She clears her throat and asks again, a little louder and more confident this time.
„Can I help you, Sir?"
He moves closer. Fast. And before Serena knows it, he hits her. Hard. She falls to the floor. He moves her a little to the side and sits on top of her, holding both her arms to the ground so she isn't able to move. Tears roll down her cheeks. She cries and tries to scream but he is covering her mouth with his dirty hands. When she wants to kick him with her feet, fight back, he slaps her again. She's scared and in pain and as he puts his lips on hers, she completely loses herself
/Why me?/What did I do to deserve this?/Why fight back when when it's gonna happen anyway?/
Serena's body becomes stiff, her once so bright eyes become hollow as he rips her blouse off and grabs her breasts with his hands. His faces moves closer to hers, licking it, then licking the space between her breasts. She cries, whines and squeals but at the same time she knows that there's nobody near who could possibly hear her. His clothes are gone within a second. He plays with her breasts as he touches himself.
„Girls like you need to be fucked hard." he whispers in her ear, laughing devillish.
But Serena is in trance, hoping it'll be over soon. She knows it won't be. He roughly grips her waist, opens the button of her jeans, gets rid of it, and her panties. His filthy fingers touch her where only Dan is allowed to touch her. Serena whimpers which ensures her another slap. He moves his fingers in and out. It hurts. So much. But Serena is brave and completely silent. Still touching himself, he gets bored with what he's doing. He squeezes her breasts again then takes his thing in his hand and enters her. Fast. Rough. Serena squeals loudly, going through a kind of pain, she has never felt before. He moves fast, pushing hard and aggressively. He comes quickly, filling Serena with everything that's him. He pulls out and moves his face close to hers.
„Good girl." he says as he pinches her cheek and gives her a peck.
He puts on his clothes and runs away, leaving Serena where she is. Completely naked. Serena can't move. She's freezing, she's in pain. So much pain. Not even being able to locate the pain, she moves herself slightly to the right, grabbing her phone, pressing speed dial. She inhales deeply as it rings.
„Serena, it's 11:30pm, I need my beauty sleep. Wha –" the person on the other is being interrupted by soft, heartbreaking sobs.
„Blair; I'm in Central Park; I need help." Serena says with her voice shaking, before she collapses.
She doesn't witness much of the drive to Lenox Hill Hospital. The paramedics gave her some pretty strong pain killers, not being entirely sure what exactly happened to her. Serena managed to cover herself in her clothes before they arrived, not wanting to be exposed. As Serena's face looks pretty beaten up, the paramedics figured she probably got mugged and tried to fight back. Arriving at the ER, they start suturing her face, as she has a gash on her cheekbone. She also has a broken forearm, which they cover in a cast. When she wakes up, a crying Blair is holding her hand. When Blair sees Serena is waking up, she contains herself and wipes away her tears. Blair strokes Serena's hand gently.
„What happened?", she asks, hoping not having gone too far just yet.
„I got mugged.", Serena lies as she looks away from her, not wanting Blair to know the truth. Her eyes fill up with tears and she sobs bitterly as Blair grips her
hand even harder. The doctor enters the room and starts speaking in medical language, which neither Serena nor Blair understand.
„In other words, Ms. Van der Woodsen... You have a bruised cheekbone as well as a fractured forearm. We'd like to keep you in for a couple of days, for security reasons."
Serena turns her head away, not wanting to hear it. Blair waves the doctor goodbye and turns back to Serena.
Blair knows something is wrong. They've know each other their entire lives, shared every secret and have overcome every obstacle together. She knows her
better than anyone.
„I talked to the police officer earlier,...", Blair interrupts the silence „he said they found a man at the north gate of Central Park, with bruised knuckles, walkingaround suspiciously..." She stops talking as Serena starts crying again, covering her ears at best she can with just one hand.
„Serena? Look at me. I need you to be honest with me," Blair says gripping her best friends hand once again.
„He didn't just mug you, did he?"
„I don't want Dan to know.", Serena speaks up for the first time after the doctor left.
When Serena arrived at the hospital, they took away all her clothes and personal belongings to save any form of DNA the alleged mugger could have left. That also included her cell phone. Dan was still at home, waiting for Serena to arrive but when it was 12am and there was still no sign of her, he tried calling her. Many times. Without success. He got a little worried, so he called Blair who was just about to call him.
„Hey Blair, do you have any idea where Serena is? She should've arrived home 30 minutes ago.", Dan says unsuspecting.
„She's at Lennox Hill, she got mugged and she asked for you.", Blair says with her voice shaking, knowing she's lying to Dan but she's in no position to tell him the truth so she keeps her mouth shut.
„Oh my god, I'm on my way.", Dan says as he runs to the door and catches the next cab he can get.
When he arrives at the hospital it's almost 1am. He literally runs to the front desk.
„My-my name is Dan Humphrey. I'm here for Serena van der Woodsen. Where can I find her?" he says as someone tips him on his shoulder and he hears a familiar voice. He turns around and sees Blair.
„Dan... her room number is 2005, that corridor over there", she says as she points him into the right direction.
When Dan walks away to find Serena's room, Blair spots the nurse that's been taking care of Serena.
Blair pulls her aside and whispers: „We're gonna need a rape kit," The nurse looks surprised. „and make sure her boyfriend doesn't notice", Blair continues as thenurse nods understanding.
Blair tries to be her usual cool self but inside she's hurting so much. Her best friend got raped and she can't do anything to help her cope. Of course she'd keep that secret for Serena, though she didn't know for how long she could keep it in before it became too much to handle...
When Dan arrives at room 2005, he takes a moment to take a deep breath. He has no idea what expects him behind that door and frankly, he is scared. He knocks, then enters the room. What Dan sees makes his knees go weak. There she is, his girlfriend, the love of his life, lying in a hospital bed. He examines her face. Two black eyes, her cheekbone sutured, her nose swollen and her arm covered in a cast . Serena smiles bravely when Dan's eyes fill up with tears, though he manages to smile back. He turns around again, now facing the door, not believing what he just saw. He has never been a crier nor super emotional but seeing Serena like that makes him cry. Thousands of thoughts shoot through his head
/Why wasn't I there to protect her?/How could someone do that to her?/We live in NYC, why the fuck wasn't there anyone who could help her?/I'm going to kill that fucking bastard/
She knows he's heartbroken and tries to be strong for him. She inhales deeply and starts talking.
„Dan?", she says. „Dan, come here.", she continues as Dan is still not moving. „Come here!", she says, now more insistently.
Dan finally turns around and walks up to her. He puts his head on Serena's legs, not knowing what to do. As he starts crying, Serena's eyes fill up with tears.
With her good hand, she strokes through his hair to comfort him, when it should be the other way around.
„I'm okay Dan," she says bravely „It's gonna be okay."
#
The next day Serena sends Dan home to get some sleep. They didn't talk much anyway. There was nothing to say. Dan could see the fear in Serena's eyes. Everytime a visitor would come, she'd cringe and start shaking. He couldn't watch his girlfriend suffering like that and he wished he could suffer for her. But he couldn't. Just as Serena is about to drift to sleep, Blair stands in the door angle with fresh flowers, smiling lightly. It's a short visit because a nurse comes by with a wheelchair to take her to her examination.
„I'm gonna wait for you." Blair says. Serena responds with a weak smile.
She undresses herself and sits on the examination chair, waiting for the OB/GYN to arrive. The doctor introduces herself as Ms. Stevens, when she sits down in front of Serena.
„Ms. van der Woodsen, I can't possible imagine how you feel right this minute but I'm trying to make this as comfortable as it could be for you. I'm gonna checkif you have any injuries in your pelvic area, as well as your uterus and vaginal canal. We're also gonna do a PAP smear to check for STDs and take some blood to check for HIV. Is that okay with you?"
Serena nods absently but as soon as the doctor wants to start the examination, Serena starts crying and shivering, closing her legs, not wanting to be touched where he touched her. Dr. Stevens carefully grips Serena's hand, trying to comfort her. Serena has always been a strong woman, a brave young lady. She wipes away her tears and pulls herself together as the doctor finally takes the PAP smear.
„Done. You can put your gown on again now and a nurse will take you back to your room," the doctor says throws her gloves in the trash „I'll come by later to inform you about the results."
Serena lets out a somewhat relieved „Thank you" and sits down in her wheelchair and is taken to her room soon after that. Blair is waiting for, as promised but they both are not in the mood of talking so they just sit there, Blair holding Serena's hand tightly as she's lost in her thoughts. A while later, Doctor Stevens comes by that Serena is free of injuries and STDs but would have to wait at least 6 months for the HIV test results.
Same day, later, Dan comes by to see Serena. When he sees her, not lying in bed but standing up trying to put on her clothes he asks gently: „What are you doing? You should be in bed."
She interrupts him, being out of breath: „Can you help me?"
When he doesn't move, she tries putting on her clothes again and almost collapses. He rushes by her side and catches her. „I'll do it, I'll do it." he says as he kneels down and carefully pulls up her leggins.
„I hate this gown..." Serena says as her eyes fill up with tears.
„Serena..." Dan breathes quietly as he moves up.
„I wanna go home," Serena says, now crying „Please... I don't wanna be in this hospital." she continues as she collapses in Dan's arms.
He strokes her back lightly, moving his fingers up to the ribbon of her hospital gown and loosens it. He pulls it off and glances away, not wanting to see her naked torso which is covered in bruises. Serena let's out a „Thank you" as Dan helps putting on her blouse, still not looking at her.
„Look at me.", she says. Dan intently looks at her, then smiles lightly.
„Thank you," Serena whispers. Her voice breaks but she continues „for loving me.", resting her on his side, now crying harder.
„Take me home."
He wraps his arm around her body, supporting her as she's still too weak to walk properly. They walk along the hospital corridor and sit down in the cab that's been waiting for them.
a/n: here it is, chapter deux! I had difficulties writing it, especially the first part because it simply broke my heart. i hope you like it anyway! Please review and tell me what you think and if I should continue! xoxo