Chapter 5

Oh my God, I cannot stop shaking. I went over to my window and peered outside to see Jake practically sprinting to my window.

"Hey," he whispered climbing the tree next to my window.

"Be careful!" I laughed as he swung his body into my window, landing on the floor. He got himself up and pulled me into a hug. "You look adorable," he laughed, looking at my pajamas.

"Oh stop," I said shaking climbing into bed, "I do not."

"You do though. So what do you want to do?" he asked me, just standing in front of my bed.

"I'm pretty tired I kind of just wanna relax. Do you mind?"

"Not at all. I'm with you, I don't care what we do." he said shoving his hands in his pockets.

"Jacob, you know you can come lay down right? Did you expect to sleep on the floor?"

He laughed, walking over to my bed, "I didn't know what to expect honestly but I truly don't care. Whatever you want to happen tonight will happen." He said crawling into bed next to me, wrapping his arms around me, "So uh, what exactly is going to happen?"

"Honestly I didn't even think that far ahead. To be honest I'm completely freaked out and nervous right now and I kind of just want to crawl in a hole and die." I said covering my head with the blanket.

"Baby," he laughed pulling me up. "Relax. If we stay up all night just talking it'll be perfect. You don't get how I feel about you. Whatever you want or need is enough for me."

He grabbed me in his arms and kissed me on the forehead. When I looked up at him, I saw that he was just staring down at me smiling.

I smiled at him, "Your cute."

I leaned up and hugged him so tight. I pulled myself all the way up his body and nestled my head in the crook of his neck and closed my eyes.

"This is really nice," he sighed kissing the side of my head.

"It would be nicer if you were shirtless," I giggled, reaching for the hem of his shirt.

"Oh would it?" he laughed.

"It definitely would." I replied lifting it and kissing his neck.

"You sure you can handle me shirtless babe?"

"I've seen you shirtless before Jacob!" I laughed nudging his leg.

"Yeah, I know. But you haven't seen me shirtless since we've been together. I hope it'll have a different effect on you now." he said laying on his side, leaning his head in his hand staring over at me.

"It'll probably have the same effect on me as it did before," I smiled.

"Oh…"

"Jacob, I've been attracted to you for a long time. That wasn't an insult." I said stroking his arm.

"Seriously? You have? How long!" he asked excitedly.

I rolled over on my side looking at him, giggling, "Jacob your 6'5" with jet black hair, caramel skin, light brown eyes, and muscles that sometimes frighten me. Yeah, I'm serious."

"Well someone's noticed me a lot lately. When did you start thinking of me differently?"

"I've honestly always thought you were attractive but I never thought anything would ever happen between us because your older then me." I said shyly.

"I've waited a really long time for something to finally happen between us and I'm so glad it did."

"Well was I worth the wait?" I giggled.

"You are worth everything," he said leaning down to kiss me.

I grabbed his face and held him tightly against me. He rolled his body on top of mine and placed one hand on my face and the other on my side.

"Mmm Alex…" He moaned as I moved my hands from his face slowly tracing lines down the sides of his body. When I reached the hem of his shirt, I pulled it off of him in one quick movement. I ran my hands over his chest, abs, bulging arm muscles, and moved them over to his back settling them in the crook of his lower back.

We were making out so passionately that my head was spinning, I couldn't think straight. He positioned his body over me and was lightly pushing against me. I could definitely feel that he was just as, if not more, excited as I was. Holy crap, even from inside his pants and underwear, he seems HUGE. I am officially scared to death.

He reached down to my shirt and pulled it off my body so quickly I almost didn't notice he took it off. Thank God I changed into my lacy black bra before he got here. I rolled him over so that I was on top of him, straddling his abnormally huge body. He is pure muscle on every inch of his body.

I leaned down to look at him, my hair falling over my shoulders brushing his chest. I looked into his eyes and said, "I need you in my life Jacob. I can't be without you."

"Oh baby," he moaned placing his hands on my hips, "I need you more then you can ever imagine."

He sat up so that I was sitting in his lap, with my legs wrapped around his back. My arms were gripped around his neck and he placed his under my butt. I could feel just how hard he was, more then before if thats even possible. He started kissing me slowly at first, and then faster with more passion. When things started to get a little out of hand, he stopped and looked straight into my eyes.

"I can't do this right now baby," he sighed, stroking the side of my face with his finger and kissing my cheek.

"Huh?" I looked at him extremely confused.

"Your not ready," he smiled looking at me, "and thats ok. I told you ill wait for you forever if I have to."

"But I never told you I wasn't ready," I answered embarrassingly.

"I know you better then you know yourself. I know your not. And you don't have to be, your seventeen and we just started dating."

"Yeah but we've known each other almost 10 years..." I said looking down and seeing that in the position we were in, he was painfully close to me.

"That doesn't matter nugget, if your not ready for 10 more years its fine." he said squeezing me tight.

"Oh trust me it wont be another 10 years," I laughed falling on top of him so that we were laying down on top of each other, just holding one another.

"Thank God!" he exclaimed holding me and kissing my forehead.

"I'm sorry Jake, it has nothing to do with you," I sighed leaning into his chest.

"I never thought it did. Don't worry about it babe."

"When I'm ready, you'll be the first to know," I smiled up at him.

"Sounds good to me. So you know what I find really funny?"

"Whats that?"

"The size different between the two of us. Just look at it! Even just laying here next to you I feel like a giant." he laughed looking down at us.

"Well, you kind of are a giant. Your 6'5" thats kind of insane. The fact that I'm only 5'2" doesn't help much either."

"I love how small you are, can you imagine how ridiculous we would look together if you were as big as I am!" he said cracking up.

I giggled and squeezed him tight, looking up at him, "Jacob, I love you so much,"

"I love you too nugget, more then you could ever imagine." he smiled, kissing my temple.

"So how are we going to do this? Are you going to leave really early and then come back to take me and Sierra to school?" I asked.

"Whatever you think, but I don't think I can pick you guys up from school. I'm pretty sure I have a meeting."

"Oh, okay. Then I guess I'll just drive us, its no big deal."

"Are you sure? I want to make sure Adam doesn't bother you." Jake answered.

"Honey I don't think he'll bother me, but if it makes you more comfortable to drop me off I can just ask my mom to pick us up."

"Ok that will work," he sighed in relief, "enough talking about that though. I need to kiss you more."

He leaned down and pulled me up towards him to kiss me. His kisses make my head spin. I've never felt like this during a kiss with any other guy in my life. He makes me want to do things I've never had a desire to do.

"Jake," I sighed pulling away.

"Mmm, what baby?" he answered in a extremely sexy, husky voice.

"So what...do you think...we are ready for?" I asked him, feeling a little bit embarrassed. Ive never done anything like this before with anyone! I wouldn't even know what to do. I'm sure he does though…

"Whatever your ready for," he sighed and rolled onto his back, closing his eyes and placing his arm over his eyes.

"Whats wrong?"

"Alex, I don't know if you noticed, but I really want you." he laughed at himself.

"Jacob, ugh never mind." I buried my head under the covers.

"No, no tell me. I don't care if its embarrassing baby I want you to tell me everything."

"I don't know what to do with it!"

He rolled over and looked at me, "What are you talking about?"

"You know what I'm talking about Jacob!" I freaked, "I know nothing about these kinds of things." I said quietly, looking down.

"Wait a second…" he pondered, "are you telling me you've never…"

"Never." I sighed.

"So, your a virgin?" he smiled widely.

"The only thing I've ever done is kiss, Jacob. Thats it."

With that, he rolled on top of me and grabbed my face in both of his hands with the biggest smile I've ever seen. He started kissing short strong kisses all over my face.

"What're you doing!" I laughed, squirming underneath him.

"I'm just so happy! I always assumed that you weren't, I never brought myself to ask you because I honestly didn't want to know the answer." He squeezed me into a huge hug.

"Well, I always wanted to wait until I was completely in love with someone, and I've never had that." I looked at him and smiled, "Until now."