replied, sniffing to hold back tears.
"On my way."
"So everyone knows but you? Thats so bizarre Alex." She said sitting cross legged on my bed with me.
"I know and I'm really upset," I said wiping my tear with a tissue, "like why will he not tell me what it is? I don't understand I thought we told each other everything."
"Honey this is why you can't trust a man," she said eating one of the cookies my mom had brought up. "And this is why we have each other."
"I know, but, I don't know," I said sighing eating my third cookie.
"Al, why won't you just admit how you feel about him. You can tell me who will I tell? I have no other friends." she said laughing.
"I know you'd never tell anyone anything I tell you Sierra, but I honestly don't even know how I feel about him. Up until recently I didn't view him as anything but a brother figure, and now...I have no idea."
"I know I tease you a lot about him, but I honestly think that his feelings for you are much stronger then friends. He's been around for years. No guy stays around for years if there aren't strong feelings there. Unless they're gay."
"Ah, words of wisdom from my best friend everyone."
"I'm very insightful. But seriously, I just know that theres something more there."
With that my phone started ringing, again.
"Will you pick up the damn phone already! The poor guy is probably sitting home alone crying over how you won't talk to him."
"Ugh fine," I said answering the phone, "Yes?" I answered.
"Hey! You answered!"
"Yup, I did."
"Listen I wont keep you cause I know your pissed at me but I just wanted to let you know I can't drive you to school tomorrow, I'll be with the pack on a run."
"Sure, whatever." I said sounding bored.
"Nugget, please don't be like this." He said sighing and sounding sad. Sierra was just staring at me with an anxious look on her face.
"Jacob, I'm busy right now. I can't deal with this. Go talk to all your real friends. You know, the ones you actually tell things to."
"Ale-!" He began to say, but I hung up before he could respond.
"A little harsh, don't you think hun?"
"Too much?"
"Uh yea, just a tad. What did he want?" she asked eating another cookie. We seriously need to stop eating these things.
"To tell me he can't drive me to school tomorrow. So which car are we taking, your dads beamer or my dads porsche?"
"Definitely the porsche."
The next day, in the hour time frame as I was getting dressed for school, Jacob texted me 13 times and called me 5 times. All of which I ignored. Before I left my room I double checked myself in the mirror. I was wearing vintage Levi cutoffs Sierra and I found in a boutique, and a BCBG 3/4 sleeve top with my Tory Burch wedges. Looks good to me.
As I entered the kitchen, I saw Sierra and my mom sitting on the bar stools drinking coffee and eating muffins.
"Good morning honey," my mom greeted me handing me a muffin. "How are you doing today?"
"Eh, the same. Ill be okay. Maybe I can actually make it through the school day today! I certainly hope I get to see Adam sucking face with that slut again this morning. Certainly a banner way to start my day."
"If we see that again I will literally flip! So he better hope thats not what he's doing" Sierra said getting up from the stool and grabbing her schoolbag.
"Time to go, this should be interesting. Bye mom!" I yelled at we shut the door.
"So, let me fill you in on yesterdays shenanigans," Sierra began at she climbed into the passenger seat of my dads porsche.
As I pulled away from from the house, and Sierra began her rant about some guy in her trig class dropping his books on her foot, my mind drifted to Jacob. I don't understand what this could be about that he can't tell me. Well, can't tell me yet anyway. I'm so confused. And my confusion continues with these strange feelings I'm suddenly having for a guy who I've viewed as an older brother for most of my life. Why wasn't I more upset about Adam cheating on me? Because I had Jacob. I always have had Jacob.
"Alex! Are you even listening?" Sierra shouted at me once she realized I zoned out.
"He's always around, isn't he?" I asked, staring ahead at the road.
"Jacob? Yeah he is." She said smiling at me.
"Sierra, I think I love him. In a way I shouldn't." I said pulling into a parking spot at school.
"Then you need to tell him."
"I can't tell him, I'll lose him if I do…"
"Why would you lose him?" she asked confused, "I don't think you could do or say anything that would get that boy out of your life."
"I don't know, I'm nervous. All I know is I have the sudden urge to kiss him, even though I'm still mad at him."
"Oh man...let's go pick out my maid of honor dress right after school."