"Bring in the tachycardia now!"

"He's going into shock!"

"Goddammit someone stop his bleeding right now!"

"Sir, the… the wound is closing itself slowly."

"Bollocks, let me… sweet mother of god, what is that thing in his body?"

"I don't know sir, I honestly don't know."

"Brain activity is dropping. He's going into a coma."

"Fuck, try to keep him stable and GET HIM BACK!"

It's no use. As long as you haven't accepted who you are, you'll be in this state. So buckle up and prepare for a trip down Memory Lane, followed by a descending into your personal hell. I can't guarantee that you'll keep your sanity but I assure you ,you'll never be the same again.

Two weeks ago, 07/04/20xx 9.05 am

I was lying on the wall that divided the seats from the pit of the Arena, peacefully enjoying Cecilia's company and the good weather. It was a comfortable spring temperature, the sky was clear with the occasional small white cloud and a notebook was sent flying towards my direction… wait, that's not peaceful at all, is it? The notebook hit my shields with the familiar sounding *THUD* and a message came with the amount of damage.

Remaining Shield Points: 645/650

Let's see, the shields' strength increased with 40%, so that means that the damage right now is only 60% of the usual… either she really missed me, she's really pissed off or this class getting to her. And judging by the look of her face I'm going for number two and three. It would be totally wrong and insane to piss her off even more… but then again, right and wrong are relative concepts and sanity is highly overrated sometimes.

"Hi Chi-chan! Did you miss me?" I yelled while waving with a childish smile. Her scowl deepened, which off the record I thought was impossible, and she took a pebble that lied on the ground. Her killing aura manifested itself in a dark aura around her as she stood still, like she was contemplating something. She really needs to learn me that aura trick that's just friggin awesome. She made a throwing move with her arm and a whistling sound pierced the sky.

*THUD*

Remaining Shield Points: 639/650

…

…

…

Holy shit, that pebble would've killed me if I didn't have these shields. I'll stop… for now at least.

"Garisaka, could you please explain why you and miss Alcott weren't in class the first hour?" Chi-sensei asked me with that threatening aura. Hmm, I'd best not tell the truth.

"well, I arrived at this place around 5 in the morning, so I decided to catch some sleep before class started. For some reason Cecilia was sleeping in my bed, not that I minded it, and I just lay myself right next to her and for some reason we woke up around 8.20, so instead of being rude and barging in in the middle of class, we immediately got ready for the practical lesson." I lied with a poker face. Well, it isn't lying if you only let a few details out. Chi-sensei's killing aura dropped a bit as she seemed to think about something. Please believe it, please believe it, please believe it.

"Very well, I'll let you off the hook this time…"

YES!

"But Garisaka, you have to join me in a sparring session after class for wearing jogging pants and a shirt instead of the provided suit."

I'm fucked, aren't I?

"totally."

G, that was a rhetorical question. But thanks anyway for the confirmation and dampening of my spirits.

"You're welcome."

Superstes, please make her shut up.

"What's he gonna HMMPHH *CRASH* *THUD* *BANG*..."

Aahh sweet silence. Thanks Superstes.

"Any time Haru-dono."

"For this lesson we're going to start with an demonstration. Alcott, Garisaka, Orimura deploy your IS!" Chi-sensei barked. Cecilia was immediately in her IS, Ichika as well after shouting the name of his IS. Seriously, were not in an anime so the yelling part was quite unnecessary. I materialized my IS as well and while I was still materializing I quickly slid behind the rest of the class. When they were looking around clueless, I whistled to get their attention.

"Garisaka, why are you standing there?" Chi-sensei asked me.

"Because I've only used the Latronis, my IS for those who didn't know the name yet, in real life combat and I've learned from experience that it's best to have the upper hand by using a few… tricks." I explained. Most part of the class was looking confused. I threw a questioning look toward Chi-sensei and she nodded. I let a screen pop up with two dummies.

"For example, Dummy A at the right side of the screen wants to launch an attack. So he runs towards Dummy B and while he runs he materializes his IS to get an sudden speed boost, which in turn also confuses Dummy B and gives Dummy A an opening to strike."

The dummies on the screen did exactly what I said and the students began to understand my explanation.

"I see. So that's why you threw that apple to Cecilia in your fight." Houki commented.

"Exactly. Did this explanation answer your question Orimura-sensei?" I tried to say her title with a subtle hint of sarcasm. It seems she caught on.

"Yes it did. It seems that you're already able to fight in reality, Haru-chan."

"Hey! There are only two persons who can call me that, and that are my mother and Nee-san!" I said agitated. Aaaaaannd I fell right into her trap. If you want to know why I know, her smirk gave it away. Dammit, you win this time!

"Well then, The actual reason I let you deploy was to show the rest of the class the basic flying maneuvers and materializing weapons instead of showing off. So the three of you go flying." Chi-sensei ordered. Cecilia and I took off immediately, but Ichika seemed to have some trouble flying. In order to help him ( and to show off) I slowed down and started to fly backwards so I could talk to him.

"Yo Ichika, you seem to have some troubles." I said relaxed. He looked at me with a look that said 'Stop showing off.'

"I have some troubles with the whole flying theory." He said annoyed.

"Oh yeah, the one about the pyramid thingy right?" I asked him. He nodded.

"That's theoretical bullshit in my opinion. I've learned to fly by trusting my instincts. But still, the learning process was painful." I shuddered at the thought of how many times I crashed on one night. When I can, I'm going back to that place to see if Nature already healed.

"You crashed into my house while sleeping." Ichika retorted.

"Yes, but I got to the right destination while sleeping. Not many people can say that they can pull that off. By the way, your wall should be fixed by next week."

"Oh really? What if anything's stolen?"

"Well, nee-san said that she would take care of the security while you're away so…" I didn't need to finish my sentence by the look on Ichika's face. He knows what she's capable of.

"Haru, I don't know how you do it, but it seems that Ichika-san has learned how to fly." Cecilia said with a smile. Now that you say it… Wait, Ichika-san? I didn't know that they were that close already. They must've become friends after their fight.

"When are you three coming down?" we heard someone shout. We looked down to see an angry Houki who had grabbed the megaphone from Yama-chi. Man, she should respect the teachers some more.

"That's quite hypocrite of you Haru-dono."

I never said that I wasn't hypocrite. Hmm, how can I scare the- I mean teach Houki a lesson?

"Garisaka, you have to land 10 cm above the ground (roughly 3.9 inches) after coming down in full speed!" I heard Chi-sensei yell. Thank you for the sudden idea.

"Oh no."

Oh hell yeah! I dived towards the ground in full speed as instructed. But anyone who was quite observant would notice that the angle was slightly pointed towards the group. When I was pretty close to Houki the girls started to understand my intention and started to scream. I suddenly stopped and made a gigantic sand cloud for the dramatic effect. It came down after a few seconds so everybody could see me hovering peacefully in the Lotus position (it's that position where your legs are crossed) on a height of 3.5 inches according to my AI. Houki was the first to recover from my little antics boy did she look angry. And there's the killing aura. Seriously, am I the only one who doesn't know that technique yet or is it gender related?

"Are you crazy? What if you'd hit us!" Houki shouted quite hard. Especially hard because I was only 5 feet away from her face.

"You really don't have any faith in me, do you Houki-chan?" I asked her with a sweet smile. Oooohh a vein on her forehead can be seen pulsing. I wonder when she'll notice that I-

"Ara Shinonono-san, why is your hair down?" Cecilia asked with a small smile after she landed gracefully. I wonder if she's that graceful in DON'T GO THERE! It's not safe to think of that in public. Especially because Jr. doesn't have enough room in my full-body armor if he grows. Don't ask me how I know. But I digress. Houki was looking confused, and then touched the back of her neck, only to feel her hair cascading down.

"Haruka?" Houki asked me with a neutral face.

"Yeeeess?" I asked innocently.

"Do you know where my ribbon is?"

"Maaaayybee."

"Garisaka, quit screwing around and give Shinonono her ribbon back." Chi-sensei deadpanned me. tsk, she's no fun at all. I gave Houki her ribbon back and Chi-sensei was about to start her explanation again. I wonder where Ichika is.

*CRASH*

There he is. The whole class gathered around the small crater Ichika made.

"Dude, you alright?" I asked him with my face hanging somewhere between worried and amused. No idea how I pulled that one off.

"Kinda. Thank god nobody got hit." He groaned out. I wanted to respond, but the Demon approached.

"Orimura, after this class you have to fill up this hole again, but get your ass out of it for now." Chi-sensei ordered. He crawled out quickly with a frightened look. Well ,someone in this Arena's whipped. When Ichika rejoined us Chi-sensei started again with the class.

"Now, we'll move to summoning weapons. Alcott, you begin with your weapon." Chi-sensei barked.

Cecilia materialized her rifle in a refined pose with the barrel pointing sideways. And scolding in three, two , one…

"As expected of a representative candidate—however, you've got to change your pose. Who're you aiming at when you point your gun to the side? Try and point it at the front."

"Bu-But, but I need to maintain this for my image—"

"CHANGE IT! YOU HEAR ME?"

"—...yes."

Cecilia looked like she wanted to argue back, but she immediately shut up after Chi-chan glared at her. Wise choice, sometimes it's better to retreat and live to fight another day.

"Cecilia, deploy your close-range weapon."

"Wha? Ah, yes, yes!"

Cecilia seemed to be grumbling about her pose, so she got shocked when she was called, and answered slowly.

The gun in her hand became light particles, she 'deployed' a new close-ranged weapon. Note my loose interpretation of the term 'deploying'.

However, the glow in her hand couldn't shape itself as it floated around in the air.

"Huh..."

"Isn't it ready yet?"

"It, it'll be ready soon—ahh, damn it! 'Interceptor'!"

She half-reluctantly shouted out her weapon's name. After her focus gathered, the glow shaped into the weapon.

"...How long did you take? Do you want the enemy to wait for you in a real battle?"

"In, in a real battle, I wouldn't allow the enemy to enter my range! So, so there would be no problem!"

"Oh? But against Orimura, you seemed to have easily let a beginner get close to you."

Awesome, I'm not a noob according to Chi-sensei, that's got to mean something. But I'd better help Cecilia, that embarrassing face is just too much.

"Excuse me, but Ichika had an unfair advantage." I said calmly. Chi-sensei looked at me interested.

"Really? Please explain how then."

"It's quite easy actually. It's because I already fought Cecilia six days before him. Thus, taking pity on the poor noob, I taught Ichika how to close in on a long range fighter without taking too much damage ,which is essential for a IS-pilot who is highly specialized in melee combat, in the five days between my and his match. Cecilia here on the other hand, had no information or whatsoever on Ichika's fighting style because it was simply nonexistent before our… practical lessons. If they have to fight each other again, I'm confident that Cecilia can come up with numerous counter strategies against his way of fighting." Where did I learn to talk like that? Chi-sensei kept looking at me for a few seconds before she nodded.

"If you look at it like that, you're right. I already had a feeling about it since that crashing idiot over there fought like he had some training before." She concluded with a stern face. Although I could see the faintest of smiles on her face thanks to the enhanced sensors. Wow, that must be one of the rarest things on earth to see. Thanks for zooming in whichever of you two did it.

"No problem." I heard G's voice again. I could practically feel that mischievous grin forming on her lips.

"Well then Garisaka, how about you deploy your weapon?" Chi-sensei asked me.

"Which one do you mean? The Assault Rifle, Phantom Blades, Longinus, grenades, BITs, the wired daggers or the smoke screen?" I asked while counting on my fingers how many things I can use in battle. Oh yeah, Laura told me more about those Launch Cables. There're daggers attached with her at the end, but with me it's only a one and a half inch sharp point. But since they resembled Laura's wired daggers more than normal Launch cables, we decided to stick with that name. now that I think about it, I'm practically a walking armory.

"Bring out your spear first, we'll have a look at your other weapons later."

I materialized the Longinus in 0.52 seconds, but something felt off. For some reason my spear felt… heavier. When I looked at the blade my eyes widened in shock. It was still covered in blood. Wasn't it cleaned?

"Haruka, there isn't any blood on the Longinus. Nobody else can see it except for you." I heard G's worried voice. After a second of silence the screams of those I killed came back to haunt me. I was slowly being pulled back to that mind. Don't go back there, don't go back, don't go!

Come, we're waiting for you…

"-aka! Garisaka!" I heard someone yell my name. In a mix of shock and fear I dashed backwards when I saw a hand reaching for me and in a daze I pointed my spear towards the person that reached out to me. When I came to my senses I saw the whole class looking in shock and some were even scared shitless. Chi-sensei was only an inch away from the tip of my blade. I expected her to be furious or something among those lines, but she only looked at me with an calculating look. After what seemed an eternity, she finally spoke up with a trace of worry and gentleness in her voice.

"Garisaka, dematerialize your IS and come with me to the infirmary." She said softly. I complied and followed her. As we walked away, I heard people whispering, but couldn't hear clearly what they said. I was focused on the blood that appeared on my hands. Chi-sensei gently squeezed my shoulder.

"Don't think of THAT. Keep your mind occupied with something else." She told me.

"You know, it's really strange for you to be so kind. What changed?" I asked with a hollow smile.

"I risked my ass to save yours, so don't make it a futile act by going into shellshock. You know what that is?"

"Shellshock is the name for the psychological and psychiatric consequences of events and experiences that make it impossible to resume military duty. Physical symptoms are most commonly numbness and slower movement and psychological symptoms consist of insomnia, anxiety, emotional liability and hallucinations." I said what I remembered from a movie I saw once. She nodded in approvement. Silence returned for a minute until we stood still in front of the infirmary

"So you were the masked IS pilot." I commented absent minded.

"Yes. Garisaka, if you can make a smartass comment while lying there cut open on a table, you can overcome something like this. So don't give up or me and Alcott won't forgive you. " she said before leaving. I watched her retreating figure before I entered the Infirmary. But I didn't expect to see HER there.

"You've gotta be shitting me." I said surprised.

"Is that the way to talk to your mother?" Miyuki said with an amused look.

"Hey, mom?" I asked calmly.

"Yes honey?"

"Why the hell are you here?" I asked her. She looked like she was thinking before she answered with a cheery smile.

"I forgot." I did one thing I'd never expect to do, namely falling comically on the floor because of an ridiculous answer.

"Please tell me that you're trying to make a joke." I asked while I still lay on the floor.

"Did you really think that I'd say something like that for real?" she asked me annoyed.

"You never know, it could've been possible." I retorted. She huffed at my answer.

"Do you really have no faith in your own mother?"

"Don't take it personally, I barely have any fate in humanity left."

"So, why did you come here?" Miyuki asked me seriously. Whoa, where did the sudden personality change come from?

"Haruka." She urged me to tell it.

"According to Chi-chan I might have shell-shock." I told her.

"Well, with the stuff you've gone through last night it's not really a surprise that you have a reaction among those lines. So, what made her think that?" she asked me. I took a deep breath and told her what happened. By the time I was finished I was looking to the ground with shame. I said that would be able to handle it, but after last night I'm pretty sure I contradicted my words with my actions. What the hell is everybody thinking of me right now? Probably that I'm crazy or something among those lines or even worse, that I'm a coward. Miyuki walked towards me and made me look in her eyes. They were filled with compassion and regret.

"I'm sorry. If I hadn't left you would've had a normal life." She said ruefully.

"Who the fuck are you kidding? Even if I've had a normal life the Ichinose and Kurasabe would've screwed it up somehow. Now they can't touch me without my consent or claim me as a 'part' of their family because everybody knows me as Garisaka Haru and not Kurasabe Haruka. So, thanks to you I am one of the most influential persons on the world because of my rare ability." I tried to cheer her up.

"But I've done almost nothing but making you suffer." She was on the verge of crying.

"No, that was because of that inadequate piece of shit that I had to call daddy. You on the other hand were a great mother. But I'm pretty sure we're here to fix my crazy mind, so what's the treatment doc?" I asked her with an empty grin. Stay strong for now, just this moment. She needs a shoulder to cry on as well. So stay strong until her guilt is slightly lessened. You can still break down when nobody's around in the middle of the night.

" Don't. I know what you're thinking." She told me sternly. Dammit, that's the fourth person that can read my mind. It's not friggin fair!

"Life ain't fair." Are you kidding me? At least give me some privacy!

"Anyway, for your treatment theoretically it's quite simple. You've started to doubt yourself and lost confidence. So all we've gotta do is build up your confidence again and letting you accept what happened." Miyuki explained to me.

"And how are we going to do that?" I asked curiously. All I got was a grin that looked exactly like mine.

"You'll see Haru-chan, you'll see."

I am so not gonna like this.

Ch 12 is finally up! now I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I got a decent plot for my story so the next 6 or 7 chapters should be written in a higher pace. Now the bad news. I'll be from the 18th until the 26th on a snowboard vacation in Italy, so I won't be able to write there. Maybe I can get a small chapter by Friday but I don't promise anything. Now on with the answering of the reviews.

Matchstick800: yes I know that Latin is still taught in schools but it is officially a dead language, but what're you gonna do about that?

Fangking2: Am I really the first to kill someone while she had an IS deployed? Wow, I must either be fucked up or original.

Haruka: you're both, so don't make people choose.

Me: I'm not that crazy compared to that guy who played the main lead in A Clockwork Orange. Now he played the role of a psychopath really well.

Haruka: A bit too well since he barely had work after that. Poor guy.

Storyteller of Darkness: I know what you talk about when some people just waste their ideas. That's just painful for me, especially since I love to read and write. And have I already thanked you for all the advice you gave me? It did help quite a lot. Now, did I forget something.

Haruka: Yes. Dude, you do not just someone to have fun with a mental breakdown. That's like saying to an alcoholic: "Good luck staying sober, I'll help you and empty this bottle of your favorite liquor right in front of your nose!"

Me: Dude chill, it's just a story.

Haruka: maybe for you, but it's my life.

Me: it's my liiiiiiiffffee. It's now or neeeeevvveeeerrr.

Haruka: DON'T START SINGING THAT SONG AGAIN!

Me: Cause I ain't gonna live fore- *THUD* *CRASH*

Haruka: Due to the fact that ananvil inexplicably fell on xtenchix while he was singin a song from Bon Jovi, I'll continue with answering the reviews.

Our Guild:

Utah: Always glad to explain things. If there ever are any more questions, please do ask them.

Rose: Well, his imagination just kinda created me during a boring lesson French. The teacher was pissed when her hopes were crushed of him finally paying attention. She wanted to read his notes out loud so she could embarrass him in front of the class, but he wrote it in a way that only he could understand it. And after two months nobody cracked the code and he still designs the whole story during random moments when he has inspiration.

Minion: if he wakes up from his forced nap, I'll put him back to work.

AnimeL0ver00: to what I understood from his weird imagination (no seriously, if you wonder whether Ninja Pandas or Laser Shooting Unicorns would win in a fight, then something's wrong with you.) it'll remain interesting.

Kosuke-Dono : To be honest, he got the Idea for the Survival Program while playing Spore and it evolved further in a span of 3 seconds to the story we have now. I quote him as he explained his idea for this story to his brother: "Humans are actually only sophisticated animals who learned to adapt and build further on already existing things. This is why we are on the top of the food chain for thousands of years. So, if something as basic and raw as animalistic instincts can help us to survive, why not a sophisticated piece of technology?"

That were all the reviews. Please keep reviewing, point out mistakes or flaws in the story or just ask questions about his weird personality. So, have a nice day. Thank god he's out cold or he'd start singing another Bon Jovi song.